My POCD and real events OCD is telling me that I’m similar to or worse than actual p’s and chomo’s who did stuff throughout the ages of 12-15, and did horrible stuff later in life because of my extremely horrible real events that happened when I was 13… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form… 😞😞😞
i haven’t been on this app since august because i feel like it feeds into my compulsions but anyway, i’ve went from a change from harm to pocd which is crap but i was wondering if anyone thinks a child is pretty then is scared if they are creepy?
I’m getting intrusive thoughts of being compared to P’s and Chomo’s who did stuff throughout the ages of 12-15, then did stuff later in life… my POCD is saying I’m just like or worse than those people, because of the extremely horrible real events I did when I was 13 years old… I don’t ever want to ever be a p or a chomo in any way shape or form… I only want to be with women my age and above…
OCD, will attack you in and direction. Let’s not let OCD sink us into the traps it leaves. Let’s do the opposite of what this says. Reminder that OCD just wants us to think about it in order for it to get bigger. Let’s refrain from letting OCD get bigger! We got this!
I don't know what to do anymore. All the distractions I used to use barely work anymore and the things I used to reassure myself don't work anymore either. Also, I had a thought today that felt so real that I can't help but wonder if it was. I can't enjoy the things I used to love anymore because they have somehow all become triggers. I don't know what to do anymore. This has only started about a month ago and it already feels like an eternity. I can't remember what it was like to feel normal anymore. It feels like these thoughts and feelings will never go away. I don't even know how they started in the first place.
So, overtime, my P-OCD has been getting better, but of course, there are times, a day or two usually, where I feel more anxious than usual, I might notice a certain physical sensation (my cheeks, my chest, my groinal area) and wonder if my reactions of disgust are genuine or enforced. Basically, I'm on one of those day, lol. Is having a routine of good days and bad days a thing for OCD or is it constant?
Is it a symptom of OCD when reliving a triggering moment over and over again in your head and imagining at least 10 different ways on how this triggering moment could have been avoided? For example, if I had taken another bus l, I could have avoided the trigger and would not feel anxious right now?
So every now and then me and my daughter give each other kisses sometimes on the cheek sometimes on the lips, I’ve never thought anything wrong about it but my mind is saying it’s wrong. Today I told her I was giving her a kiss and I closed my eyes to not see because I didn’t want ocd to interfere with me just loving my babygirl. Anyways I was closing my eyes and thought it was her cheek but it was her lips and I feel like I might have kissed her too hard in a wrong way. I’m upset because my mind is telling me it was wrong of me..
Does anyone else feel like the don't react appropriately to certain stuff, which then cause you to force yourself to have the "appropriate reaction" and then you realise that since you had to force that appropriate reaction, that means your actually the person you feel like you are? The smallest things trigger my thoughts now, I've just started completely avoiding them.
what do i do when i have an old event that seems real/familiar but i have no real recollection of it? it's sort of connected to another obsession, but i just can't come to an conclusion.😞
Anyone know where I can find a support group? NOCD support groups are only offered to those in therapy with them but I’m already in therapy somewhere else. I would love to not feel so alone but I can’t find any ocd groups around me
Anyone feel like me? Have you ever looked at Furry stuff or stuffed animals and got pOCD thoughts? If so, please tell me.
At some point, when my thoughts were really bad I started to feel like I was "tainted" or a contamination. I didn't want to touch anything because I felt so disgusting. While that isn't as bad as it was before, I still cannot bring myself to look in the mirror. I feel too disgusted at myself. Had anyone else felt that way?
Is it normal for the same theme to come back? If it keeps coming back does that mean it’s true and I just don’t wanna accept it?? Mine have switched from contamination to real event to pocd to health anxiety to pocd to harm and now pocd again. This time it feels sooo real
I’m scared I’m turning into a pe*o. It said that symptoms of p*do disorder can start at ages 13. Now I feel weird every time I’m near a child. I would never hurt someone like that. It’s like my brain is convincing me and I’m starting to believe it. Should I kill myself? Or ask my parents to drive me to a police station?? It feels like I want to be one or I’m accepting I’m one. Please help
Anyone else experience false memories with diaper changes? Getting a intrusive thought with images while doing diaper changes then wondering if I actually did that…😭 hate it because it seems real but there’s no actual evidence and I’m sure I would flip out if I did something terrible…
any tips on how to stop ruminating over potential false memory?
