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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
Can I talk to someone about my hocd?? Please!!! I'm very anxious
I messaged my therapist on here last Thursday morning and she hasn’t replied back yet 😔
This sucks every time I think I finally found help they ask for insurance 🤷🏽♂️🤦🏽♂️ I don’t work I don’t have insurance all these so called help are bs
I’m praying school doesn’t go online… my mental health will literally deteriorate
I am completely freaking out about an incident when I was 18. There was a puppy that I got that came to me from Korea by plane and who died of hypoglycemia. I took her to the vet because she was lethargic and passed out and they force fed her or something and then told me something like feed her every 2-3 hours or something like that. I thought she would be ok if I checked on her in the morning bc it was close to bedtime. She had food out and I just figured she would eat if she is hungry but at the same time I feel now that I knew I had to force feed her but I took the chance and slept instead of doing that every 2-3 hours like I was told. I don’t know for sure if I knew what I know now about hypoglycemia. I feel like part of me thought she’d be ok but part of wanted to sleep and was lazy. And I feel like a murderer. Because I feel like part of me although I thought it would be ok there was also a probably a part that thought she might not be. When my grandma called me that morning and told me the puppy died I screamed and cried and was shocked. But nonetheless, I feel my laziness killed her. And now I am afraid that I could be a murderer. I feel so guilty and unworthy of living. I don’t know how to get over this guilt. I know I did not purposefully kill her but the laziness I feel like is a form of purpose because I feel like there was a chance and I took it. I could have thought nah she will be fine till morning but what if a part of me thought she might not be but still took the chance. Doesn’t that make me a killer? Perhaps if the vet told me if I do not do that she will die then things might have been different. Maybe she did tell me that. But I will never know because it has been way too many years. Around 9 years. What am I supposed to do? I feel unworthy of life after remembering this and I am terrified what if that is a sign that I am a murderer? Should I not lock myself up or turn myself in for this?
This app is a lot more reassuring that OCD can get better with time. If you go on the Reddit page, is mostly all negativity and worst case scenarios. Glad to have found this!
Any suggestions on what kind of car I should get ? For a first time driver ofc hehe
Yesterday I listened to a voice diary I made about 16 months ago. I was talking about my recovery. I was dealing with the same crap im still dealing with. Im Making the same poor choices. It was a wake up call that Ive been on a plateau. If I want to elevate I cant be making the same choices. I know better. OCD recover isn’t difficult in theory, but in execution it is supremely difficult. Trust the process. It will work.
Guys help my head told me the solutions to intrusive thoughts is knocking on wood 😭😭😭i keep knocking on wood everytime i get a intrusive thought, imma turn into bruno from encanto 💀💀
I booked a holiday for my partner and I in February. And I just said to myself "its okay, just wait till then and then break up with her and become gay." Why would I say that? Surely that's what someone who is actually gay/not in love would say. Has anyone else ever felt like this while suffering with HOCD and ROCD
Anyone have any CBT suggestions for somatic OCD, specifically swallowing hyper awareness? I typically have breathing, blinking & eye contact related hyper awareness but lately has been swallowing. I know about mindfulness, overcorrection & bringing my attention to other parts of my body. Thanks!
The reason this all started was because some co workers and aquaintances started commenting on my appearance.ive always been a quiet person didn't stand out what so ever but as of recently I worked on my image I hit the gym and bettered my life completely. The main reason being that I fell in love with this girl. I also changed the way I dressed I started taking better care of my personal hygiene. They would joke and call me gay terms in Spanish some people would ask me straight up are you gay and it didn't feel good to me. This one girl I was going to hookup with told me I always thought you where gay and I feel like that's what really started it all for me.(this started happening about 2 weeks ago) before any of this I never had any thoughts about me being a homosexual even now I'm sure that I'm straight but I just can't get these thoughts out of my head. At first I couldn't look at any guy no matter how he looked and I would constantly look down at my crotch to see if I was hard(I never was) I felt like I was loosing my mind and I had a talk with myself where I said I was going to kill myself. I said I don't want to be gay I'd rather die. What really helped a lot was looking up my symptoms and finding out I had hocd. Im naturally attracted to women like it happens instinctively and it feels normal but then when I see a guy who looks at me in a weird way or if I start having weird thoughts I feel incredibly uncomfortable and my head starts to hurt. It's like my body and brain know that I'm not a homosexual but something won't leave me in peace what would be the best treatment for this
Could an ocd specialist help in rocd???! Please answer!
