It felt/feels more real when triggered. Had your mind not reacted to it, then the whole experience would’ve been dismissive. The former is, well, OCD.
You’re right :( I didn’t mean to. I think it’s because it was a groinal response towards my friend and I had major anxiety because of it. Like that’s my friend you know? and then I proceeded to have the same thing happen on a tiktok and then and had Intrusive images and scenarios pop in with more groinal responses. And I was also upset at my bf that day and etc… thank you though 🥺