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I'm not diagnosed with anything. So today a friend of mine brought alcohol to school and a bunch of us took some. I took a sip of it and I knew I shouldn't take it cause I'll start feeling anxious but I took it anyways. It's been an hour and I'm getting anxious. I'm staying to think that I'll have psychosis or that I'm having liver failure or something. I know I didnt take enough for that by I'm still kind of freaking out. Can someone help

I’m having intrusive thoughts of something horrible happening to a loved one and the ocd says that I’m “attracting it to happen” and that no matter what I say or do I’ll “attract” this to become reality when I know logically that it was just a thought but the what if and the “if you do this then____ will happen” I just feel so intensely afraid and I never want these things to be real obviously but idk it’s just a scary what if and it’s hard to believe that something that feels so real is just a thought—- then I proceed after recognizing it’s just a thought to fear that saying that somehow the universe will cause that horrible thing to happen as “proof” so I just sit and wait and beg everyone to be careful and keep in contact with me so I know they are ok The thing is is that nothing ever happens but the fear just feels like it’s actually occurring Goshh I’m a friggin mess

Last night i had a had a dream about an ex and then they changed into a man 😞. Any advise anyone ?

This is for those who experience menstrual cycles: If you have a period does it make your OCD worst during that time? I think today will be the first day of my cycle and I’ve been super bad today.

I need advice..: so I talked to this guy and I felt like I really like him and then he got scared and said he needed to make himself happy first so we stopped talking then one day he called and now we are talking but I keep feeling like I’m not really into him and I really wish I was and I’m still sticking around giving this a chance I just don’t feel like I’m very attracted to him but I think I have something really good and idk if I need to back off so he doesn’t get hurt or if I should keep giving it a chance. It’s been maybe a little over a month since we started talking and I’ve only hung out with him twice when we met and when I stayed the night we him. Advice and opinions please?

Has anyone had experience with reducing your medication causing relapses with OCD and bad anxiety/depression? (I take an antidepressant in this case).

I have POCD. I have constant thoughts of raping and molesting children every time I see one everytime I'm near one. Images through my mind. Last year it gotto the point where I aunt to the police station for the medical pictures I look at to turn myself in for child pornography all I didn't feel like a constant danger to society and have distant thoughts of suicide. I thought I'd be dagger in jail. The police officer didn't feel that way and decided to take me to be evaluated. I hot upset and busted or his window,then he needed to take me to jail. While in jail I became severely depressed realizing my pain would never in and they sent me to the hospital. They hired a forensic specialist to find a program. Is was determined there were 12 in the country 2 of which wouldbe eligible for a single case agreement. 2 of which I was denied. Outpatient therapy is only self pay. The hospital days they can only " keep me safe" until I all ready to deal with my thoughts again. I'm tired of the hospital. Medication doesn't work anymore. I'm tired of medication as well. 14 years of my 27 ice been dealing with this. I've decided to love the rest of my life outside of jail where I feel most safe where I inevitably kill myself. I had hope at one point and it is gone. I deserve pain I know. But I want it to be over I'll tired of fighting to be safe. I'm tired of being scared. My case manager sent me this link for support. I can't hold on much longer. I just want to make it through the weekend so I can talk to my therapist

Encountered a pretty bad OCD trigger today. I suffer from mild sexual orientation OCD. It used to be pretty bad, but I tackled a lot of it with ERP, and it got significantly better, but I got super busy with school and slacked on my sessions a little, and things have started to get a bit worse. I went to the city on a ‘girls day’ out with a few of my friends today. We were just talking, and my friend thought she saw a strip club, and I said “I’d kinda like to go to a strip club, just for the experience”, and she looked at me confused, and said “girls?”, and i said “yeah, it just seems like it’s fun with the music and stuff” - HOCD not even in my mind at this point, I just genuinely think strip clubs would be fun, not in a sexual way, as I said - and then she went, “you sure you’re not a lesbian” and started laughing. I was hugely triggered. I know I’m not a lesbian, and I knew what I meant - but OCD does what it does, and that really triggered me. But, it didn’t make me nearly as anxious as it once would’ve done, and the silver lining is that it was a good exposure! I just felt like writing this here, because I know there’s a lot of likeminded people who will understand how that was triggering.

My brain keeps saying "you should come out lesbian, tell her your a lesbian" but I don't wanna be a lesbian... I want to like boys... I like Boys! I think... I mean thinking abt liking them makes me happy so why can't I just like guys... I hate this. I'm so confused idek anymore.

Anyone, please help me . My intrusive thoughts are constant. They are horrible violent ones and they are constantly in my head. Does anyone have any method to just suppress them or make them less overpowering.