I know its making things worse but i need to know for sure if im actually a p* or not im literally addicted to researching and being on my ipad
So i started with pocd a few years ago, and back then it was intrusive images on literally every single child like 8yrs and younger, thankfully it wasn’t too severe back then and i managed to basically get rid of it, and did so well i even worked in a nursery for two years with no bother. But recently it has come back and this time it is more to do with young adults about 11-18years old. And i’m so scared that these thoughts and feelings are real. For example if i’m watching a film and say a 13 year old is on screen and i’ll suddenly notice that they are good looking, i immediately try not to think anything. Is this a compulsion? i don’t really have intrusive images anymore, i think i have mastered blanking my mind, and also they don’t bother me as much anymore. The main thing that bothers me is that it doesn’t happen too often but when it does it is usually when i see a good looking child, and i worry that it’s a genuine attraction. Every time that character is on screen i will solely focus on them and sort of test myself and keep my mind completely blank and become very aware of my thoughts and body, i always get groinal responses which always upsets me. I’ll just actively try to ignore it. But what if i am actually attracted to them, i can’t tell anymore and it’s terrifying me. I know it’s normal for people to notice beauty in a child but i can’t help think what if im genuinely attracted to this child and it’s really starting to wear me down.
How do I know they're not my real thoughts? I haven't been officially diagnosed by a therapist, but when I saw the symptoms, I knew that that was most likely what I had, or I thought I did. My mind keeps telling me I like those thoughts and that I want them. I haven't been freaking out as much today either, so that has to mean I'm fine with them. If that's the case then I'm an awful person. I feel like I should just kill myself just in case.
Idk what is wrong with me atp im not sure if its pocd or something else. when i do compulsions they dont relive me and when my family told me theres nothing wrong with me and that im not that person, im still anxious. My thoughts dont scare me that much its more of fearing that i might actually be one. please help no amount of reassurance is helping me
I was also getting POCD intrusive thoughts to during the events of my last post… 😞😞😞
i’ve been struggling with pocd the longest but it stopped completely bothering some time ago and earlier today i had an ocd attack of sorts of and did some compulsions and still feel anxious. i was wondering in case someone knows how to manage pocd in relationship? i’m so scared of falling into another endless episode.
im asexual and have that or what it is
I feel like this isn’t talked about enough or maybe I don’t know where to look. It’s so hard to not feel alone in this. Like what’s wrong with me, makes me feel disgusting.
When I hear my friends talking about “pulling a lot of girls” I get sad because as someone whose… a virgin… I’ve never really had a woman my age and above whose attracted to me for me… and no girl my age and above actually want to be with me…
Up crying because I had a sexual intrusive thought about doing something to a child family member that was close by me o would never mean to do something like that that’s not who I am I don’t recall getting off of the couch or anything but my mind is still wondering if it’s real I hate living like this I just wish I could end it
ok, so i’m not going to go into to detail what the memory is itself because it’s quite disturbing. and when i say disturbing i mean it. So around 2 years ago? i developed pocd, and during this time i remembered a real event that happened when i was 13-15 i can’t remember, i am 19 anyways i was able to get over it. Well fast forward to now. I was triggered and remembered this event. However i have been obsessing so much about it. I have developed so many different versions of this memory i don’t know what’s real and what’s fake. How can i possibly accept a memory that is so disturbing and disgusting. what if i actually did this and i don’t remember. how can i move past this if i actually did it. god i wish i could just go back into the past and redo everything. what if i don’t have ocd since i’ve never been diagnosed. What if OCD is just an excuse. i also have a fear that when i die i’m going to see everything i done wrong in my life and everything i was scared of becomes true. i don’t want to go to hell. I starting nursing school next year and i don’t want this to be the end of my career
Feeling suicidal again I'm so tired of having these intrusive thoughts I just can't take it anymore why do they have to feel real I’m afraid I did something to someone I love that I would never ever mean to do and now I can’t stop obsessing I’ve of I did or not
Why can’t i acknowledge that my thoughts are just intrusive and not reality it’s been a year now with me having them why can’t I understand how to know real from fake by now I don’t want to be like this anymore I’m tired of obsessing
I am getting groinal responses again, but it is because I put off exposures unintentionally for a while because I felt I was better. Taking responsibility for that but my ocd is trying to convince me I am other horrendous things (which I was warned about by others with ocd) so far my ocd has targeted my liking of crime/documentaries and liking animals by making me panic and get groinal responses around necrophilia (which is VERY VERY disturbing but I’m learning to treat as I’ve treated ocd these past months) and zoophilia which is equally as terrifying to me and new. As well as some gender panic and questioning. I thought that nothing could be worse than pocd, I was wrong. It’s a big step back but I’m not going to give up and I’m honestly exhausted lol This whole ocd thing has to be the worst luck ever
I started talk therapy and ACT with a goal of starting erp. I’ve had trauma other than ocd so the talk therapy has been beneficial but I’m also going through an ocd episode. I asked her when we’re starting erp and she said not yet because I’m making great progress with the tools we’ve been using (act/mindfulness) and the meds I’m on. I’m just scared because everyone says erp is the best way to treat ocd, should I be concerned??
