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I'm finding it so hard to transition into adulthood. I feel like I'm smart enough or prepared enough for any of this. :(

My inner voice tells me I don't value him enough, I don't love him enough, don't miss him enough and everything I feel and do isn't enough

If I walk through doors or door frames or walk through something like with wall near it or somwthing big or small or whatever near it and my mouths open/didn't breathe right/didn't do something right/didn't do something. I keep doing it but i keep like spitting ish, not like actual spitting but like making saliva bubbles and i feel like it helps but i dont know if it does, The thing is I got told i dont even have ocd, i got told its stress and anxiety resulting in ocd things, everytime I think about it I want to cry, the thought of someone thinking they know better than me ABOUT ME (I know they do know better but it angers and upsets me) MY FRIEND TOLD ME TO SEND THE FOLLOWING TO MY MUM AND SHE WROTE/ TYPED. IT "Dear Miss Eastwood, Hii so i am Charley one of lillys best mates, you havent met me before but i went to her primary, so ik lilly had a call from Cahms on monday over her mental health and the results came back saying she was completely fine and she has no problems, well thats where its kind of confusing, lilly told me not to tell you this but i am sick of her feeling like no one understands how she feels or that she feels like a mong, but i am going to tell you anyway cos lillys mental health matters the most to me and i am sure it does to you aswell, lilly has stated to me "Apparently when I've told them i can't eat I can't even brush my teeth or get in the bath can't even walk through a door or a door frame but don't worry I'm fine" in this sentence it shows that lilly is not okayy she struggles to do simple everyday tasks clearly there is something not okay with her, one night poor lilly messaged me saying she couldnt eat her tea, i had to force her to eat something even if it was one mouthful so i knew she had something in her belly, she had a couple of beans that night, she didnt want to eat cos she didnt want to repeat things as it drained her, a 13 year old girl cant eat, drink, charge her phone, have a bath, walk, talk, message at all but yet there is nothing wrong with her, lilly has messaged me multipul times crying asking for help, wondering why God made her like this and thinking nothing will ever get better, it hurts me soo much knowing that lilly (part 1)" ".... knowing that lilly isnt getting the help and support of her family at all, she feels like a mong whenever she has too repeat things because that isnt 'normal' she feels as though she has to say sorry after repeating things which she shouldnt have too, i am not trying to make you feel guilty at all about this but i want you to know that lilly is not okayy and isnt the happy little girl anymore, she goes to bed everynight crying wondering why she aint normal and why everyone thinks nothing is wrong with her, it annoys me that no one is taking her seriously anymore, she feels as though the only people supporting her are her closest friends, i have told her so many times that things are going to get better and its okayy not to be okayy, i have told her inspirational quotes that have helped me such as 'a glowstick has to break before it can glow' i have told her to follow accounts on imstagram that help her mental health because she needs support, i have done so much for this girl and when she finally gets better someone hurts her again and no one at home helps her, i know you have heard some of this before and there is more but as a best friend to lilly i feel like this needs adressing, also it is mental health awarness month and lillys mental health i s getting pushed aside. " "part 2" "...... why should a little girls mental health get ignored, idc if u think nothing is wrong with her, this girl is struggling no matter what some 'special' doctor says. Sorry about this i hoep things inprove now you know if you want to know anything else feel free to ask me and lilly cos lilly isnt going to suffer in silence anymore its time she gets her voice heard. hope you have a nice weekend and stay safe. Charley x"

Can somebody please respond?? Whenever I get intensive thoughts about being gay, I get a weird positive vibe about the thoughts. Like I like the thoughts, but I dont want to. I always wanted to have a girlfriend. I never had feelings for a guy. What the fuck is happening to me... I don't even het excited anymore whenever I think of girls

What do you guys do when you have thoughts that have to do with something you did in your past? I am having an obsessive thought about something I used to do as a young teenager and feeling like I’m disgusting for it and worried about doing it again.

God I really am starting to hate pornsites. I try to only go on the bigger name ones since they put more effort into regulating it and every once in awhile I see an armature video where the girl looks young but can easily be 18 and that happened recently. I tried looking on the comments to see if anyone else questioned her age or confirmed how old she was and no one has. I didn't watch the video but I guess I feel guilty because from the thumbnail the girl looked attractive but questionable on her age and instead of moving on I tried to investigate it. I keep feeling intense guilt even though I didn't even watch the video. Even thought about going back to the video to report it and see if it gets taken off but I decided it would probably be better if I let it go, but now I keep thinking this over and over. I try to use uncertainty to counter these thoughts but the guilt and anxiety just piles on. To the point I was starting to have a panic attack and started disassociating which just made the anxiety worse. Now I just feel disgusting and I hate the feeling. Makes me feel like I don't deserve the air in my lungs.