Have spent all day feeling guilty about small things n catastrophizing their consequences :D I need 2 remember the little mistakes i do r forgiveable.
As you may have seen on my previous post , I don’t know how to drive nor have the experience and I’m so frustrated about it and giving myself such a hard time . I’m willing to pay someone to just reach me bc I can’t do anything or leave my house because I can’t drive and always rely on family
Thinking that all these thoughts wouldn’t exist if I didn’t have OCD made me somehow feel ease. I don’t know if this would help anyone, but this made me separate them from me. That I’m not my thoughts.
I was speaking to myself last night out loud about how I have doubts about my feelings for my boyfriend and how one minute I feel great, but the next minute I feel like I can’t stand him. I am totally fine with having those introspective thoughts, but I said it out loud and my OCD is trying to make me worry that maybe he possibly heard me through my phone even though we weren’t in a phone call or anything. I’m super nervous that maybe he heard something but he just isn’t telling me in order to spare my feelings. As I’m typing this, it sounds kinda silly, but it still worries me a bit. Any thoughts?
Just something that I saw on Pinterest that spoke to me, but remember that baby steps are still progress. 🤍
Great ya know. Its like i have feelings for my vf but then my brain is like hes like your brother!! And im like r u fr? Anyone else like this. ROCD
This disease is getting too smart. I just had this intrusive thought that actually I want to be gay but I can't because I only find women attractive. BUT I AM NOT GAY (I don't think anyway?). I don't want to be gay, but it feels like I do. And then even when I think I am getting somewhere it comes back and does something like this, causing a panic attack. What if I have just forced myself to not find men attractive and now can't be who I am meant to be deep down even tho I don't want to be that but. But I don't know if I don't want to be that anymore because I am so confused. Why won't this disease let me go. The only way I think I'll be free is if I just admin that I must be gay and live a gay life idk. I DON"T know. The thought of finding my gf attractive (sexually or romantically) scares me now instead of making me feel good. AGGGGHHHHH I can't!
everytime i finally get over a false memory my brain is always like “but why did you react like that if it wasn’t true” and then i start to doubt again.
I’m scared I imagine becoming an actor just to feel special and then of course you know when you imagine stuff like that you imagine yourself as amazing in your just you know it you’re the shit and then I imagine having to and I said quite but I didn’t quite like it at all I don’t wanna make out with a woman I wouldn’t do that for anyone or any amount of fame or money. But then I’m scared I started throbbing and I don’t know if it was because I was thinking of A guy but I would never wanna make out with a girl even for anyone you know what I mean like I wouldn’t do that for shit and I’m scared I said I can’t believe I said that I quite when I never liked it in the throbbing I don’t know what that’s about like I was thinking of my guy then I had this thought and then I’m going back to him and now I can’t tell what I’m throbbing over and I’m scared I put my chin up in my lips up like I do I don’t want to kiss women I keep feeling funny and tie to my chest like like she’s not hot as sexy I don’t like I don’t want to kiss the woman I’m scared I imagine like being all passionate and and and her but not actually anything I don’t wanna kiss the woman from the trailer and I feel tight she’s not hot or sexy
my whole family tested negative for covid yesterday so i automatically know i don’t have it. my throat is really dry and scratchy and it’s either the weather or laryngitis from vocal strain, but i can’t shake this anxiety that it might be covid
Hello everyone. Is everyone alright today? If you want to talk, I’m here to listen and help if you need it. I hope this helps. ❤️
This is the beginning of it. Like it shows I posted an hour ago it has seven comments please help me if you can
I am seeing a therapist in three days, Im not feeling excited or motivated bc I dont think I have ocd, my thoughts and feelings are real and true, It feels dreadful if anything, I dont know what to do. Ughhh
Hi my name is daniel daoud my depression started at 2019 it had to do with bullying and getting angry at fortnite so had to skip school for 4 months now im gonna finish school but i have harm thoughts and anxiety im scared of people im scared of snipers (thank you for reading).
As I’m still learning about OCD, I need another answer… I know OCD intrusive thoughts attack things you value the most and can be about literally ANYTHING… but does replacing a name of one person (for example, while reading a book) into a name of another person (let’s say someone bad) count? I mean, of course it causes anxiety, disgust and all of those things intrusive thoughts do. I’ve talked to my friend about this specific example (changing names) and we’re both really curious about it as we haven’t find anything online. Is it also a form of intrusive thoughts? We’re curious if someone maybe also has experienced something like this :)
Are masculine lesbians a major trigger for anyone else?