I feel like it’s always in the background is this common with OCD
So, the reason I am dealing with intrusive thoughts for 10 months is because I give them the attention they wanted so I can be in this fearful state. While it still bothers me with the likes of intrusive p thoughts. Maybe I will try not to take some thoughts so seriously.
I was very nervous for today. I was gonna see a lot of family today including younger family. Which made me very anxious about how I was gonna feel or think. I got there and obviously still felt anxious but I pushed through and still had a decent time. I do my best to not overthink or over analyze things. But as you know it can be very difficult. As well as after going home then looking back on today and trying to remember if I felt a certain way or if I did something wrong. Throughout the day I did catch myself analyzing my feelings and questioning what emotions were real. Which I do almost everyday but today felt a bit worse with the questioning. But the good thing to remember is that I made it through the day. I did what I had to, I smiled, laughed, and nothing technically bad happened. Your brain can fight you so much. But at the end of the day we can remember that even if it was extremely hard, we still made it. And not that I’m not struggling. But I’d like to express how even though your at rock bottom you can still make it through your day. You choose your happiness.
I’m getting my wisdom teeth removed soon and I’m terrified I’ll blurt out any of my intrusive thoughts and people will think I’m weird or horrible or someone that I’m not. It makes it worse that my mom is very keen on recording me to post on Facebook when I’ve told her no several times. I told her I am not comfortable with her recording me and putting me on the internet when I don’t even know what’s going on. It’s causing me a lot of anxiety. Plus it’s the first time I’ll go under general anesthesia and I’m nervous.
That is all… HOCD and POCD keep intruding on me and make me feel like I’m not anxious of thoughts and it’s making me feel like I’m in denial because of the events in the previous post, as well as making me think I was in denial all this time… also forgot to mention in the previous post that while searching for stuff to watch, the searches were also giving me triggering HOCD stuff that I didn’t ever want to do it to during my private time and my HOCD is telling me that I was doing it to the triggering stuff when I dont ever want to ever do that.. and it’s making me feel like I’m not anxious about any of this… with chills in my arms… 😭😭😭
I posted my POCD and real events ocd story on an OCD discord group that sent invites on this app… a person told me… “what do you expect *discord person* to tell you…?” “That your a good person…?” Idek anymore… my POCD and real events ocd based on extremely horrible real events when I was 13 were extremely horrible, and I had no idea how horrible the real events were until I grew up… my POCD and real events OCD keep calling me a P and a Chomo and a child r^pist for it… idek what to do… 😞😞😞 I don’t ever want to ever be anything my POCD or real events OCD say I am… I only want to be a good person who loves women my age and above… a good person who cares for others and does the right thing…
Sometimes all I see is a kid and I acknowledge it’s a kid but it’s like my body has that initial reaction to them. At first I swear my body is calm and then a second later it’s like I’m overwhelmed with how calm it is. Children, even whenever they aren’t my own, make me so happy and they make me laugh and I have never once had a terrible interaction with a kid and this stupid ocd keeps making me think that it’s because I’m only attracted to kids and nothing more. Kids just can’t make me happy I always have to think it’s something more. And then I get sad and then I get confused and then it’s like idk what to do anymore.