I'm going to see a psychiatrist on Thursday. What should I tell him so he recognizes signs of Pure O? It's very important to me that he understands that I don't just 'worry about stuff', and that I may have OCD although I don't have many phisical compulsions

Can someone give me help or advice? I've been so scared of the day I'll finally open up about how horrible my OCD and its themes are to my boyfriend. I can't do it rn because I need to get a diagnosis first but I'm so scared of how he'll react. But I also want to open it up bc It's something I struggle with Like will he accept me? judge me? It's so hard because he tells me he loves me so much and will stick by me no matter what but I don't know if he's ready for what I'm about to open up to him. I also don't know how detailed should I explain it. I have a confession compulsion wherein I feel like I have to explain everything in detail but of course I'm sure the nitty gritty details will make him (even me) uncomfortable like how I've had POCD intrusive thoughts about his nephew and the thoughts I've had when I was ruminating during it. So do I explain like I have POCD and it can involve people I know in real life like your family? Like it's generalized too for future POCD attacks. How do I go about this? How do I open it up and refrain from feeling guilty if I didn't give all the details or feel like I'm leaving things out? Any advice on how to explain how horrible OCD is? I basically just want him to understand how tormenting and horrible it is but I have no control over my thoughts and I just want his support and acceptance.

Any tips for fear of flying? I’m not actually scared of the act of flying. I more psych myself out with things like “what if I have a panic attack while I’m in the air for 9 hours and I can’t do anything about it?” “What if I go crazy and need to get to the emergency room immediately and I can’t?” I used to fly all the time, but since my OCD got really bad, being in a confined space in a situation where I have no control terrifies me. I haven’t flown in 2 years now. I’m just scared of having a panic attack in the air. And I always get that “am I going to go crazy?” feeling during a bad episode. I know I won’t actually go crazy, but I know especially being in the air is going to trigger that.

I remember the exact night my brain turned on me last year and it’s just been downhill ever since. I just don’t understand why I’ve gone all my life so far without OCD and it just hit me out of nowhere at 25.. i guess everyone is different.. but I just don’t know what to do now. I’m terrified to try meds. Therapy is expensive. I just feel so lost.

I want to ask people here If this makes me a p3d0. I read fanfiction since I'm 10 and since I'm 12 I started to read about yaoi( gay sex) This last months of 2020 and first of 2021 I read horrible stuff. I found this ship(paring) and the characters have 13 and 10. I read fanfiction about them. I remember telling myself that It doesn't matter If I read about them I'm 15 and they are just drawings, and the only thing I should do is imagined them older. I and I have now flashbacks and I couldn't imagine them older. I also read some bizarre things involving one of the characters. Another thing I used to do months ago was fantasizing about gay sex, and one of the guys would be really feminine to the point of looking like a boy. I have memories of me trying to imagined them older, but I don't remember If I did that all the time. I'm sorry to everyone. I never wanted to be this person now. I don't know why I did it anyways if I knew it was bad.

My Trans OCD story. I hope this will help someone. If you have TOCD, reach out- lets support each other. Here goes: Last Easter, about two months after I got a severe concussion, I got dressed up for the first time. Skirt, blouse, lipstick, etc. I looked in the mirror and a part of my brain said “you look like a man in drag.” It shocked me, it scared me, it disgusted me. In august, I called a suicide hotline because the thought came back “what if you are a man?” It disturbed me so much my first thought was to check myself into a hospital- it’s opposite of everything I’ve ever wanted for my life. It left for a few more weeks and then I woke up one day and my brain started in again, this time nonstop. I considered ending my life again. Then I met my boyfriend. He changed everything. With him, I feel like myself. But I can’t be with him every minute of every day. And when I’m not with him, the thoughts are back. It’s so disgusting and disturbing. I have no problem with the trans community, I *adore* my lgbt friends. But they have a desire and a need to transition from the gender the are not to the gender they are meant to be. I feel like my brain is dragging backwards bound and gagged from my desired gender to a place I have no business being. My thoughts are now 24/7. With ERP the anxiety is fading but in some ways that is scarier: they feel more real. I am having a rough time again but I KNOW I can beat this.

Are antidepressants effective for dealing with ocd. I was on them for 6 months .. it may have helped.. i stopped kina cold turkey .. it’s been manageable most of the time but there are bad days

I don't think I have ocd anymore??? Those thoughts aren't there anymore, no compulsion have done for weeks, no weird feelings, no intrusive anything,, I have been doing fine actually.. Am I recovered or is this ocd doing?? 💀

False feelings anyone ? 😞

Do you guys think this is ROCD or am in denial(I prey not). I've been in a relationship with my girlfriend for almost 8 months now and I assume I fell out if the honeymoon faze a long time ago. I get worried because sometimes i feel annoyed with her and don't feel like I love her and then other times I just want to love all up on here, cuddle with her, and give her affection. I'm just scared because it just seems like most of the time It doesn't feel like I am attracted to her or that I love her. I want to fight and keep pushing because I know love is a choice but I don't know if i'm just in denial or not. I just really want to feel the way I used to about her or at least like not feel doubtful and feel like almost repulsed by her (in a way ig). I just want to feel for her again please helppppp.