Mental compulsions to be perfect
My life is good, but i Want to feel all things and be grateful to be incontrol of my life. I think being positive and confident is important, but without knowing / feeling it i cant achieve it. So I do these mental compulsion to get right feeling to be normal , perfect. But like all the compulsions it goes in circle and circle. Not doing it I feel unhappy, frustrated and life goes out of control even tho I know I should not. I don’t want to make these compulsions. I feel so stupid.