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- Sexual Orientation OCD
Can I talk to someone about my hocd?? Please!!! I'm very anxious
Can I talk to someone about my hocd?? Please!!! I'm very anxious
Does anyone else with SOOCD just totally not feel in tune with your original sexuality anymore? Like you’ve been somehow living a lie your entire life? And you can’t seem to feel the same attraction towards the opposite sex? I’m in so much pain mentally and feel like I’m just in denial. This of course doesn’t help with my relationship OCD either.
Ever have thoughts that your gonna give in on your thoughts and have thoughts like that’s the only way your gonna be happy if u give in to the thought
I'm not into woman I'm not into man I'm not into anyone . Let my ace ass alone ocd
Guys uhm it’s tryna take over me like uhm this is hard
Hello im setting up a discord for rocd and hocd. If you would like to join here is the link https://discord.gg/hPYqsymp
I started having HOCD back at May 2021, i kept on having these homosexual thoughts and I got tired of it. It slowly died down back at late october 2021, November, December and January was HOCD free because i was busy and i never paid attention to it that much. I'm now dating the girl i've loved before HOCD but I relapsed last week, mid february. And now i don't get answers to my compulsions, i feel like im already queer, please help me
Do u guys see certain words n ocd tries to make u feel like u want that for your false attraction case when u have no desire at all don’t give in it’s jus lies
How do I know if I actually like him or just male validation ??😫
I feel identityless, like nothing and no one or not who I thought I was. Im scared Im just finding my real identity now, its difficult to put it into words but I remember experiencing a very similar feeling back when I used to smoke weed, id get high and look at my pictures and think who am I, what do i bring to the table, what kind of personality do I have? I think I was projecting a fake me to the world and when I would get high my insecurities and this mask of superiority would come out and itd give me alot of anxiety back then too, Im worried this is why hocd happened to make me see that Im gay and see my true self after all these years. Does anyone want to talk? Im panicking hard right now
Is it possible that a person may experience more than one OCD ??
I was driving just now and out of nowhere legit started feeling this high come over me, i havent smoked in 2 years. Traffic felt quited down, it felt like i was becoming more aware of what I was saying, acting, typical experience of weed high, Ive had this happen to me a few times now and its pretty scary. Has anyone experienced this?
idk why but it feels like i like women but not in a sexual or romantic way. in a role model or like big sister/ mumsy way. it’s weird and idk why
Hi everyone I just discovered that not only I suffered from hocd since 15 years but that ocd has taken over lots of my life expecially in my last relationship which has ended badly, with confusion and with constant doubts if I could have done more or if I wronged something, if I was really in love etc. That's shocking to know how much my life has been slave of this disturb. I'm starting the course with Nathan Peterson I hope I can change this bad habit...🙏
Something has been bothering me a lot the dreams regarding hocd have become more graphic its like everything is telling me it not ocd but denial and i am at a point where i might even agree its like in all the dreams i am more interested in the same sex or talking about it and this didn’t happen in the past and now that it does it makes me think it has some meaning to it otherwise why does it feel like my reality and also in general it feels like i am noticing the same sex more like anyone from the community would how does it say that mine is ocd and theres is not?! And its like I don’t want people to know so i talk about guys normally and like that i want to date them and sometimes talk a little more than usual in front of my friends its like i am lying but am i ?!? I am trying to show something more is it because its actually denial and not ocd but i still am doing that in reality so what is it?! My first and last relationship was like for a few days and now its making me think that i never liked guys thats why that happened it could be that… and even when i made out with a guy for the first time it was okay but not amazing does that have to do anything with it?!? And my dreams with the same sex feel more than what i felt with the guys does that prove something it does right that like some biggest proof…i feel like i am faking my anxiousness and why dont i immediately write and post stuff if it actually makes me anxious i do it after a while what is the reason for that why do i feel like i am on some brink to lose it all one of my bi friends hasn’t told his family but lives his life if i had to what is my reason for all this?!? Family society?!? Did i ever like guys or was that all fake?!? What do i do ?!? My friend the other day kept her hand on mu shoulder i was like is this some relationship gf kinda thing why would i be okay with that thought i was and i am questioning it cause i am scared but like it could be true and i am just questioning it cause i know how ocd works and this will tell me that its ocd but if i felt okay even for a second what does that mean it is some kind of major proof right??? Feeling the false attraction noticing girl in virtual and real life what is all this what if all this is my experience for something what do i do?! Sometimes the thoughts don’t scare me or make me anxious and the dreams as well what does that mean… if I didn’t know hocd existed what would my thoughts lead me to do?!? Like would i have accepted them and then led a confusion free life what would have happened then?! And also like the knowing of it as ocd am i misusing it and not agreeing.. pls help me was i ever straight am i even?!! Is the ocd at all?!
