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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
Can I talk to someone about my hocd?? Please!!! I'm very anxious
I get scared that if this goes on for too long that it’ll convince me
What good habits have helped your OCD? Hi everyone! As part of my December wellness challenge I want to start incorporating better habits into my routine. Of course tips and tricks don't cure ocd, but I was wondering if anyone has advice/routines that have made managing their anxiety better. Especially if u have diet or exercise suggestions. I already plan to take up yoga but any other advice would be appreciated. Also how is everyone's day going??? I'm doing good so far
Does anybody have some good workbook recommendations for ocd? I was looking at finding something I could really just scribble in and and have some guidence when I get stuck
What do you do if you can’t tell if a memory actually happened or not? The “memory” I feel like I have is something very inappropriate and embarrassing. It makes me feel horrible about myself to the point where I can’t even look at myself. Is it just because time has went by (11-13 years) or did this not actually happen? Unfortunately there was no one else involve or around in this memory to talk and compare with. This is literally going to eat me alive inside on whether I did this terrible thing or not.
How can I know if I have an intrusive thought or if it's a part of me?
Does anyone get scared or frighten about going to their therapy session because they think that what they have is not OCD even though they are diagnosed and afraid that their therapist will say so too?
Hey community, have any of you been on Prozac for OCD before? I'm a little skeptical and scared, I've been on an SSRI before and it didn't go great for me. I just want to hear others' experiences. Thanks!
Frustrated that my insurance won’t cover NOCD because it’s out of network. Trying to find someone in network I guess here in Michigan. /: I hate insurance.
Has anyone watched Pure on HBO Max? I’ve been watching it and I feel so seen lol
In the short time I’ve been here, I’ve read about “intrusive dreams”—a term with which I disagree, since dreams are intrusive by nature, for anyone, with or without OCD; nevertheless, I understand what people mean when they use the term. Today, I had a dream related to my intrusive thoughts, and it involved certain obsessions, and it was brutal. I’ve been doing some ERP lately, and it seems that the OCD is fighting back.
So after having OCD for as long as I can remember (since 5 years old probably, I am 31 now), I’ve been in ERP for 6 months and while I think I still have a long way to go, I can tell it is working. But…I don’t/can’t feel happy or proud of my progress. It bothers me that after 26 years of OCD, 6 months of treatment has resulted in a reduction of symptoms. For one, I find it frustrating that in only 6 months I’m seeing improvement, like why could I have not done this many years ago and saved a lot of suffering. More frustratingly though, it makes me feel kind of like it negates or diminishes the suffering/negative impacts it has caused on my life (relationship, work etc). Like how could a 26 year problem be solved in 6 months that just doesn’t seem right. It also brings up thoughts like “have I been making this worse than it is?”, “am I exaggerating?”, “were my symptoms real?” etc. I know these are all related to me doubting my diagnosis and are just another symptom of OCD but I still just can’t accept the fact that my symptoms have improved in a short span of time. Anyone else feel similar? How have you been able to feel happy about your progress?
Don't do anything to make the anxiety go away. It perpetuates suffering.
I hate the game of truth or dare. I hate it cause in my mind I'm playing it all day. Someone is choosing for me. Someone is threating me. Do this dare or your family dies. No matter how much I beg, they won't change their mind. I'm playing with life and death inside my brain yet is not even real. Something that has me so anxious is not even real. These dares hurt. They hurt me inside. I don't want to hurt myself but they will kill my family remember. Punch yourself they say. Hold your breath for one minute they say. My body in pain yet my own mind is cruel enough to keep me awake till 5 at night. Only if it was that easy. Ignore them. They are just thoughts. I wish it would be that easy but they will kill my family.
