I still kiss and cuddle with him but… I still feel nothing…. I haven’t gotten therapy yet… I sometimes don’t cry…. I am convinced I am not attracted to my partner when I still randomly touch his butt. After feeling this way for awhile I am convinced I don’t love him anymore… been saying I wanna break up still to get a reaction when I don’t want to b it I get no reaction anymore…. 😞 I cry very little compared to before… does this mean… I only love my partner when I have feelings… I know I love him when I don’t constantly focusing on the negatives about my partner….

Do you just constantly every single day think about the negatives about your partner?

Now my goal is to set aside the figureing him out … ocd makes things seem urgent… there’s no need to rush … right now I can focus on getting help for OCD and just let the negative thoughts be there without following them “Living in OCDs obsessive fear is much worse than my fears being true” This isn’t a cake walk but I believe that the more I obsess the less clear things will be but the more I engage in treatment in the long run the more clear things will get outside of the shadow of fear 💕

For me i realize that even if I break up with my partner OCD will find another way in and that maybe my partner isn’t the right one for me BUT I will never be able to see what’s right for me CLEARLY under the weight of fearful obsession. There’s a podcast called the OCD and anxiety show on Spotify Episode 52 entitled relationship OCD and dating Specifically discusses attraction 💕

I will definitely look into that

I am focusing way too much on his flaws… it’s like when I don’t. I get a sense of relief and I know I love him. My friend said it’s not the relationship it’s the fact that my main issue is money. I obsess about it all the time.