I can’t take this… I really don’t feel like I wanna stay with my partner…. I don’t get intrusive thoughts as much as I use to like i did in the beginning…. How how can love be a choice!? When you feel like you really don’t want them anymore or you’re seriously might end up being jn denial! I love him I know I love him even though it truly doesn’t feel that way. I did a lot of damage to myself. My relationship is healthy and sure every relationship has it’s problems.. but my never had enough to where I’d wanna leave! I have my period too right now so that doesn’t help. I am self sabotaging everything believing he might not love me anymore even though he tells me he loves me and doesn’t wanna leave. Been self sabotaging thinking he’ll leave me eventually too for someone else.. been worried we don’t have nothing in common… I just can’t take it anymore….. I got so mad at him yesterday for no reason… my period is hitting me hard this time not giving me a break… but my ROCD and constantly feeling like I don’t love him at all has fucked me up… I use to be so close to him…. 😖 The only time I felt in love at all was the night before Halloween and I was so happy and confident in my feelings! I told him I am happy for once and that I love him… now it all felt like a lie! My relationship doesn’t feel like it’ll go back to normal if I get help or not… It’s like I found my truth but don’t wanna face it!! Please how can this be ROCD if the intrusive thoughts have calmed down!!??!!!!!!