What was your thought process before you put your hands up. To your face. What was happening before. I was pulling a cart and that new guy was behind me. I had the stupid cart that kept smacking into everything so I was being very careful with it because I didn't want to seem like an idiot. After that I dropped the cart off anf was walking back to get a new one. I had already blew into my hands one because it was cold but I saw this guy and decided to do it again. I don't really remember my thought process. "it's fucking cold, blow in your hands to show him your cold". I'm anxious that this was flirting. I don't really find him that attractive. Like kind of but not really. So I don't think it was because he was attractive. I also don't think it was showing romantic or sexual interest. But yet I'm still anxious it's flirting. I'm also anxious that when I was singing "I can't wait" on the radio it was directed towards Waldy. Again I also don't find him that attractive but he's okay. But I think I was singing a little louder ND having thoughts of being in a relationship with him. Once I realized I stopped singing around him. However I think this was just an intrusive thought, and the only reason it came was because I've been anxious about this hands thing for like 10 hours. I absolutely hate this and want to confess everything to my bf but I know realistically I'm not flirting. But I feel like I am. Ugh I'm also now anxious I sighed loudly to get the other guy to talk to me because I thought he was polite. I was pulling a heavy pallet, and instead of walking in front of me he just said "you go, I can wait a sec" and I think I said something along the lines of "thanks, it's heavy". I parked the pallet and sighed. Before (I think. I don't really remember) I sighed I was having intrusive thoughts of being in a relationship with this individual because they were nice to me. And I'm paranoid I think I sighed to continue conversation. It didn't and I just left. But 1 I don't think he's that attractive, but at the time I might have. And I don't think I was sighing to show romantic or sexual interest. I'm shaking. I'm still caught up wihh the hands thing. I feel like I need to tell Adam so bad. But if it wasn't anything and it's just my OCD it'll seriously damage our relationship even more. I'm trying to replay these situations in my head over and over and over trying to remember what my thoughts were before my actions, if the actions came from my thoughts or the thoughts came after. The shitty part about all of this is I feel like I can't remember. I'm freaking out. Part of me in tempted to leave my relationship because I feel like I'm a horrible person. I feel like I'm hiding something so bad I don't want to flirt with people. I don't want to think about being in relationships with other people. I can't tell if I'm flirting or if it's my OCD If I flirted I have to tell my bf because that's our relationship rules/boundies. But I don't wanna confess to something I don't entirely remember or maybe I'm just faking forgetting so I can convince myself I'm not flirting?? I absolutely have everything rn
My intrusive thoughts today made me feel like the most racist person on this planet and I feel so disgusting because of it
does anyone else get paranoid they've done something in their sleep? i unexpectedly fell asleep and now i'm scared
Having rudes thoughts about my gf again and I hate it 😐
I am genuinely suffering… nobody is able to help me what do i do?!?What if some bi women comes up to me or - lesbian and tried something and i do indulge and i am okay with it and just this thought makes me think i will be and someone on here can say what if you are and just because i am not put in that position or that situation idk how i will react but if and when i am if just the thought that my reaction could be that i like it and just me thinking about it has to prove something right? Otherwise why would i think so?! Am i even straight do i even want to be what do i do?!? And i am thinking because i am curious and not anxious what do i do ?! I am i am curious and not anxious that has to prove something what do i do?!? I am calm about it okay with the thought and now what?! Is this even intrusive anymore?! Pls help
I’m having a hard time realizing what’s ocd and what’s not. Is the whole point to ignore it either way?
I’m a little worried. Something I was so stressed about yesterday. I don’t feel as much guilt for anymore and I had a decent day… but what if this really means idc and am that way
VENT/RANT, need some kind words/ support): I was doing so well this weekend, I had such a fun and happy weekend.. but yday it all went downhill. I feel so sad, drained, exhausted, anxious and stressed... I go to bed sad and wake up sad and anxious... This has been going on for 8 months... I just hate my life right now... I just want to be happy and enjoy life... I feel like my mental illness is going after everything I love and care about deeply. I don't wanna tell people how I feel and what is going through me, cause it makes it worse afterwards. But I'm dying to get some kind of hug or a 'it will be okay, you got this'. My boyfriend tells me that it will be fine and that I'm already so far... But it doesn't feel that way, I can't even be proud of myself.
I have this thing where something in my brain says if you don’t do this then something bad will happen. I always thought this was ocd until I watched this tiktok ab 2 mins ago where it says it happens when your going to do something anways. Now it’s making me doubt if I have ocd again :(
Why is it that ocd makes me feel like I’m mentally going crazy. I have physically anxiety symptoms and today my prominent harm ocd has then tied into existential ocd and the feeling of going crazy makes me thing I’m going to snap and hurt someone. I’m even scared of myself I just want to run away from myself especially my brain. I just want to be normal!