I’ve never done this before, and although I want to because I know it’s supposed to help, I can’t imagine anything more horrifying than having to face my fears head on. So if anyone with POCD specifically has any experience, how did you actually cope? Did it work? How were you able to maintain being better if that makes sense?
The first time i got My Pocd episode started was the last time I watched prn, idk how to feel im happy about my progress but kinda sad that im still suffering
My POCD makes my whole body sort of tingle. Like makes me think I’m “turned on” seeing or thinking the things I do. Which makes my OCD even worse. I knows it’s just a reaction that happens, and it’s not actually being turned on, but it makes me feel so gross. I’ll god days, even weeks doing really good and not having POCD thoughts. And then BAM, it hits me so hard and ruins my day. Some days I can handle it better, but the past few days it’s been so hard.
I need someone to talk to right now I need to get something off my chest from when i was a minor I would never do it again I swear but my pocd was bad when I was like 15 or idk but all ik I was a minor so I looked up a cartoon type thing that would be pedophilic i didn’t know but now the guilt is killing me inside and i don’t want to be arrested for it I am a adult now and i would never do anything like that. I honestly didn’t know it was wrong bc I was a minor too! Now i am scared people will rat me out to the police and that the police will arrest me. I have panic attacks everyday about this. I just need to know if everything going to be ok.
It makes me feel like I can’t vomit when I try to see my reaction to the triggering HOCD and POCD thoughts anymore… 😞😞😞
Lately I’ve been obsessed with whether or not looking at someone/checking them out causes harm. Like, I live in a beach town where people are often shirtless in public and I wonder if I see someone in public and am attracted to them/their underwear is partially showing and they happen to be underage then that means I abused them. At first it seemed ridiculous because you can’t know the exact age of everyone you see and looking for a second can’t be abusive to anyone I’m losing touch with reality and am now freaked out to look up in public
When I was in my private time, I kept stumbling onto triggering things I didn't want to see, my HOCD telling me that I'm in denial because I'm cold as heck when I was in my private time, and intrusive thoughts and images during my private time my HOCD tells me that I'm doing it to when I don't ever want to ever do that to any man in any way shape or form... additionally, my HOCD is giving me intrusive thoughts about my friend and doing stuff with him or other guys... and I hate it so much... as well as making me think I'm getting physically aroused by the intrusive thoughts when I'm looking up stuff of women my age and above doing stuff… and I was getting intrusive thoughts of kids when I was trying to fantasize about women my age and above too… 😞😞😞
I’ve been struggling with my most recent bout of harm OCD. I haven’t had this subtype before so it really scared me. Before that was pedophile OCD. The bad intrusive thoughts started in July. I’m a female and I don’t know if this is related but I started taking these skin multi vitamins (high vitamin A and C, some others too) around the same time. I’m not sure if those are correlated but I just stopped taking them and felt relief from anxiety therefore less bothered by intrusive thoughts. I’m just wondering if anyone has noticed their intrusive thoughts get worse or better with certain supplements. I want relief but really want to stay un-medicated (for now) so looking for natural alternatives. Has anyone tried inositol?
Does anyone feel like they’re purposely thinking these thoughts? I don’t want these thoughts at all but it’s like I feel the ocd coming or in the back of my mind. I have really bad sexual intrusive thoughts & sometimes I feel myself going “I want to..” or “think about..” & from there the thoughts get worse. Sometimes it feels on purpose. Anyone else relate???
Hey ! I’m having false memory with pocd. It’s just making me so sick. The worse part is that at first I knew nothing bad happened, but with thinking and thinking it just feel so real now, I feel so terrible. Can someone relate ? Thank you 😥
At first I always thought if I did that what is the purpose of me doing that? then 1 year and a half later I seemed found the reason why I did that. and right now I really confused whether it was memory or outcome of rumination because it feels make sense and feels real.