It’s been two weeks and I’m STILL feeling disassociated. When and how will this go away I am helpless
I want to give up. I can’t stand this is the last post to scaring me it’s killing me
I’m having a good day but resisting the compulsions is so hard , especially ruminating and avoidance
I feel hopeless I don’t feel like the controller in my life the OCD Is
Aro/ace OCD is SO HARD. I had HOCD and spent years questioning if I was gay only to recover after hard work and now this theme. It’s not questioning if I have attraction to another gender but attacking my ability to feel romance or sexual feelings completely! I’ve never been in a relationship either so that is just MASSIVE fuel for the ocd. I now feel anxious whenever I even see a guy or any media to do with dating and relationships. I’ve tried ERP but it feels like whenever I read about aro/ace people they have similarities to me. I get anxious around dating/people asking me out and I DONT KNOW WHY. There’s no content online about this obsession I’m so stuck
hey, im new to this app so please be kind! ive recently found out that i have trichotillomania - the urge to pull out, suck or eat your hair. when i was younger i used to suck on my hair and i grew out of it because i was told i'd get a hairball in my stomach and that scared me. when i started my exams when i was 15/16 i started pulling my hair out from the scalp as a way to cope with stress/anxiety and i physically can't stop now. i don't want to become bald - i have a small bald patch on the top of my head as it's the area i pull from the most, my hair is broken from the roots! i just wondered if anyones experienced this or has any tips/advice to help me break the habit, thank you in advance
I normally have breaks during my ocd flare ups. I’ll have a day or two where everything is normal. These are the moments that keep me grounded and always realizing it’s the OCD. But this last one just hasn’t lifted for a few weeks, and it’s at a point where I don’t even know if it’s the OCD Anymore. I also feel like there is a primary theme, and then other sub themes that come up for a day and then resolve. Does anyone else experience this? During the day or two another sub theme surfaces, my primary theme doesn’t bother me as much. This also makes me feel worse. 😞 Maybe this is partially reassurance, but OCD is such a new thing to me and I’m learning a lot rn.
Anyone else experiencing psychosis along side their OCD?
How many with harm ocd towards a spouse have told them about your thoughts? How many have had their spouse say they were afraid because it’s a natural human thing to fill if someone told them such things
Not ocd related but i have like 2 casua friends and then like 40 aquintances. My aquontances always stay squintances and i always text first. Idk what this means. Like should i just stop ever caring about people? Am i fundamentally unlikeable ? I really dont know at this point.
I hate having this, does anyone else just feel weak and like lame for having this? I feel so ridicoulous like as if i am part of the worst part of society or like something is wrong with me and just so lame and uuuuugh i hate having told friends about this i just feel that they think im crazy or that im making it up for attention and at this point i dont even know . Like why tf did i even shared this in the first place i just think everyone thinks im such a freak who wants attention o just a crazy person that its too much to handle so no one wants to be near me and its not even like that but thats how it feels thats how i think it is and i just hate it i hate that i wanted to be understood and understand myself and now i just feel like an idiot for sharing this because now the obsesions are more controled and the anxiety is lower so im not suffering as much but now i just regret everything i said or did when it was because of how it made me look in front of people and i cant change that and no one understands how this works so its awful that other people just dont get it.
is it possible to be attached to someone/ connected to someone without it being romantic or sexual
My ability to imbue thoughts should be illegal🤣. I try to laugh to keep from crying but it’s quite ridiculous😆. One thought leads to another and a million outcomes turn into me finally being able to realize I’m on the train and I should chill. They are just my thoughts. Do you guys have any catch phrases? Or ways to snap back to reality? For the longest I was saying “they are just thoughts”… as of late I say “Unplug from my matrix”
Okay so does anyone ever feel like their HOCD has flipped. Like when it started we’re all told that anxiety and equal false attraction etc… I’m not obsessing over the thoughts that actually it’s anxiety that has made me think I’m attracted to the opposite sex? Does this make sense
Does anyone suffer from PTSD and OCD I don’t like self diagnosing but I suspect I suffer from PTSD as well and I think it really fuels my OCD
Bro...wth. My brain just said even if he isnt the one i felt everything stop i was so sad but i couldnt think of anything or feel anything like my body relaxed about it. Then i was like wait please dont let that be the truth i love him!! I want to be with him and he makes me happy. Was it the truth or what just happened????