I feel screaming at these thoughts. Feel like I have no control thought I do.
I'm having a panic attack. I'm felt like someone was jealous of me and my mum and my brain keeps telling me that we are gonna get cursed. Evil eye stuff. I keep praying and saying stuff won't happen. I'm so worried
Anyone here with a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder and OCD (who struggles with existential themes)? I’m suffering again - after a few months of very few symptoms. My IG is emidrew_xo, if you’d like to connect.
i do springboard diving as a sport every wednesday, and now that its getting cold, i dont want to go,, my mom seemed really disappointed when i said i didnt want to dive during the winter,, idk i cant stop thinking about it now, trying to prove myself and come up with reasons
Having OCD thoughts without the feelings behind them, is hilarious because they’re so insane. Which is why we do exposures :)
this is so annoying like if i want to like boys (like how i always have) can’t i just let myself say i like boys why does it have to be an issue this is so annoying
I can't do this for much longer. One week I start to feel better then the next week I feel like crap again. One week I see lots of people, the next I don't and go downhill again. Why has my brain come up with all of these scenarios which never even crossed my mind when I told these so called friends my thoughts? Why, after 2 years, do I question if their help was genuine? They have fallen out with me iver Covid yet the OCD puts all these thoughts in my head and I come up with all these scenarios. I HATE listening to the erp as right at this very moment in time I think these thoughts are REAL. I can't seem to get it into my thick skull that what I told them was my intrusive thoughts. I have to make sure they knew they were thoughts but why?????? Is it because I dont believe they were thoughts at the time? This all seems so real at the moment. I HATE BEING ILL WITH OCD.
Does anyone else have false memory contamination harm ocd??
Is it a part of OCD to experience an intrusive or unwanted thought literally while something is happening, making it seem like your intentions were different or that your intrusive thought is real? This happens to me a lot and throws me off because it mixes with real life events and thoughts happening at the exact same moment in real time and it makes me feel horrible.
Feeling empty. Just want to cry but it's like there's nothing inside me, no tears. I want to scream but I don't have the energy. I just pick myself up.
Does anyone else feel like especially with harm ocd that this isn’t actually ocd, and the worst part is that you actually believe it. Like sometimes it feels like I’m actually going to do something bad and the dreading feeling of being a bad person is so debilitating and it makes me feels like I’m the only one who experiences this.
I’m wondering how many times a day I should try to do an Exposure and response prevention? I’ve had ROCD on and off for 25 years. I finally understand that it’s OCD and not me. I’ve been working on ERP for about a year, It’s really hard and I’m trying to chip away a little at a time.
What do you do when feelings fade in a long term relationship?
I feel like I am inferior to everyone around me. I don't understand it. It's like the whole universe has an inside joke and I'm the only one that doesn't get it or something. Idk I just wish things were easier but wishing gets nowhere.
Is asking if other people have the same thoughts as you a compulsion? My gut says yes. Thoughts?
Sometimes when I experience a good moment or recall a good memory I feel like my mind is hijacked with an intrusive thought that latches on to that good experience/memory. It’s as if my my mind does not want me to ever feel good. Then it becomes difficult for me to reflect on the good moment/memory without also thinking of the intrusive thought and typically the intrusive thought is on the forefront when I think about the moment/memory.
Just got a question? Is it normal to feel gay sometimes and fighting against it but you really don’t want to be gay at all, my intrusive thought is being gay when I don’t want to be and it feels like it’s coming real
Hello! I'm just curious if you guys could still do online therapy sessions when i'm from the Philippines? I'm not sure if it works, cause I tried scheduling the Free Call twice but I got no calls at the said times I scheduled.
does anyones ocd cause them to get agitated or like frustrated
My head makes events that happened or mistakes I did so blurry to the point where idk what’s actually real or not.. I just give up remembering and accept the worst case which makes me feel disgusted.. is that a step into healing? When do I not feel disgusted and anxious anymore??
my ROCD is jading my entire perspective on my relationship right now and has been for about a week. my brain is telling me that i wouldn't be sad if we broke up since i don't have constant butterflies for them. i just want to feel normal and go back to when my ROCD wasn't bothering me as much and i feel like it'll never stop. it's so frustrating:(
I actually feel pretty good today for once 😁 I feel numb but it’s tolerable. I know I love my partner and know I wanna stay with him. I just feel great! I am getting intrusive thoughts but I am doing my best not to pay them any attention. Tonight when I get home he’s gonna make lo main 🤩 which I am excited about! I still get this nagging feeling but I think I am too tired to focus on it.