What do I do if my HOCD and POCD gives me intrusive thoughts and makes me feel like I’m not anxious of triggering situations…? 😞😞😞 it’s making me think I’m in denial because of this… 😞😞😞
I've been in therapy with NOCD since the beginning of this year. Looking back over the course of the year, therapy certainly brought me some comfort, but lately, I realized I wasn't quite going about it the right way. For most of my life, I've done talk-therapy sessions, where the goal is to talk out your problems in a rational way. I got good at this; so good, that during my therapy sessions, I felt like I wanted to talk about everything wrong in my life. I remember feeling so overwhelmed earlier this year to speak to my therapist, because our sessions are generally 30 minutes and I was always wondering how I could possibly discuss all my life problems in that short of a time. It took me until last month to really realize what ERP is; ERP is sitting with uncertainty. Not fighting it, avoiding it, or neutralizing it. Looking back on previous sessions, I think I always wanted to talk about my problems because I was too afraid to just sit with their uncertainty. However, I noticed that whenever I dumped my emotions and stress on the therapy table, I'd feel better for a few days, and it would all return again. Over the past 3 years, I've returned to the same talk therapist on and off again. He has helped me tremendously with repairing some of my relationships, but talk therapy doesn't work for OCD. When I'd walk into his office after a few months, he'd always ask, "so why are you here?" I never knew how to answer that question. Because it always felt so urgent for me to just talk to someone about my OCD. But that therapist didn't specialize in OCD, and his philosophy was that by "focusing on improving other areas of my life, my OCD symptoms would shrink." Which is true to a small extent. But my intrusive thoughts and rumination would keep coming back again and again. I felt hopeless and embarrassed to talk about my OCD. It felt like I was making excuses, and that I just wasn't strong enough to follow my talk therapist's advice. Like everyone else knew a secret ingredient to life that I didn't, and because I didn't, I was damned to repeat the same cycles my whole life. Luckily, that has changed lately. I'm realizing that I have been hunting for certainty for so long that I had forgotten that life is uncertain. Now in my ERP sessions, I focus on doing exposures and sitting with and through my discomfort. I'm not perfect at it, but I'm making progress. I'm comparing myself less to the other people in my life, and focusing more on my own growth. It is still so hard; I'm sitting down right now to make a budget for my finances, and I am terrified to do so. But I know that uncertainty is the key, and accepting it is my road to healing. I wish you all good luck on your ERP journey, and remember that uncertainty makes us human.
Hello, I come with a question that has me quite anxious. when I talked to my therapist about what Rumination is (I'm Chilean and sometimes the info changes from Spanish to English or they mention things in one language that they don't in the other) and he said that rumination is something unconscious, many times when I ruminate I don't realize it until hours later, but also many times I know that I am ruminating, turning my thoughts over and over again without being able to get out of that obsessive cycle, knowing that I am doing it would make it a conscious act, so I want to know if ruminating only occurs unconsciously or can also be consciously, one can also know and be aware of it but still be ruminating. I wanna know this so badly bc i generally notice my OCD attacking me when i feel the urge to do a compulsion (as rumination is), but if I’m not ruminating there is no compulsion, and that makes me think i don’t have ocd and that mu obssesions must be true :(
Having a POCD episode at work, anxiety is so high right now, trying my best to stay functional at work, and this Headache I have is not making it any better!!!
Today when I woke up the first thing that entered my brain was "you're a p*dophile" and it felt so real and true like it was really me and now I can't stop trying to disprove it in my brain. I hate this does this happen to anyone else?
When I’m around my boyfriend, I feel like my OCD gets more intense- mainly because I tell him all of my scary thoughts and talk with him about OCD so much, so I think it might get worse because I seek reassurance from him based on how he responds to thoughts. He knows not to give reassurance, but he doesn’t want to see me uncomfortable. Any ideas for how I can stop this?
if my intrusive thoughts make me convinced I'm in love with my best friend who is 17 and I'm 22, isn't that pedophilia? if the thoughts were real it would mean I'm romantically attracted to minors
it just sucks
I haven’t google disease’s in a while… but today my oh my I’ve spend the last few hours googling & googling. It just sucks being so paranoid all the time. I wish I was normal. I miss who I use to be. I never use to worry & I just lived my life. Now I pay attention to every little detail & have to replay every single thing in my head… Even if I have a ok day with low anxiety my brain feels like it’s forgetting something & will scan my whole day to find something to be paranoid about. I’m sooo tired of this.
Had a breakdown yesterday and the day before but feeling better and more positive today. Thanks guys 💞
I cant get erp atm so I beed an alternative
hiiii i was wondering if theres anyone near my age (19) with pocd who wants to be friends and help eachother or anything !