Help! Today I have an appointment with a psychiatrist. Idk if they’re gonna do much since I haven’t seen a psychologist or a therapist but they’re the closest thing I have to seeing professionals mental help . Do y’all think they’ll do anything for TOCD or ocd in general?
Hi thank God I’m SO much better than I was,it’s a combo of ert and the passing of time,this is my first post but I’ve being reading stuff on this app all through my last episode,I just want to say everyone of you are such brave and strong souls and also so kind and understanding, I had it very bad after my children were born and then tg got put on the right meds eventually and managed to work and live a normal life,had episodes but never as bad as the first time was really bad this last year and a half think it’s a combo of age (early 50s and pandemic and I’ve moved house)I’m typing this now as I’m so grateful for this app and to all the brave souls on it,together with my great family and husband you have sustained me through it, we had a lovely Xmas in our new home and I was able to do the dinner for us all and have the family stay over ect, I am on a high dose of Prozac now was on a maintenance dose for years of 20ml but now on 90 ml and plus 10 ml olanzapaine and I’m doing well,my goal is to get back driving and get some sort of a part time job,ocd is a bully but together we can beat it a day at a time xxxx
Someone posted a video of me online without my consent. (I was drunk, in revealing clothes, and giving someone the middle finger.) I asked them to delete it and they did, but I can’t stop obsessing over how someone from my work/school/family may have seen it. Does anyone have any exposure ideas for this? I’m trying to tell myself that I did what was in my control, i.e. ask them to delete it, and now I just have to accept the parts that are not in my control, including who had already seen it.
Heyy....is anyone else a Maladaptive daydreamer apart from the whole ocd thing😣?
Happy monday y'all :) i could honestly use some help and support if anyone has experience dealing with narcissistic parents... This is hard for me to say, but basically it feels like my parents don't want me to heal and that they're kind of standing in the way of my healing--especially my father. He keeps sending me extremely below the belt messages about how me distancing myself from him and my mother is a horrible idea. Just one type of thing he says is "you'll be alone after your nana dies, then who will you have? We're all you have!" Which is completely not true 🥲. To make things worse, he actually said this to my nana (his mother...who has a fear of dying...) and is extremely jealous of our close relationship. He's constantly calling her and talking about what a disappointment I am Sorry to vent y'all, normally I post positive stuff. But this has been really getting to me, as my therapist will still be out until next week 🥺. On a happy note, i had a good time at the lake yesterday :). It was frozen over but super sunny and pretty 😊
How do you sleep while focusing on your breathing. Is that possible?
I shared this in another post but I think it could be helpful for someone else about some things to practice to deal with anxiety. Maybe you can put them in your anxiety first aid kit. 😄 Breathing and meditation are good for me but not always so that's when I try to switch it up. I sometimes go for a walk and try to focus on what I see and being present. Journaling is also really helpful for me. It helps me identify the underline belief that's causing the thoughts that are making me anxious. You see normally the problem is not the problem. We think anxiety is the problem which is actually not. Anxiety is like a fire alarm is not the fire itself. We then think our thoughts are the problem but I will say they are just the smoke and not the fire itself. So, what would be the fire? I will say it's the interpreter of our thoughts. See the problem is that we have an interpreter saying things to us in our head about our thoughts that are just lies. For example, if I don't deal with x right now something bad will happen. The interpreter is saying right now which is a lie. Another one could be, I'm anxious because there's something wrong with me and I'm bad or something like that. Again, a lie. What can you do? Fire the interpreter. Say: "you know what? I'm ok. I don't need to solve anything right now unless it's an actual fire and that's the fire department job. I don't need fixing or get things the way I want to to feel safe. I'm not my thoughts nor I'm anxiety. I'm just the observer and I'm safe with myself." Thoughts will keep popping but with kindness and patience you can keep refocusing on being present, love yourself and let go of fear. It's a process, a journey if you will. And it's not about arriving but about enjoying the journey itself. The goal it's not to be perfect but to be present and grow little by little in being loving and compassionate with ourselves and share that with others. Hope this helps. Virtual hug 🫂
going in a first date today. my anxiety is through the roof. i’m experiencing a lot of physiological sensations like nausea and a racing heart. does anyone have any advice on how to deal with this?
