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Hi there.. i have been dating a guy for 4 months and i think i lied about my work position .. i work with a company and the director refers to me as his assistant and leaves everything in my hands when he is not around. I do part of the director's work. I told this guy i have been dating that I'm an assistant director since everyone refers to me as the director's assistant and I'm not an assistant that makes him coffee or book him meetings. As i said i do part of the director's work and help in a few but not all the decisions of the company. And now I'm feeling guilty and thinking of every lie i ever told to anyone before and feel shameful. Can someone give some tips.of how i can cope pls ?

I can’t do this anymore. My ocd convinces me I’m a racist, a psychopath, a weirdo. I hate myself so much I don’t even know if I have ocd or I’m just a terrible person. I need help and I can’t get any.

I believe I’ve developed a new theme about worrying about having contracted HIV. At least 3 if not 4 months ago my penis touched the rim of the bowl at my college dorm bathroom and since then I haven’t stopped worrying that I may have contracted the virus. No matter how irrational the fear is, and how unlikely that scenario is, I can’t stop reading on symptoms and WebMD. I donated blood recently and haven’t gotten an email saying they used my blood yet which has made me worry. I know they test for it

Can't get a hold on whether I did something or not. So I go like: if you accidentally did it, forgive yourself and move on. So did I do it? No, I didn't do it. So there's nothing to forgive and I have been worrying over nothing. But if I did it? Nonstop!

Need to talk someone, hocd pls ?

I’m going to share my experience with hocd I think or not: About a year ago I was laying in bed and a random question came into my head which said “your gay” the. I was like what if I then my anxiety went through the roof then next Morning I forgot about it. Next I was getting to know this girl who I really liked and we spoke for months then suddenly she was not interested which then made me question myself and then got depressed. These question were is it because I’m ugly, am I weird, does she think I look gay, oh god what if I am and that’s when this started. I will get images of gay sexual acts which would distribute me and give me anxiety all day, from then until now I always get the thoughts and which give me anxiety, seeing gay stuff on tv gives anxiety so I can’t watch or do certain things, these thoughts or real life things give me groinal which is the worst and it feels like it’s on fire but is not full erected. I’m on google everyday doing research even at work when I suppose to be working, get dreams which when I wake up disturb me but I’m the dream I don’t know. Even when the thoughts go I always have this feelings of uncertainly which just invites the thoughts in. Pls help us this hocd or denial

Has anyone work with Sam Greenblatt or with Dr. Steven Phillipson's clinic? I would like to know if I was the only person with a poor experience.

I had a idea for the people who suffer with real event ocd..how about we make a group chat on instagram or something to talk to each other. Not everyone understands real event ocd which I understand and some of us are very lost because of this. If anyone is interested let me know :)

Does any one have any advice. Whenever I do imaginal exposures I don’t feel anxious I just feel sad and scared. I haven’t felt anxious constantly for a while. What shall I do? I don’t really know of any other exposures... they just make me think “this is just imaginary not true” so it doesn’t do enough for me. And now I’m kinda scared that I don’t feel anxious all the time. My heart just drops when I get the thoughts and that’s it. I feel sad and scared after

I’m struggling with doing ERP with my rOCD right now. I feel like I have no loving feelings toward my fiancé, and if those feelings are so fickle, maybe we shouldn’t be together. What if I have rOCD AND am in the wrong relationship? Although I guess there is no WRONG relationship as long as there are no major red flags (which there aren’t). But maybe I just don’t want to be married to him? Today I feel annoyed by everything he says and does. I hate having to go through this all the time. I feel so tired.

How have you guys dealt with your stickiest / most long lasting theme? For me this is HOCD; I had other themes popping up in the last few months but I was able to get past them quite quickly with acceptance and a sort of shrugging manner, like ‘the probability of this happening isn’t enough for me to waste my time obsessing over’. However HOCD has always been different, it was what started my ocd and what I obsessed over for a year before discovering I had this disorder, and it often feels like when I decide not to obsess over it, I’m just sweeping the issue under the rug and not thinking about it. I’m better with a lot of the triggers but the big ones, like ‘comphet’ and my relationship nerves, are so hard to ignore. A part of me is always saying ‘you’re just ignoring this, you shouldn’t be!’. This is always been the theme where I find it so hard to distance myself from the content and look at it from an ocd perspective because when something relates to your identity say, I find it harder to ignore than obsessions about health or existentialism for example.