Also when I’m in my private time, I keep getting intrusive thoughts of guys private parts and intrusive thoughts of POCD stuff like “little girls” while I’m looking at stuff with women my age and above… my HOCD and POCD are saying I’m either getting a physical groinal to the intrusive thoughts, or doing it to them… ihml…
I saw him when he was you feel like idk how old but I think he was like a preteen or teen and I thought he was cute but idk how old he was or I felt like he was cute and then I started feeling bad bc I felt so weird like what if I’m becoming into a weirdo now and I got groinials :( and idk if it’s okay that I thought he looked better with curly hair before 💀 idk im worried and I feel like a creep bc he was so young and idk what kind of cute I found him to be like innocent or like something else.. which is what it felt like :/ and I kept looking at him bc I felt like I had to do an exposure if I was feeling unsure or deal with the uncertainty, and I was scared that I was slowly becoming into my abuser and thinking it’s going to come true bc of these feelings and thoughts :( I feel bad
I don’t know if I can do this anymore… the guilt and shame is too much. No matter what I do it’s there and I just don’t think I deserve to be happy or to live or to be in a relationship… I can’t move on. I know we aren’t supposed to confess but I feel like I need to apologize to my childhood friends for being a complete monster and terrible human but I also don’t want her to #metoo me and my life be over bc of my disgusting 6,7, or 8 year old
Is rumination unconscious or conscious? And why
I’m watching a show and it felt like I was attracted to one of the boys bc I noticed he had an attractive face but he was on a date with a girl and I thought oh he’s cute like adorable bc he’s younger and I could see why the girl went on a date with him bc they look so cute together but I feel weird if I found him cute.. or felt attraction idk 😕 like I would not date him at all or anything or wasn’t even like attracted to him but idk I just noticed that his face was attractive? And now I’m scared that I noticed or something and it felt like attraction 😭
does your ocd seem to limit your life? I discouraged myself from having children, because I was always afraid that my thoughts are real about POCD, then I was afraid that I would be punished when I got pregnant. I'm afraid I can't be stable taking care of my child. on the other hand, soon I will move abroad to work. in a way, ocd is working out that i'm a real criminal. I felt I didn't deserve to go and it would be better to just confess and end up in jail. I feel OCD makes me confused, do I have to fight it all and live a normal life or keep thinking about my OCD theme. I feel I will be stuck and cannot develop if I continue to live only thinking about my OCD. but there is a side that makes me feel like running away from my problems and i feel really bad about that.
I get that OCD doesn’t know logic bla bla, but i wonder what the science is behind my anxiety towards my OCD themes. Right now it is SOCD/HOCD and i truly feel like my identity has changed. Before it was POCD and of course i was super distressed. But it’s weird because if i know deep down I don’t want to harm kids or be with a woman, why does my whole body and spirit still believe what my OCD says. It’s funny when you say it out loud (definitely doesn’t feel funny lol), but how can my OCD make up the most harmful lies about me and my brain goes “okay i believe that” and then obsess over it. and then whenever that theme is done I can laugh about it when in turn when I had those themes, you feel like you’d rather dieeee than face your obsession? OCD is hilarious in theory 😂😂😂😂
How are you sure that what you're thinking is false memories OCD? Have you ever thought, what if actually these are not false memories, what if actually you remember you did something wrong from beginning, but at that time you suddenly forgot or you are in denial. then, have you ever feel like, suddenly some thoughts that relate with the things you afraid of comes (its hazy but you feels familiar) and you think its your real memory come back. even though the thoughts / that memory never appeared before, but after thinking / rumination about this for months - years, suddenly you feel that memory or thoughts shows that all this time my thoughts are real not false memories ocd. I often read, if you do something terrible, you don't have to try to remember, you’’ll remember about it. but I'm always afraid, what if that time I'm too tense or scared, then I forget about the truth, then I say this is a false memory OCD, whereas all of this is real. :(
Can anyone share success with false memory ocd.