It feels like this TOCD is real and I’m literally crying 💔 it feels like I’m already a boy and that I want a penis and that I can’t enjoy the the stuff I used to like before . I don’t even know myself it feels like my brain switched :( I want to cry because I’m not trans but it seems like my brain just switched and I miss my old self </3 it feels real and like denial and I don’t have a therapist . It feels like I’m lying when I say im a girl . Idk what to do I’m seriously crying because .. idk if therapy can fix this .
I feel like god hates me with all these Losses... while all my friends get Christmas presents and have model girlfriends, I’m stuck here in the dirt with no meaningful victory... my dad said me entering into college was a disappointment, I didn’t even get a scholarship with a 30 on my ACT, and I haven’t had a meaningful victory in years... there’s nothing to celebrate...
So I recently suffered a friendship loss of 3 of my closest friends (not death) or atleast I thought them to be. And they did me wrong and I have come to terms with it and it really hurt me and triggered my ocd just mentally made me get worse and start giving into compulsions again after all my hard work of not giving in a getting so much better. But now it’s like this incident about my friendship loss has started to become one of my obsession. It makes me doubt ocd cause technically it isn’t a subtype but it sort of is because it’s all about myself acceptance and I truely feel alone and like there is something wrong with me. I constantly stress about having no friends now and that they are all talking to everyone I know ans turning them against me. But to stop stressing about it I have to like give myself a random speech of sorts to clan myself done and at first I thought it was just positive talk but now I notice it has become a compulsion. And i have to keep giving myself this speech in my head so I stop stressing which is obviously ocd. But it’s like even when I don’t have a specific thought I’m always stressed like a constant stressful buzzing in my head, does anyone else relate, I’m trying to hard to not give into the compulsion and I think I’m doing okay but sometimes like right now it’s just so hard and I wanted to express this experience see if anyone else relates to it.
Not directly ocd related but what are some ways you find help calm you down when you’re on the verge of an anxiety attack? I usually find meditations and breathing exercises help me but it’s been harder lately so just wanna know what anyone else does :)
Has anyone tried CBT and how does it work? Is it any different to ERP?
for some reason my ocd makes me a bitch to my bf but no matter how mean i am to him.. he always keeps a smile on his face and his energy high and it’s so sad to watch but today he got sad and said “why are you so mean to me, what did i do?“ and his face man just looked so blue i hate ocd so fuckinf much.. i just want to love him the way he deserves plssssss
Why am I experincing a rapid change of OCD states? Sometimes, I feel like OCD barely annoys me, sometimes, I feel extremely overwhelmed. There's not much change in compulsions here so no way compulsions are making things worse.
This is long, but I really need someone to listen to me so I hope you can obsessive-compulsive disorder ended my life in the way that it was, I began to suffer from it since I was 18 years old and right now I am 20 I met my current boyfriend and (I hope the only one) when I was 17. that was in 2018. That year and 2019 were the best years of my life because I started to experience adulthood things that I had never experienced before because my parents were too strict. It is worth mentioning that before meeting my boyfriend I had many failures with men that did not value me and destroyed my self-esteem which by the way was very low. Especially suffered a lot of sexual abuse and harassment from men much older than me and I was objectified many times. In a few words I was broken when I met my boyfriend and I did not expect to have a relationship, I did not feel ready but I fell in love and that is what my heart told me. We were very good friends at the beginning but when everything started to turn romantic I began to feel a lot of fear and I was a very cold and cutting person who did not seem to love him but from the heart I did, it was only very difficult for me to show my feelings and to open up because I was very hurted. Our relationship was seriously perfect, we have always got on too much in all possible ways, sex was the best and everything was going very well until 2020 began and with it the ROCD. With the beginning of this year and also the pandemic, we ended up living together I was 18 at the time and it was very difficult to deal with that and also with my obsessive compulsive disorder so the relationship wore down a bit and my anxiety would not let me be fine. I say this to put you in context but that is not important because if you are reading this you probably know how the process of beginning to suffer ROCD is. Thank God I got over it and I'm a little better but it's been two years and is still there and it's still my relationship and i still have anxiety all the time and intrusive thoughts and the most difficult thing is that it has made me lose hope and i always think that everything will end at any time that my happiness is not real, it makes me think that I do not want to be with him and to think that I do not want my life , it make me think so many things that it depresses me when all I want is to be 2019 or 2018 And feel that everything is fine that we love us so much, that we enjoy everything that the simple fact of being alive does not cause me anxiety, that we can have all the sex we can because I don't feel anxious. I just want to recover my life and my relationship with the person I love, I don't want to have nobody else or build what I have with nobody else I just want this nightmare to end because it is no longer anxiety that gives me pain and gives me obsessive thoughts all day and that I know is a disorder. But is a feeling that makes me think that everything is wrong and I can't have hope anymore. What can I do to end this? I need some advice because I feel stuck I feel like I can't enjoy anything in my life, not even a romantic movie because I have that feeling that there is something wrong with me and my relationship. PLEASE HELP
I don’t get this I can’t get my head around it never shown any signs as a kid apparently people can. E fluid in their sexuality
Does anyone have any good advice for getting unstuck from a thought loop, or just generally a really bad episode? I can have periods of mental serenity that are usually ruined by an overbearing urge to visualise and dissect. Imagery has been something I’ve been struggling from for months and is usually coupled with mental rituals that are automatic and are hard to control.
