Am I doing this exposure thing right?
This is my road to recovery. I had mild ROCD and when it started getting bad I decided to try my best to recover ASAP because I don’t want to live trike this. Every time I have a thought, I consciously repeat it in my head in the “so what if that’s true?” way. Every time I have an uncomfortable feeling I tell myself “Sit with this feeling.” And every time I am about to do a compulsion I refrain from doing it (Such as today, I had a thought “why do you want to stay with your partner” and I rushed to think of a reason/excuse but then halted myself and just let the question/thought hang there without thinking up an answer. I feel a bit anxious like what if it’s a toxic reason or what if I don’t actually wanna stay with him, but I’m trying not to let it bother me.) the thing is, I feel much better after doing this. Immediately. After I say these “good” things in my mind I feel fine afterwards and it’s suspicious because shouldn’t I be uncomfortable rn? What if I’m subconsciously doing a compulsion and that’s why I feel better? I don’t know if this is good or not and I have no idea what I’m doing😅