My mom has always said i have a thing for feminine looking guys w/ feminine features and that’s apparently a sign of comphet & being a lesbian :( Cause i can admit i don’t like masculine guys w/ a lot of muscle, but i also don’t like super feminine boys that wear like skirts and makeup and such (not that it’s bad! Just no my preference). Kinda like neutral type boys with good personalities. And im scared that’s because im a lesbian & just refuse to accept it I also have a lot of the signs of comphet And like i have this fear / vision of myself in the future as a lesbian & looking back on this whole thing laughing & seeing how much i was in denial & being in a happy relationship with a women And that vision scares me so much and gives me so much anxiety & i’m simultaneously scared it doesn’t give me anxiety & i’m just forcing myself to feel that way Like i can’t do this anymore. I can’t keep hitting myself every time i get these thoughts. I just can’t do it anymore