I accidentally thought that PMS meant Private Messaging instead of “Period” so I typed in that I also went through the same thing went privately messaging someone… 😞😞😞 I’m scared that people will think that I’m a girl and say my HOCD was a lie when I’m actually a guy and I’ve been dealing with this HOCD for nearly 2 years of my life… I don’t ever wanna be homosexual or bisexual at al… I only ever want to be with a girl who will love me very much…
Is saying “I acknowledge your presence” when you have an intrusive thought a compulsion? Cause I’m not ruminating, defending, or fueling my OCD, simply acknowledging that it’s there. Thoughts?
Was having a great weekend and decided to check tiktok; a masc lesbian came up in a video on my FYP and I got a rush of anxiety but I couldn’t tell if it was because I thought I was attracted to her or if I actually was. Anyone else have this?
I was watching an old video and was noticing how awkward everyone in the video was, including a dude in the far right. And I started getting intrusive thoughts of “you found the dude cute” 😞😞😞
I’ve had episodes with various subtypes on and off for over ten years. Each time I have a back door spike and lapse, I feel like I’m right back at square one. I have a beautiful husband and two children who need me and I feel like I’m letting them down. I have all the tools but I feel like I just can’t beat it right now. The thoughts are screaming, my chest is tight and I just want to cry. I just want my life back and it feels like it won’t ever get better. Do any of you have tips for when you’re feeling this awful?
Doubting disease The echo of the mind The insesent itch The imp of the mind Memory on repeat Haunting of the brain The stuck record The unanswerable question Brain fog Churning pins and needles A whoosh of anxiety A living nightmare A gift from the devil Constant confusion The bully of the brain The unsolveable puzzle My mind playing mind games with itself A temporary version of myself which will be fixed!
I have dreams of having “S” with a girl. Which I really like, but then it shifts to either an HOCD dream that shows my “P” that I don’t want to see, or an POCD dream where the girl is underage or a kid..: it’s making me feel like I’m not anxious about it 😞😞😞
If I didn’t feel the urge/desire to kiss the guy I likewhen he was in the mood to, is that a sign I’m gay? It often takes a lot for me to be in the mood to kiss and idk if that’s normal or that might mean I’m lesbian.
My ocd has picked one attraction case and keeps tryna suck me in
Seeing an ocd therapist, so happy because feeling the strongest attraction to my boyfriend again, more than I ever have before. I love him so much but scared my ocd will come back one day or that he won’t recover from what I went through. Any tips? Thank you, currently feeling very sad and scared that we won’t move on from my past.
Some days life is nice some days I hate it here
Losing my faith really hurts, it was one thing i was clinging onto for help, havent prayed in months, have no will or motivation seeing how things have simply gotten worse overtime. Fk my life, i just want to Kms, im too confused to recover from whatever it is going on inside my head. My brain receptors are probably already fried from non stop anxiety.
Hey guys I have a question have u ever did some for example like a dance and u rm oh a friend doing it or noodles a friend eats at the store Buh you mean nothing by it . Next u have a false attraction case for that friend now u go crazy cuz it makes u think you’ve like them the whole time when u haven’t so-ocd is so evil always finds some to pick at liking someone feels good not like this I have good days n it tries to haunt me again I hate this
I feel like I can’t even find guys attractive anymore 😫😫
Wake up terribly confused and depressed daily, the therapists i keep seeing dont even speak my language and I end up leaving them not being able to explain my thoughts/feelings properly. I have no hope for recovery.
I recently got off birth control and I now have thoughts questioning my relationship and sexuality and there is no way I would ever be gay or anything. It all just doesn’t make sense to me.
