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- Date posted
- 488d ago
- "Pure" OCD
- POCD
REAL EVENT/ FALSE MEMORY (pocd)
ok, so i’m not going to go into to detail what the memory is itself because it’s quite disturbing. and when i say disturbing i mean it. So around 2 years ago? i developed pocd, and during this time i remembered a real event that happened when i was 13-15 i can’t remember, i am 19 anyways i was able to get over it. Well fast forward to now. I was triggered and remembered this event. However i have been obsessing so much about it. I have developed so many different versions of this memory i don’t know what’s real and what’s fake. How can i possibly accept a memory that is so disturbing and disgusting. what if i actually did this and i don’t remember. how can i move past this if i actually did it. god i wish i could just go back into the past and redo everything. what if i don’t have ocd since i’ve never been diagnosed. What if OCD is just an excuse. i also have a fear that when i die i’m going to see everything i done wrong in my life and everything i was scared of becomes true. i don’t want to go to hell. I starting nursing school next year and i don’t want this to be the end of my career