I get so bothered when people ask me how am doing... especially when they ask me twice or say "you sure" Because then i doubt myself, and then anxiety loves to come in and hello come in the intrusive thoughts.... I know they genuinely care and all but is it rude to tell them i will let you know when im not okay?
Therapy has been great and all but having a bill almost 800$ makes me wanna quit. Everytime I pay for one session, 170$ more pop up. I can’t keep up
im asking my ex to date me again tonight wish me luck boys
this boy that I’m meant to like grabbed me earlier and I never got butterflies and I’m now I’m scared I’m lesbian
Can you have thought action fusion with real event?
Does anyone else feel scared of themselves? Like they can’t trust themselves and even waking up in their own body is so isolating cause they just want to escape their brain?
I feel extremely unmotivated today. I’m currently at work and I have no desire to do a single task. 🥲
hey guys this hocd is messing me up. I feel like now not only is it intrusive thoughts it's kinda cause me to doubt everything. Even my beliefs of religion . seems like all hope is lost. Even with my beautiful gf these thoughts I feel are making it hard for the relationship and make me feel so bad :(. I never want to lose her and now it feels like all this is starting to make me feel like now I'm just waiting for the day it happens or we break up which is something I don't want ever. Which also tears me up inside because I feel she is the loml and this hocd is taking that away from me. sorry if I'm venting to much I just can't believe what this caused to my life..
I've been really stressed this week and all the themes have been firing at me, from Harm to Pocd to religious. I just wish I could wake up and this was a bad dream.
So frustrated with the misunderstanding of OCD today. A friend of mine gave me a bag with gifts for every day until Christmas (like an advent calendar sort of thing). Because of my OCD, I have a hard time handling/touching things that have come into my home from "outside." I thought this would be a great exposure having to open a gift each day this month. I was even considering telling this friend about my OCD, explaining ERP, and how her gifts could help me in my recovery. Well we were just texting one another about what we're baking for the holidays and how we like the combination of sweet and salty. Then she says this: "I'm surprised I like that combo because I have always had OCD tendencies and hated mixing flavors and foods like that." UGH. Just when I think it might be safe to share my "secret." Nope. Not gonna happen. Now I'm just mad. Thanks for letting me vent.
Does anyone have the following symptom: while I'm learning I start repeating the definition of some term, and suddenly the thought comes that I don't understand it even though I understand it well, and then for half an hour I argue with myself and repeat 100 times same definition...
About a year & a half ago i got this crazy memory that I basically had no clue existed but my mind convinced me it did. I talked with family and i knew in my heart that I didn’t do it. Recently a couple days ago the thought is back and i feel like I’ve done it. Im struggling so badly.
Even though I’m having a lot less intrusive thoughts and groinal responses, I still get this feeling that I’m just in denial :(
Does anyone feel like a loved one died because of their ocd, because that’s how I feel about my moms uncle dying, I have these intrusive thoughts that keeps coming in my head about how someone is gonna die, and after he died they got worse that I start praying for people to die, and it really scares me and makes me anxious, and I try to stop them but they keep coming
Hi all. I am really struggling this week. I am still doing my erp and the anxiety is going down but the thoughts of what people may or may not think of me is driving me crazy. I keep going over when i had an intrusive thought 2 years ago and told the grandparents what thought i had at the time and I think I am the worst person in the world to have said these thoughts.....I said to them that I was worried from years ago that what if my leg touched their grandaughter (my friends daughter who is like a niece to me)when I was asleep and then I worried because I dont wear underwear in bed that what if my front bit did too? It makes it seem so daft when i write it down like this but in my head this is the WORST THING i could have thought and I told them these thoughts. Their reaction was that they said they worried like I do when they looked after their friends daughter but the OCD has twisted it and twisted it and it is making me feel like I am the WORST PERSON IN THE WHOLE WORLD. I have imagined they have told my friend and that they all think I am an awful person. These older people were just so kind to me when I had this bout of ocd 2 years ago and read up on it but why has the OCD attached to this now? They have fallen out with me because of my views on Covid which started the OCD off again but I never ever thought these things about them when they were speaking to me. This just seems like the worst worst bout I have ever had. I think I am so evil for telling them these thoughts and what if they think they are real...thats the bit I cant get past. I am doing erp with the worst case scenarios but it is so hard. Sorry to go on.....I just feel so down with it all.