I read that watching TV for an Hour lowers life expectancy, well I’m fucked
Can someone give tips sleeping when you can not stop focusing on your breathing? It makes me anxious Waking up in the night thinking I have to calm myself down again to fall asleep again
Anyone else out there currently stuck inside the house or have had spells of being stuck indoors due to OCD?😔
Could be a trigger warning: Just saw a tiktok that has now made me very hyper aware of my nose… I can’t un see it. It said your brain just chooses to ignore it but we can always see our nose and all I can see is my nose now and it’s making me very frustrated
so often i feel the need to clarify that i am not my thoughts...just realized thats a compulsion lol. obsessive thoughts have been murdering my mind lately, really bad, but knowing its all ocd helps to shrink the monster in a way.
whats yall personality typed im curious. im sure im an isfj bc of how much i want help and protect others. i think ironically with ocd most people with pure ocd are like as we are the people to always do stuff to protect others yet we still worry ab being the worst people in the planet even if theres no real reason to believe so.
This video is the one I watched wear this girl also does similar stuff as me like she couldn’t shower in 1 shower but along time ago I couldn’t seperate showers I had to wash my hair and body and shave in 1 shower and she can’t use multiple makeup pallets and lipsticks I do the same wit chapsticks and can’t wear multiple sunglasses I can only wear the new seat ones I’ve worn it’s ocd I dive been diagnosed wit ocd anxiety and depression I’ve been to hospitals doctors and therapists I’ve been on medications but noone ever treated my ocd I’m hopeing to get help soon I just have to find somewere that accepts my insurance but I want everyone to no someone told me these symptoms weren’t ocd but the only reason I share my stuff is cause this girl shared hers I thought my ocd was wierd but this girls does the same things as me it’s ocd https://youtu.be/Q2tF8B0hCt4!!
Uncertainty is getting more comfortable. I still do some compulsions. But have stoped looking things on the internet now it’s much easier to stop compulsing.
4 years ago I started experiencing SOOCD for the first time, which was around the same time I met my (now) fiancé. Since I met him, the ping ponging I have done between SOOCD and ROCD has been sooo uncomfortable. Recently I’ve made huge strides with the ROCD, and after being dormant for awhile the SOOCD has come back with a vengeance. Posting to remind myself that even though the thoughts are loud, I know I can make it through this. If you’re suffering, I hope you know you can, too.
Ughhh the anxiety is killing me, my mind is active nonstop, constant chatter and thoughts. I feel like Im just a part of lgbt now and nothing I can do but embrace it and it makes me feel so anxious in the chest. Im so confused and worried that Im going crazy
I wanna be with him why is it so hard for me to?
super overwhelmed and i'm not sure why. why do i get random outbursts?
I have 56 more pages of this ERP to do. I'll be done tomorrow. I'm already 3 days ahead. I can DO THIS.
