Real event ocd
So I Will try to vent a little. When I was a kid I did something I regret a Lot and many times I cant forgive myself. I disrespected my sister and some times I even think I am a harasser/abuser because of It.
Thing is, I changed, repented and asked forgiviness. I am a better person.
The thing is sometimes, I cant forgive myself or even forget that this happened. Even my sister doesnt get bothered about it, but I still feel Lot of guilt and even want to die.
Sometimes I even think I shouldve confessed with details, but then I figured out something: If a husband betray his wife, he would confess but giving details are not necessary and could be worse, without helping.
Sometimes I think I am a liar and I often think I would not be able to live without confessing everytime.
I confessed to my mom too and even a Priest years ago.
Now I am trying to make mindfullness so I can handle this better.
I also think Ive reassured myself. I hate ocd.