I talked alot about my other ocd, but i have another one that makes me suffer alot. I have intrusive sexual oriented thoughts, and it was hard to realize bc sometimes i go with them... But when they turn into pedofile thoughts then im concerned... so thats how i realized i have pedophilia ocd with groinal response... But now i want to talk about the sexual ones. I remember at the past(13-14 years old) i had those about my cousin and the weird sick thing about that is that i went with it(bc the groinal response) but after time i started to realize that this isnt good, i mean it was just thoughts but i thought that im crazy bc i thinked those and i had groinal response, and it was like i like them, this just makes me feel scared and discust. I forgot these thoughts but today i just thought about my cousin and the same thing happened and now i was like this isnt good, im getting groinal response again... Can you guys help me what can i do with this? i learned alot about my other ocd type but i never worked with this one.
I think my SO-OCD developed after my Relationship OCD. One of the causes of feeling like my sexuality was changing was due to the thought that i was falling out of love with my girlfriend.
I've dealt with SOOCD for some time now. It comes and goes intensity. Recently a coworker asked me out on a date and gave me a necklace. I said no. I am not attracted to him at all, and besides that wouldn't date him for other reasons. But the experience made me question if I'm not attracted to him or not attracted to men in general. And thus the loop began. I consider myself fluid in my sexuality. I like men, women, and those who don't participate in the binary. But I feel like my attraction to men just isn't there anymore and that makes me sad. Anyone have any advice? Or a similar experience?
Sometimes I think my TOCD thoughts have more to do with a lack of confidence in my appearance. I feel my best when I look "feminine" and always flinch when I look more "masculine". But when I like picture myself looking pretty and feminine in a setting I feel uncomfortable. Like I think "that's not me". And that scares me and triggers all the TOCD thoughts. Why can't I just accept my looks? Is it the OCD or is it a confidence thing? Help!
Anyone else just get anxiety right as they wake up? Just me?
Has any of you told your partner about your theme of OCD? How did the conversation go? I would love some advice on how to approach the topic. My partner isn't as well versed in the realm of mental health, let alone OCD. Any advice would help. Thank you
My So-ocd tries to convince me in every way that I like my girl best friend. It’s so annoying and constant that I can't even go out with her and my friends anymore. Has this ever happened to you? Please help me…
Anyone else’s HOCD on their mind 24/7? Even when their sleeping? (Dreams) and especially when just waking up in the morning!!!
Intrusive thoughts and intrusive feelings are just overwhelming 😞😞😞
Intrusive thoughts of graphic guys bodyparts after seeing triggering images… 😭😭😭
Feeling depressed and angry at this whole hocd ordeal and how things have turned out. I cope by playing video games and when I perform bad it shoots up the anxiety and suicidal feelings through the roof. Its just a mess, no aspect of my life is even remotely stable. The therapist I desparately wanted to see, the one that spoke my language, i cant afford her fees, any hope that I had was crushed, left all by myself again, Its so fucking frustrating. I hate ive been posting the same issues on this app for months but fuck me, id explode if i dont. Sorry again.
Comphet is literally killing me. I can’t stop thinking about it and can’t stop reading it. I’m freaking out I’m suffering from comphet and that I’m not really straight or suffering with HOCD. Anyone else get this fear
Is sex triggering for anyone else? I recently hooked up with this guy who I definitely like but now I feel super anxious about it and am questioning/second guessing whether or not I enjoyed it
Low self esteem about any girl being attracted to me… plus intrusive HOCD and POCD thoughts and intrusive feelings… make me sad 😞😞😞
watched the music video for Doja Cat’s new song Freaky Deaky for my exposure today 🙃 it feels impossible for me to stay calm & not worry & not do compulsions when i have groinal responses and so many intrusive thoughts related to SOOCD that don’t even feel intrusive anymore. ugh.
IT FEELS TOO REAL! It’s like I am what I was scared of
It feels so real, I feel totally convinced that I am my ocd. But I don’t want to be please!!!!