Hello everyone! I'm not doing too well right now. I'd talk about everything that's going on but unfortunately I really feel I need to rest soon. I just wanted to check in with the community and share a quote that has helped me today. If anyone else has some encouraging or comforting words ( no reassurance please), feel free to share! It would be much appreciated. You are all incredibly strong people, and I find inspiration through ur hard work and kindess. Have a goodnight :) 🫂🌌
Has anyone had trouble with your partners friends being mad at you because of relationship ocd? I started going to therapy and got my diagnosis after I broke up with my partner for about a day because of the anxiety (although we got back together). My partner has forgiven me and has some understanding of the ocd now, but his friends have never had an anxiety disorder and they don’t get it. I know they are looking out for him and that’s good but I am getting zero grace from them even though my partner told them I have relationship ocd. And now we are spending New Years separately because they are still mad at me and don’t seem to want me at their party. It’s just been really painful on top of all of the difficulty with the ocd itself, on top of other life stressors. Has anyone else encountered this and how did you get past it?
Just writing to say that I am thinking of you all. Continue to take it one day, one minute, one second at a time. We’ve got this! ❤️
I can't find an OCD therapist available for myself at the moment so I started my own ERP exercise via the app... Holy hell, I am exhausted and anxious. I essentially had to write 10 reasons why I think it's a bad relationship and while I know the point is to learn to live with the discomfort but I still don't like this. I'm crying but my only reassurance is that it gets worse before it gets better. I hate the fact that I have to rely on myself for this though. But I can't find nor afford a therapist at the moment.
I feel weird typing this, but does anyone having compulsions surrounding having to use the restroom? I used to go a couple times a day it felt like, but I force myself to go, or make myself think I have to go constantly. I have to go like 3 times before bed, or try to, or else I won’t be able to go to bed. I also wake up at least once to use the restroom each night. Just want to know I am not the only one.
Advice for starting a job? As anyone with ocd and comorbid disorders knows this sh!t is exhausting and I get very drained very easily. However I got a job! Which I’ve seen as a mark of recovery or at least a step in the right direction but I’m VERY worried about my mental energy and capabilities. Thoughts? Advice? How do I become productive again?
All I want is lock myself in my room and never leave
I want to love him so badly!! Whats holding me back?? Is it my rocd?
Scared I was singing for the first time but I said not the first time it’s not anything like it’s feels weird. I was trying to look up the lyrics to Ellie Gouldman or whatever her name is love you like I do because I was gonna sing it pretend to be cool in my head and sing it for my guy and now I feel like stupid for and I shouldn’t feel feel stupid for loving him despite not being with him I feel idiotic nonetheless. But I don’t want my feelings to go away at least for him. But I’m scared I felt I was gonna say that kind of funny scared it was like a little reaction like it was building up but it wasn’t that kind of funny I don’t know but I’m scared I started to look at her like that and I don’t want to look at her or any girl like that and I looked at her boobs and I imagine them naked and I said they’re not but they are pretty bad because I don’t like boobs or women or her for that matter and I’m afraid of how weird I felt it was I’m scared it was like a deep thing and some bubbles down to my stomach but I don’t wanna Have feelings for girls and now it’s making me feel stupid for my feelings for my guy and it shouldn’t because he’s a great guy. I act like he’s not but he’s attractive and I’m scared out after feeling those weird things I looked at her boobs like I don’t I don’t want to reconsider I don’t wanna have any kind of feelings and I’m scared cause it’s like oh you can’t control it but I don’t like boobs I don’t have feelings for her nose feels like I’m scared the but the but the more bubbly feelings like I’m starting to I don’t want to be bisexual start to have feelings for women this doesn’t feel right they shouldn’t be there or I don’t know I’m afraid of this pretending but it doesn’t really feel right and I feel stupid
I just had a panick attack because i was checking my feelings and couldnt feel anything for my bf so i tried finding a good feeling thought and it couldnt come to me. Normal?
how do i know all of this is ocd and im not just a sicko:( my stupid gronial responses towards ppl or things i dont want. im scared constantly i hate it.
Love, i remember when i was in high school my girlfriend always asked me If i loved her and i thought i did. So when she said she loved me i always said "i love you too" and she was always like "really?" And this was always something that triggered my anxiety. I didnt know what love was cuz there wasnt a true definition. But i cared about her so much and didnt want to be around anybody else more. Has anybody ever experienced OCD with loving somebody?
its hard to have sex bc im scared ill think of something terrible like other ppl, friends, or family. i only love my partner sexuLly but im always on edge abt ny ocd:(
I feel like I physically can’t cope with this anymore Everyday is the same I wake up and after two minutes I feel anxious again and the thoughts start coming back It’s honestly making me depressed And it feels like my head is gonna explode