I'm so uncomfortable near guys,and when I was younger like 12 I used to think that I was in love with a bunch of them but when I started dating some guy I felt like I was suffocating and I would break up with them. When I was 11 I used to think this guy was hot and because of it I used to say I liked him,then he rejected me saying I was ugly and fat ,I know that I felt just bad about being humiliated but what if I actually liked him and I'm just in denial. When I'm dating girls I feel comfortable, I feel good about being flirty with girls and even more ... What if I'm not actually lesbian and I'm just in denial... This are the types of thoughts in my had all the time