- Username
- Anon17
- Date posted
- 481d ago
- Health Concern OCD
- Harm OCD
- "Pure" OCD
Soo much going on!!
I feel like have had an array of 10 different themes in the course of 2 days. Every which way i turn it’s something new. I truly don’t know who i am at this point. I’ve been doing good all day as far as my health concern ocd is related but now I’m back to square one. I woke up today anxious but felt better as the day went on. I haven’t had any real physical symptoms for today, until now. Based off of my previous posts it’s clear than i fear brain tumors more than anything. So to not experience any symptoms these last two days was an extreme relief. But now I’m back to the beginning. Head pain/ pressure, twitching of the eyes and temples, etc. I’m so scared once again. But on top of this I’m experiencing harm ocd, real event ocd, pure ocd, etc. i feel like I’m truly experiencing it all right now. And now everyone around me is getting sick as well and i am not sick yet. And everybody at work is saying oh we are screwed if you get sick, i hope you don’t get sick, what are we gonna do if you get sick, etc. and my mind automatically assumes the worst. My mind is telling me that I’m not getting the flu or stomach bug like everyone else. My mind is telling me that I’m Going to be hospitalized with a brain tumor, brain infection, appendicitis, cancer, etc. i truly can not take it right now. And now I’m scared of eating because i don’t want to damage my heart even though I’ve never had issues with it 😭😭😭