I was “minding my own business” and I was getting intrusive HOCD and POCD thoughts… when the POCD intrusice thoughts came in it was making me feel like I was getting a stronger groinal feeling… but because I wanted to actually get better, I tried to not to react to my intrusive thoughts and watch what I was watching… my HOCD and POCD is now telling me I’m in denial for all of this… I don’t ever want to ever be what my intrusive thoughts say I am…
Hi guys, Has anyone in the UK Used NOCD and can give me an overview of how treatment went - thanks x
I’ve been getting Groinal responses again, I’m in recovery and I thought I was doing great but now I have to work through this. Should I start tracking compulsions and stuff again?
Sometimes OCD feels so scary, other times, it can be laughable when you detach and take a step back. Was watching The Wonder on Netflix & thought “what a beautiful little girl” about one of the actresses. Immediately, my OCD went to “what do you mean by that 🫣?” I immediately talked to my boyfriend about it and we started laughing together so hard. We’ve both been speaking about & envisioning OCD as a little annoying elf on my shoulder that just always has some critique to make. I hope so much that we all can continue healing together. Sending all of you love.
Does anybody else get this? Intrusive thoughts popping during s3x?? And ofc you cant stop what you’re feeling during s3x but whenever i get an intrusive thought its like im sick to my stomach but my brain keeps telling me that i like my intrusive thoughts beacuse my feelings (that i was having before the intrusive thoughts came) didn’t stop and its just terrifying
I’ve been on Paxil for over twenty years now. It worked great and now I’m having breakthrough depression. I tried other stuff but they didn’t work. Has anyone add Rexulti or Trintellix with Paxil?
I had a bad HOCD and POCD dream where I was looking through porn (h*ntai) and stumbling across content I didn’t want to see… and it’s making me feel like I’m not anxious about it…
And I can't stop crying. I feel devastated.
My theme changed from harm ocd to POCD and I’m absolutely terrified. I need to hear stories of success. I want to have a family and live a normal life. I am devastated
Has anyone here ever experienced this? at first everything feels vague and you feel that these are false memories ocd, You realize you are creating your own any possibilities or scenarios in your head. you feel you have no memory of you making that mistake. and your relationship with that person is fine. But after months or years of long rumination, suddenly there is a memory that feels familiar coming in your head and you believe that this is your original memory coming back and you feel right that all along your thoughts were reality. I feel confused which one to believe. At first it all felt vague, but after a long rumination I seemed to have a piece of memory coming, which supports my thoughts so far that all of this was Real not ocd.
Are there any active discord chats? I’m struggling bad with real event and I feel like it’s so hard to relate to others with ocd sometimes bc their fear hasn’t happened and mine has
I feel like this is my entire life now, i just got used to my 24/7 intrusive thoughts its like i dont hit my head anymore and sometimes i don’t notice them i feel like even if i get over it how am i gonna ever forget about this?? It’s crazy how your mind makes up stuff and it sticks with you.
There’s an nsfw chat on discord and it’s giving me intrusive thoughts of words like “little girls” and “gay” and it’s giving me a groinal feeling… ihml…
I'm 15 and I want to get a job I've applied to a few but it seems the only ones are babysitting jobs and I don't feel comfortable with that
What’s there to even hope for? Because it feels like there is no hope at all for me… my POCD, HOCD, and real events OCD connected to the two subtypes hurts me so much… I am in agony and in constant anguish every single day… and people ignore me in real life… people block me on here… people say they will always be there and never are… what is there to hope for? If I disappeared right now… I would prevent so many peoples pain… if I ceased to live right now… then people would be happy… people would laugh… people wouldn’t care and want me gone… for my POCD and real events OCD based on porn when I was 17-18, and extremely horrible real events when I was 13… my HOCD feels so real too… like it makes me feel like I want it when I don’t… I hate my life so much…
Yesterday (Monday) was my first day back at work after my medical leave ended. I was surprised how good the day went. I was triggered a few times but I allowed them pass and continue with my day. I was able to laugh and smile with my coworkers. I thank God, my therapist, and you all your support for my progress. Thank you.
im seeking for reassurance all day long i cat stop it
Hello everyone- I'm feeling a bit frustrated this morning. I've been in treatment for almost three months and most of my OCD themes have improved. However my fear of "going crazy" or spontaneously losing my mind still haunts me. I try not to reassure myself as often as possible and I've been doing exposures (probably not as often as I should) but this theme still persists. I guess im just feeling really impatient. Any advice?