This new variant media circus is making it feel impossible to avoid Covid anxiety. My OCD is so flared up and I just can't seem to get relieve. Any suggestions are welcome!
I know about thought-action fusion….but is action-thought fusion a thing?
I am having the worst time. Its been just over a year and at this point I dont know if I have OCD, ADHD, anxiety or depression or anything else developing. All these things overlap one another and one moment i fixate on “that was an ADHD moment” “this is my intrusive thought/urge moment” “im feeling positive thoughts right now so i must be going through a mania” “i just over spent and wanna run from my problems” My life is chaotic, I fall asleep easily but staying awake and 3 am wake up calls is not fun. I do know that I want to get better. I want that positive glow! I dont want to feel like a stranger in my body anymore. I struggle right now as I hug my teddy in bed (years im 34 and snuggle a teddy haha), but one day I want and will look back and think dame that was a rough journey! You made it! 💚💜
Remember the days when everything was normal and great and perfect and whole and happy. Well it makes me cry
Why is there literally no option to cancel an appointment??? I thought you could do it online, but the option is gone
Woke up this morning feeling disgusted. Idk I just hate everyone and everything.
Right now I think I’m a gay man inside but I‘ve never felt connected or aroused by gay sex I didn’t ever thought about it because I knew I was a woman. My mind says I’m just to scared to accept that ? Is that true ?
This illness makes me never wanna settle down. I couldn’t imagine trying to have kids, be married, or even live together. The overwhelming doubt is too much for that shit- at this point I’d rather be single too…. I hate myself all day everyday and it sucks
My bf has covid, and I haven’t seen him for almost a week now. I’m worrying myself because I still dread seeing him. I don’t think I miss him like I should
Hi I am struggling with scrupulously and exententail ocd about the devil torture me after I die. So as a compulsion I made a deal with the devil to test if he was real and thankfully it didn’t come true but I’m scared that mabye he may still send me to eternal damnation. Pls help😭
Is this ROCD or not? I continuously keep having doubts about my feelings for my boyfriend. I’ve never had this before with my previous relationships and it’s really upsetting because this is the first boy that’s actually treating me like how i deserve. I feel like i’m in a bubble when it’s to do with him. I feel like i can’t emotionally get to him or connect to him. Whenever I think about him or see photos of him i get anxious and stuff. I know i want to be with him forever and i panic about it going wrong. I’m scared i’m going to end up giving in to the doubts and end it😞Whenever i think about the future it makes me anxious, it’s like i’m turning my emotions off. I keep crying after being intimate with him and i don’t know why, i’m panicking it’s because i’m losing feelings for him. I look at other couples and ask myself why am i not like them, why am i not in love like them. They make it look easy and it’s making me doubt everything. I’ve been with my boyfriend for 5 months and it’s amazing when i don’t have these horrendous doubts. He’s so patient with me and he loves me and worships the ground that I walk on yet and I still have these doubts. They came when our relationship started getting serious. I keep asking my friends and mum for reassurance if i love him and it’s making me so so sad. I feel like if i love him i shouldn’t be having these feelings. He’s not done anything wrong and i feel so guilty for it. Is this OCD or me? Plz help :(
Got super triggered 2 days before leaving for my trip with my boyfriend today! Wish me luck 🤕
nothing hurts more than when you feel like things are changing and there’s nothing you can really do to fix it
I'm really scared. I feel like I'm going to have schizophrenia. I'm also scared if I keep thinking about it will happen. This the worse OCD.
