Still get thoughts that I am gay and I don’t have many compulsions apart from reassuring myself mentally and speaking and getting answers on here. I’m finding it very hard it makes it seem so real. I just want to know who I am and OCD doesn’t let me do that

So what answers do you get on here Vanderpoll

I feel the same way. I feel like I have thoughts and they are just there and have been forever, and I don’t know what my compulsions are anymore. They say OCD is supposed to be ego-dynastic, meaning it seems like the thoughts are outside who you really think you are. But I don’t even know if that’s how I feel. I truly don’t know if these thoughts are my real desires or if they aren’t. It’s not evening scary anymore, it’s just exhausting.