I don’t see a lot of Harm OCD posted on the thread; unless it’s being posted as Pure OCD because rumination, etc. takes place mentally. But I can’t be the only one who experiences Harm OCD towards others that’s using this app. I would truly appreciate any feedback from anyone who can relate to this post. Thanks in advance!

I don't know why but I saw a lot of YouTube videos on phedophiles. Now I feel like I am not only a pedophile but also a psychopath who is going to molest any children insee. God please help me i am crying 😭

What is something you wish more people would understand about what OCD is like for you?

really struggling here. i actually accepted the uncertainty for once about experimenting and now that doesn’t even bother me anymore i’m just letting myself be open to whatever 🤷🏻‍♀️ i was also trying to be so perfect with my sexuality and stuff and it really took a toll on me and i kind of let myself go and just said hey i’m not 100% straight but i would like to identify that way and i was fine!!!! but the main things i’m struggling with right now are: 1. because i accepted myself as 100% not straight i feel like i need to label myself as bi 2. i’m struggling with a false attraction 3. i think i’m in denial i feel like a lot of people are going to come at me and say i’m bi because i’m more open and not so “OCD” about being 100% straight anymore and that im open to the idea of experimenting even though i have no idea if i would even like that because i genuinely don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️

What are ocd moments you had as a kid?

how do i convey my ocd thoughts to my partner without scaring them off? my obsessions are about how i feel scared that “what if i don’t love her”. what do i do?

Does OCD cause loss of focus and loss of memory of any kind? I'm having trouble concentrating. My mind if not only filled with intrusive thoughts but also many other thoughts, and I don't know how to 'empty your mind and let your thoughts pass' I also feel like I'm frequently losing my memory and have trouble memorising things and/or concentrating This is highly affecting my studies and academic score

Does anyone have advice about dating with OCD?

I finally had sex with my partner. It was amazing but now I am having a panic attack! Maybe I really do wanna break up! Why would I cry about not wanting to break up with him.... I don’t wanna end my relationship! 😢 I wanna love him. There’s nothing wrong with my relationship why is this happening to me!! My ROCD calmed down and I still feel this way... 😞 is my 10 1/2 year relationship gonna end... 😢 I cried in the shower thinking I don’t want him to love someone else but then it feels like I don’t care... 😢 please... did someone go through this and still saved their relationship!!? Please I am so desperate...

please don’t judge about this. i know drugs aren’t great but i’ve taken them and it’s causing me a lot of uncertainties. so if anyone has insight into drugs, without judgement, please answer! mdma doesn’t hit me and i’ve taken it twice. i’m not on anti-depressants and the pills were 100% real because everyone i was with could feel it. i was the only one who couldn’t. i feel the effects of alcohol and i used to with nicotine too (though not so much anymore). but i’ve never felt ketamine really. and i don’t feel very high on weed these days either. with mdma, the second time i took it i was shivering a lot and had a clenched jaw. i felt ill aswell. i had all the physical effects but not the mental ones. essentially i’m just scared i’m like mentally different or lack the right ‘brain chemisty’. loads of my ocd themes circulate around psychopaths and narcissists and empathy and stuff so the fact i can’t feel mdma (an empathetic drug) really distresses me. but i hope there’s just a logical explanation, like i lack the serotonin in the first place or something. or my anxiety stops it. i really hope i’m not doomed! i mean i know i have empathy but what if i’ve been wrong all this time and i don’t? really scared about all this :(

Is this sexual abuse ? I was on YouTube and I saw a 14 year old on the thumbnail of the video . I was like “oh he’s cute “ . I had watched the video before and they said he’s 14 and I had a thought , “wait isn’t he 14 “ while also just looking at him and finding him cute. Then after that I was like wait is he actually 14, watched the video and it turns out he actually was . So then I closed it and panicked. So now I feel like a gross pedo sexual abuser even if I didn’t find him cute after looking at him properly . I’m 17 idk if it’s relevant . I went on stopitnow.org and they said it’s sexual abuse to find someone 3 years younger attractive ? Can someone please help I’m freaking the fuck out .

I relapsed hard as hell today. Been on this app and ocd reddit as well as schizophrenic reddit asking for reassurance all day. I went like 21 days without these compulsions even though I was still mentally reassuring. It feels so real guys. What the hell is wrong with me.

Maybe a TW! Somethings seriously wrong with me!!...I think this is worse than POCD and Pure-O!!.....I just wanna die!! God you didn't protect me!!...I wanna die!!....I can't believe something that happened with my cat!....I just wanna die!!

Does anybody else have the theme of constantly having to prove that you’re ‘normal’? For me, that’s constantly searching up what certain things I do mean, and why they’re relevant. Constantly trying to find reassurance online that I’m just like everybody else. The idea that I could be different in anyway is DAUNTING. When it’s bad, it takes up my days and it’s practically all I can think about, and it’s starting to impede on my social interactions as I’m constantly monitoring whether what I said was normal, etc etc.