Anyone have Covid OCD where you worry about everything Covid like Vaccines like Side Effects, ADE,Deaths and yeah 1 in 100000 doses are ADE but there’s a lot of people that take the Vaccine how you know your not that 1 Or If I get Covid I’ll get real I’ll and die or have long term damage
My daughter came into my room a few hours ago and asked if she could sleep with me because she was scared, she heard something outside(a fox I think)Of course I let her she’s been so distant, I felt so relieved that she wanted me to comfort her. A few minutes ago she was tossing and turning, I reached out to put my arm around her and said “what’s wrong” “you ok?” She squirmed away from me and was like “mom stop” in her sleep. Now I’m wide awake freaking out that she subconsciously does remember something that I did to her. I feel like there is no possible way I suffer from false memory OCD, something must have happened before. Ugh I hate this so much. Please please help
I think my mom thinks I’m a lesbian now bc we just saw like ALOT of super muscly “hot” guys and she swooned for all of them, and I didn’t even like one. Men like that are just so far from my type and idk. It’s fine if she thinks I’m gay I just don’t want her to get weird abt it.
Is it „normal“ to think the Fantasie of Beeing boyish and flirting with girls is exciting even if I’m reality you love men and act feminine around them? Opposite fantasys always gave me a „kick“ but now I do not know if they are more than just that .
I have OCD and read that The Vaccine and Covid have bad reactions with Mental Illness, What do I do? I’m scared
hi everyone, today was a good day. it very easily couldve been a bad day, but i MADE it a good day, and that is so, so gratifying. i changed my approach and i was able to make the best out of a situation and show myself that im more capable than i thought myself to be. i didnt know i had it in me to be honest, its been so long since ive felt i’ve really succeeded at something i set out to do. but i set a goal and i met it today, and its been immensely rewarding. i just want to say, its really not that serious. that thing youve been avoiding bc you feel you must have this and that in order first — you can just do it, without really knowing where youre going. you dont have to have all the cards before you play, just work with what you got. itll be okay i promise, as long as the game keeps moving. and above all friends, be kind to yourself. take care, -L
I feel stuck in a vicious cycle 😥What do i do ???i keep noticing both the sex and feel a certain way towards the opposite ine like i would and with the same sex one also i just notice and like anyone and everyone what do i do? Sometimes the thoughts feel like i want it ti be like that but like I can’t differentiate whats real and whats not?!how does that change the fact that i do see it like however i do and it feels good?!? Like idk if thats ocd doing it is it even feeling anything but majority noticing is towards the same sex and it feels like it should have always been like that and i am okay with it and if i am knowing all of it why do i write stuff post stuff ask a million questions when I don’t believe in the answers i get and feel like all this is forced?!? It feels like o notice girls just as normally as i do with guys or used to these don’t feel intrusive anymore how do i trust that its ocd?! Not me living a lie?
I guess a sense of depression was the start of questioning my gender and getting TOCD. I always had the motivation to dress girly to get looks from boys and make myself pretty to be desired by them. Before TOCD I slightly lost interest in doing that anymore because I didn’t see the point. After that I got lost about me and my whole personality. I questioned if everything I do is just a product of what other people like and want from me. It is hard to go back now with this mindset. I do not even know who I really am. I just know I was happy as a girl a long time, I felt sexy and desired, I used to look in the mirror for hours, I always found straight relationships but now all the things I liked are connected to intrusive thoughts and confused with these feelings.
i know this might be a strange question, but does anyone in here experience an extreme low after getting a tattoo? also after a piercing, but moreso after a tattoo. it's so severe i feel like i hit rock bottom for a few days to a week. i also obsess whether i should have gotten the tattoo and how it will stay on me forever and how i'll never be the same. i'm not sure if this has to do with how our brains work or if it's just a me thing?
My obsessions have been waking me up in the middle of the night and then I can’t go back to sleep. I even took a Benadryl which I never do, but now here I am at 2 am. Any idea of how to combat that?
Hello doods. I am currently trying to convince myself to eat a can of oysters. I have never been allergic to anything ever but for some reason I think tonight is the night where I will die from anaphylaxis. I don't like how my brain works. Wish me luck.
Does anyone fear that they are going to lose control and harm themselves? So much that you then worry that you will actually do it. It’s so scary. I feel like I’m the only one who feels this way
Was going through a breakup and we tried to be back on again for the last two or three weeks. But we ended it tonight again.