- Username
- Heello
- Date posted
- 548d ago
- Real Events OCD
Feeling Like a Horrible Person
I hate myself for the way I am and the way I act. I really am feeling bad about myfelf and worrying a lot now with probably a lot of real event ocd. I have problems with porn and even "sexting" (I said that because I dont really do it literally and didnt do it in places that could afect people). This happened a few times but its enough to make me feel like shit. Even though I am 23 years old, I feel extremely guilt even for watching porn and fapping. I am literally feeling like a piece of shit and ocd makes it worse. I also have pocd, religous ocd, real event, false memory, moral ocd and altought ocd wasnt bothering me so much past months, now its coming full force. I dont know how to deal with this. I am doing therapy but I dont feel safe to share all this. I feel shame for my ocd thoughts and I try not to be specific about it in therapy. I dont know what to do. I just want to stop feeling like a horrible person and thinking bad about myself, that I am such a horrible person. I am always trying to evolve as a human being and change habits and bad habits, but still sometimes I feel myself this way. Someone please help me with some word. I know I am seeking reassurance and I dont want that, but I would be glad if someone could share a word, talk with me a little. Thanks