Does anyone else have this problem? So I feel like all my crushes were either just in my head or forced. I think they were genuine, but HOCD is now using everything against me. It feels like I was never attracted to boys in the first place and that I was only aesthetically attracted to them. I'm scared, it feels too real!!! I looked at my crush and smiled but it felt forced. Then I get thoughts about attraction "what if you only like him for his looks?" "what if you forced yourself to like him by dreaming about him?" "what if you never liked him and is using this as an excuse?" I'm terrified .... what if i never liked him in the first place. What if this a sign of comphet?

How do I stop my fear of hell and other related fears? I am new to figuring all this out...so help would be appreciated

Hello everyone, I feel I’m going crazy. I have “checking OCD” and for example I check that my front door is closed and the same instant I turn away, the doubt appears if I checked correctly or I if didn’t. Another example could be, when I check or set a phone setting (that is important to me), the instant I switch screen, I doubt I left the setting the way I wanted it or not. It’s like False Memory OCD, but Immediate False Memory. Any other similar experiences? Thank you for reading me.

I have no idea how to use the exercises because I’m not always sure of the trigger to my ocd. I ruminate and obsess constantly, the thing I obsess over and have intrusive thoughts over changes when I’m no longer freaking out over one or whenever it feels like it. It’s typically in a pattern when I think of my thoughts. I was wondering if anyone knew how to tell me use this app or stop the excessive obsessions/intrusive thoughts

Guys I’m struggling. So I’ve been doing erp and my therapist is amazing. She’s supportive and doesn’t reassure me which is good for OCD. I’m so frustrated because I’m not feeling better yet. It’s SO FRUSTRATING. I’ve gotten my reassurance down from 200 times a day to like 5 times a day. It’s unbelievable. At the same time, I still feel horrible. I can go a few days with 0 reassurance, but then it will go back up to 10-15 reassurance a day. I get so bad at 0 reassurance that I give in. My ocd will tell me “you might not have ocd” and “this plan won’t work.” Then I get so discouraged. It literally convinces me I don’t have ocd. I NEED MOTIVATION TO do 0 reassurance FOREVER. I need motivation TO PUSH THROUGH A FEW WERKS OF TOUGHNESS AT 0 reassurance TO BEAT THIS. I also am not ruminating as much and I never avoid anymore. The main fear is that I don’t have ocd. I’m also getting frustrated lately because It will convince me on autopilot that “I can’t enjoy politics” and “I don’t like girls”. It attacks everything I love. I also feel like I’m so out of it sometimes. I’m working so hard. Just need that motivation to keep going. My ocd mainly makes me feel doom and down. That’s why it bothers me. I’m working on accepting it and not doing reassurance!

The narcissism thing is bothering me WAY too much today. I’m feeling really numb today and I like know how to respond to people based on like that’s what you should do but I’m scared bc I have no emotion feeling with it. I’m just numb today. I know in bpd sometimes people can be numb but..

What if ERP feeds my obsession? My mind is like a vacuum that absorbs all the information possible and puts it against me, creating deeper obsessions and more thoughts.

I apologise for posting again so soon, but tomorrow is a big deal for me. I have my first appointment with my new doctor. I'm excited cause I'm hoping he can help, but I'm scared my hopes are too high. What if he can't? I don't know what I'll do after that

I recently broke up with a friend of mine...and even though it’s been hard I’m ready to get over it but I keep obsessing over it. I keep trying to find things to do but my mind just won’t give me a break and it’s getting really annoying. I’ve talked out my feelings, wrote it out and much more but it’s not good enough I’ve been praying for DAYS...literal days begging God to make the thoughts stop and...clearly judging by this post my prayers haven’t been answered Emotionally I am okay about it and I’m ready to get over it but mentall my OCd is not budging...ugghhhh.