HOCD is convincing me so much that i like girls when i dont want them and i dont wanna be in a relationship nor do sexual things with them but OCD is making me want it and convincing me to do it when i really dont want to please help is it just me? :(
Intrusive HOCD thoughts of doing stuff with a man and it’s making me think that I want it when I don’t and it’s making me feel like I want it when I don’t… 😞😞😞
Intrusive HOCD thoughts all night… accidentally said something triggering and accidentally bumping into people… 😞😞😞
This is gonna sound wierd, but for some reason I'm OBSESSED with having ocd because if I really don't have it, then the stuff in my mind will just mean that I'm insane or something. So I do these COMPULSIONS to prove myself that I'm not insane and that I really have ocd. It's kinda laughable, not gonna lie 😅
You guys ever just question if you even have ocd?
I’ve thought over my obsession so much to the point where I don’t even know what I want anymore. Began with a simple google ‘oh, am I afraid of commitment’ that turned into a full flown sexuality crisis with me convinced I am aromantic and asexual. Lost all touch with what I want and I what I like. So confusing that literally none of my compulsions or reassurances work anymore.
I have over 40 tabs of search history on my phone 😣
I don't feel straight anymore. I feel as tho it's the end of the road for me. I'm so depressed because I feel like I want to be with the same sex and it sucks 😔. I've felt like this for 2 years had it for 17 years. I need help and I don't know where to turn
Sometimes I have felt that the “straight” orientation does not fit me because of the nature of my thoughts. That I don’t deserve that label and sometimes don’t want it. Even though I have always made relationship decisions that fall in the straight category I still feel an immense pressure from this label to be 100% certain and positive all the time. This certainty is in stark contrast to the thoughts that plague anyone with OCD. The word “straight” itself has a very rigid connotation. I can be in relationships only with the opposite sex and not choose the corresponding label “straight”. Maybe it’s a decision influenced by my OCD. Maybe not. At this point in recovery, I don’t really care. Actions speak louder than words (labels) and especially louder than thoughts (OCD).
I want do do erp I need a really good so-ocd therapist
Theres so much junk in my brain, if things dont work out this therapist tommorow, i have no plans and options left. I cant fix this much mess by myself. Even if things work out, i dont feel motivated or hopeful for therapy
I’m reading a webtoon and I’m getting intrusive thoughts about the guy being “handsome” and this intrusive feeling in my stomach 😭😭😭
Well I’ve been doin go better for at least a month but then was triggered by Euphoria last night and now the anxiety has been 24/7 again. Even was in my dream. The constant what if questions and compulsions are killing me today. Idk how to get back to where I was .. I feel defeated
I remember some delivery driver said I looked handsome and I had this sudden feeling in my chest… 😞😞😞 I don’t ever want to be attracted to a guy ever or at all… 😞😞😞
Having a rough time sitting with the uncomfortableness without 1. jumping to conclusions or 2. Seeking reassurance or doing a compulsion to feel better. Anyone have any tips/encouraging thoughts? Trying not to feel alone
i’ve been struggling with so-ocd for 4 months now. it has been veryyy difficult. everyday has been a challenge ever since that first intrusive thought decided to slip in. i had always been secure in my sexuality until that intrusive thought. I have a few questions for anyone that’s willing to answer them: -is it normal to feel like you could like the idea of being with someone of the same sex? i feel like i’m more scared of liking it, rather than actually liking it however.
Oh I'm tired because of my soocd and rocd (rocd can be about friendship right?). I have intrusive thoughts about my friend... Yes she is beautiful but hey I want to be her friend nothing more😭 I just want to react to her like I react to everyone else. I don't have any bad reaction when I text her or something but seeing her in real life sometimes so hard.
Hi everyone! I wanted to know if anyone has tried the technique of agreeing with your intrusive thoughts and how that worked for you? Let me know 🙂
Anyone else wake up really nauseous from intrusive thoughts?
Anyone else have HOCD / ROCD and a fearful avoidant attachment style?
quick vent but the idea of dating the opposite sex for me is (kinda i guess) uncomfortable and it's so triggering and it's also a new trigger (as far as i can remember i haven't had this trigger before), i try my best not to ruminate but it's hard. (also no reassurance please i just need to vent rn because i have many things to do and this thought is so hard to deal with)
It feels too real, it feels like I like it, like I’m calm about it and that I’ve always felt this way and now I’m just realising. I hate it I don’t want ever to want to be these thoughts but it feels like I have no choice and that part of me does
Intrusive feelings that come and go and as a triggers me… 😞😞😞
Anyone with HOCD watch euphoria? I’m so triggered
Intrusive thoughts of dudes being cute and stuff 😞😞😞
I was watching a show and there was a scene with unexpected nudity and now I’m really anxious about womens bodies again and having more intrusive thoughts :(
It’s been 2 weeks since I’ve posted anything in here, i’m doing much better and i’m so proud of myself ❤️
Is spirituality triggering for anyone else? I feel like my OCD has associated spiritual practices with my theme and it makes me not want to engage with it at all.
