- Username
- Melody2022
- Date posted
- 540d ago
- Young adults with OCD
Harm OCD, can it get this bad?
My name is Anna, and I just recently been dealing with what I believe is “Harm OCD” I know this has been a trigger for a lot of people but it started when I found myself seeing clips of “dahmer” and it really caused me to spiral. It made me have a lot of dark thoughts that I’d never think I’d ever experience in my life. I’m a very sensitive person and I’ve always been, and the fact that this is happening to me feels horrible. It can get so real to a point where I actually believe I’m a bad person, and I feel like I need to act on the thoughts, when I know there’s a right mind in me somewhere. It has latched on to themes of me Hurting myself or my loved ones and it scares me because it makes me feel like I’ve lost the love I’ve had for my family my whole life. I have moments where I question “why should I be good” and I don’t want them. I just feel like a monster and I just don’t want to feel this way anymore. I don’t deserve this, I feel like I’ve lost myself and I don’t know how to move forward. Has it ever gotten this bad for any of you?