I'm having a hard time tonight. This all started at my last session my therapist gave me some things to do and I'm struggling. I've been totally off the rails compulsing, but I feel like I have alot of new information about what I feel. I'm freaking out but also this is the most true the hocd has ever felt. I know I've messed up, but I feel like I've pushed alot of boundaries and it is just true. I feel like I can't keep lying to myself. I'm a woman and I rarely feel any attraction or sexual attraction to men and I feel like i can't make myself feel this way. I'm feeling this stuff and having thoughts about women and this is it, it's true. I feel like I know what my therapist will say but I don't know how to stop or change all this.