- Username
- FrustratedSadHuman
- Date posted
- 486d ago
- Harm OCD
- "Pure" OCD
My thoughts are killing me ...
I woke up 3am from sleep paralysis. I'm used to having sleep paralysis for years, and I'm not afraid of it anymore. Suddenly, loads of intrusive thoughts came to my mind. It's so random. I've tried to think and do other things to forget it but the more I try, the more it came worse. I cannot sleep and I can't stop crying thinking how to stop these useless thoughts. I'm really afraid of what I may do trying to convince myself. I end up convincing myself to stay awake until a certain time I believe it's safe or my thoughts will not really happen. Now, it's beyond that time and I still cannot sleep and can't stop crying how to end this misery. I'm really sleepy but I can't help it, I can only cry and try to do things to distract myself from thinking. My thoughts are killing me ...