ERP help with so ocd . Like what can I say or do ? I’ve started yesterday but I don’t know if I’m doing it right
I’m so scared rn I rlly need someone to rant too about hocd
HOCD *mature* It’s making me feel like I’m getting groinals to intrusive thoughts when I’m looking at sexual images of girls…
Why do I lose feelings for guys when they like me back? I cant stop obsessing over this and I really want to let it go. I’ll have a strong crush on them, imagine a potential future, and then if I get an indication they feel the same way it’s like I get cold feet. Feelings of overwhelm, physical anxiety, doubt. This used to be massive fuel for my HOCD and now it feels like evidence for my current obsession that I could be aromantic or asexual. According to social media it’s quite a common thing but surely there’s some explanation for it? It’s so irritating and doesn’t make sense to me and causes me so much distress. It’s such a conflict in that I want to move closer to someone but also my body would be telling me to run for the hills. Anytime I find an explanation for it online I serially doubt it and feel so anxious, like I’ll never figure it out. Please help anyone!
I never thought at a point in my life I’d have to think twice about watching a film/series 💔 6 months ago I never did this. OCD is killing me.
Euphoria s2 ep7. Lexi’s play (the scene about Nate). God 💔💔💔 this anxiety is killing me
Im tired. Been stuck on this plateau for a long time. Tomorrow seems like a good opportunity for a fresh start. My Goal Is to quit Pornography and masturbation cold turkey. I don’t engage in them regularly but they are ugly habits that show up about 1 time a month and fully fuel my OCD. Im done with it. 2/2/22. LFG.
I’ve been doing good but just got really triggered about my sexuality
Can anyone give me a step to step guide on how to stop ruminating?
I dont think she likes me anymore,its okay if she doesnt I understand I'm a burden ,
Can only get aroused to same sex this can’t be ocd
In the mornings when I wake up it’s like the intrusive thoughts and images are giving me groinals 😭😭😭
Anyone experiencing a so-ocd rocd double whammy combo?
i still have the thoughts but i haven’t had extreme anxiety about them the last few days. i’m scared it means i was in denial the whole 2 months i’ve been dealing with it. i haven’t been doing exposures so how can i be better if that’s the case??
Hello! Please read if you have the time- i’m desperate for help. I have (not diagnosed) hocd and rocd. I believe everything stems from this perfect future I imagine. I want nothing more than to marry my now boyfriend of 3 years and I love him more than anything. My thoughts ruin it. Today, I stumbled across a tik tok talking about what kind of porn you watch( which I don’t watch any more- or haven’t in about 6 months). It said if you watch gay porn, which I used to do, makes you lesbian. I have never been so afraid in my life. My worries come and go, so most likely in about a month i’ll be back to normal and so happy, which is what I feel when i’m certain of who I am. I hate everything about the thought of being gay or without my partner. My ocd thoughts started when my boyfriend broke up with me (we got back together a day later). I am crying out for help. Someone - please help me. Thanks.
I am truly considering sobriety. I mainly only drink a few days a week and it’s socially. But I gotta be honest with myself, those nights I drink, it isn’t easy for me to have self control. I often drink more than I originally intended and the result is immense depression and anxiety the next day or two. And it definitely fuels my OCD. Why would I continue doing something that is making my life way more difficult? Why would I continue to fuel my demons? I lost this whole weekend because of it. Im going to first make some concrete rules and limits and If I cant follow them then Im going to make the move to complete sobriety. I truly want to cry right now because Ive been doing so good for the last few months but this most recent slip up truly caused me to go backwards. 😔
If it dosent work out with this new therapist on thursday then im all out of options, out of money, out of time. I dont know what I will do then, God the anxiety is so high every day nonstop.