I'm not feeling so good right now. My mind is fueling my relationship with doubt, but I feel that my intrusive thoughts have really made me reach genuine doubt and that scares me. I don't know how to express that I know I am committed to my partner and our relationship, but I'm scared the way I feel will make me do something I'll regret. But worse, I'm scared of my feelings being true and I don't want them to be. I hear a lot of people say on social media "maybe you do care for your partner, just not in a romantic way" but I don't want it to not be in a romantic way. I feel very down and separated from any romantic connection. I don't know how to explain it.

rocd is so hard because it feels like it really could be real , i relate to this bc i’ve gotten to the point where it’s just like ok well i know it started off as ocd but is this real now? but with ocd we can’t trust our thoughts and feelings like a normal person can , i think we have to just go with what we want to be true rather than what we feel ‘must be true’ bc what ‘must be true’ to us is a result of thinking and thinking and thinking. what i try to do is remember how things were before my ocd relapse with the new theme rocd and take that as still being how things are even though my brain is screaming at me that it isn’t anymore

Its really hard to remember :( I also struggle with depression and I don't know why but remembering anything good or some memories in general is just such a hardship. It makes me feel that my partner and I have no good memories but in reality I just cant recall for the life of me

I'm same, trying the recall of the good, and feeling the mutual love between us.