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- 427d ago
- Harm OCD
- POCD
- "Pure" OCD
Why Is It Getting Worse?
So, first two things I’d like to add is that 1.) I have no intention on harming anyone. 2.) I am in the process of getting therapy and I’m on Zoloft. So my obsessions are over everything that jeffery dahmer did. I get scared I’ll be like him and everyday I see people like that in my mind or me liking it. I’m scared sexually rn because whenever I try to masterbate the thoughts pop into my mind constantly. Not only that school is so hard when being around so many people. You’d think since I’m on the path of help I’d feel better but no I just feel numb. I hate every moment of this. I cant even eat a meal without a damn thought popping in my head. I don’t want to be a monster. I just want to live and be. I want to be kind and loving and empathetic and honest as well as compassionate. I live in fear every day and I feel so alone it’s crippling. I almost got sent to a psychiatry place when I talked to a therapist at my school. The other lady said that I was normal, that made me feel better but I just want peace.