- Username
- Kamiscool1
- Date posted
- 423d ago
- Harm OCD
- False Memory OCD
- "Pure" OCD
ocd after a night of drinking
had insane ocd and anxiety this morning after a night of drinking, ontop of hormonal problems after my period just ended. and i took my hydroxizine and now i feel much better. i used to not be on any medicine and hated the idea of being on medicine. but i have an actual chemical imbalance (this happens when i drink or don’t drink too, but it’s worse after a night of drinking) so i think i’m gonna stop drinking alcohol. i’m on 5 mg of lexapro now, which i know isn’t a lot. but i like how it doesn’t take all my problems away, just makes them easier to deal with so i can figure out how to get over feeling so anxious and like a horrible person. i don’t like questioning my morality even tho i know it’s a mental illness i can’t control. it’s really hard out here. but my doctor said the brain is an organ just like the pancreas or heart.. some people have to take insulin for diabetes or high blood pressure medicine for an irregular heart. same with me, having a chemical imbalance in my brain, which is the biggest organ in our bodies and taking medicine makes me feel better so fuck it. a life of medicine and feeling normal is a way better life than not taking it and feeling like shit all the time. i will be going to therapy soon to help it better, but it’s hard to find time and money. esp w work and school. thanks for listening!