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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
Can I talk to someone about my hocd?? Please!!! I'm very anxious
Does anyone else here deal with real event ocd to the point where it affects every aspect of their lives? My real event ocd has been terrible for the past month or so, there is not a moment where I am not thinking about all of my really bad mistakes. Most of the time my themes change from week to week but not this time. Its hard for me to tell if my ocd is just focusing on my past or that It is as bad as I am making it out to be if that makes sence. The guilt is suffocating me, I can not do anything for myself without my mind saying " Oh you dont deserve that." or "If everyone knew what you did no one would love you anymore" It has gotten to the point where my past is ruining my present and my future, I feel like I should just give up
So I was mistaken about the intent of the post. I apologize for my rage. Cant undo blocking the other person, atomic samurai whatever (it was a really long username). But I’ll apologize anyway
HOCD AND POCD TW I know that some people with hocd can turn out to be lgbt, but is it the same for pocd? I’m so worried. I know this is asking for reassurance but I’m not sure what else there is to do at this point.
Ocd makes me question whether I'm really doing a task or not? Sometimes I'll be texting and my brain will question whether I'm really texting. Does anyone else have this problem?
I have been watching a lot of schizophrenia videos recently and I am worried that watching them will just make me sadder/depressed , so I want to not watch them. Does anyone else feel this way?
Loss of romantic/sexual attraction with POCD? I remember before this episode the only thing I wanted in the world was to have a romantic relationship with a girl my age and give her the world :( Now I feel intimacy repulsed and it's hard for me to get sexually aroused, and when I do it comes along with extreme anxiety and guilt afterwards, even though I'm not masturbating to anything bad?
Anyone else have maladaptive daydreaming ? I wondered whether i shpuld stop daydreaming all together or just try once a qhile ? What did you guys do
Hello fellow warriors 🙌 How can I get a grip on “Sophie’s choice” types of intrusive thoughts, as in “here are two horrible choices, you have to choose one, and you are horrible no matter which you choose?”
Im feeling so weak and lethargic sitting in my bed and the anxiety is building up, its there all the time I dont get how someones body can produce so much anxiety every single day nonstop, ive been pushed beyond my limits to handle yet its still going. I feel like crying but I cant. Someone pls my last post i dont know what to do. I just want to go away
I just got out of a relationship with someone that isn’t ready for marriage and did sexual stuff with someone else while I’m healing. I have this overwhelming guilt about it because my ocd themes were about the guy when I was in the relationship and I feel like I will never have a chance with my ex. It’s all so confusing and just overwhelming and I just want to understand how to get through it
If I'm unsure whether doing ___ is a compulsion, how do I decide what to do? Example: If it's a compulsion, I'm not doing it, and vice versa" But in this case, I don't know if it's a compulsion, what do I do?
ROCD - please help... I'm feeling desperate Hi... Prepare for a huge txt but I need to vent with someone because I need an opinion of what to do and what to feel. I can't tell if I'm overthinking or not. Or if I'm being a horrible person and I should even feel more guilty. This is about relationship ocd. I'm gay and I have a gf. We have been dating for almost 5 months and in absolutely in love with her. She's my everything and I'm so afraid to be unfair/cheating. I also have this friend (he's a guy btw) who's overly flirtatious with everyone and he's also super insecure about himself and takes a lot of things people say very personally. I also suffer from a bit of sexual orientation ocd and sometimes I fear that I have a crush on him or something... Even though I don't even want even cuddle him let alone anything else.... We have this joke between us that we are husband and wife (it started before I even knew that my gf confessed feelings for me) and I always feel guilty for not ending the joke with my friend because he'd get depressed and maybe harm himself... And yes! I did tell my gf about this joke and she's OK with it. His nickname is cookie and he started a joke once because I was eating cookies once and he started laughing because... Well... You know what it entails. And sometimes I'm saying I'm eating cookies to make him laugh... But now I regret it because I maybe I'm flirting with him or something. I don't really know what flirting is. I know when I'm flirting with my gf but not if I'm accidentally flirting with others. And flirting for me (yes... This is just my take on it. My choice. But I feel that *me*flirting is cheating and I don't want to do that... I sometimes feel a really tight bond with this friend and it scares me. I try to dismiss my thoughts but they scare me that I may have a crush on him or something... And I don't want that... I just want to love my gf. There was this time... Even before I was dating my gf (but it was after she confessed her feelings for me), I was playing games with cookie (he was watching me), and he said "you are so cute" in a tender voice and I sat there feeling flushed - like those feelings you have when you develop a crush? Idk if I was feeling a crush or not. And I somewhat panicked. I have false memories about that moment. Heck! Maybe I'm just fooling myself that those were false memories. I started feeling worried that I actually was happy with him being this loving to me.... But I do think that I assured myself that i didn't because I don't want to have a romantic relationship him but my memory fails me.... And I have doubts and worries that... I did want to be romantic with him (Im pretty sure I don't but not entirely...) One more event that has been guilt-tripping me is that... Once or twice... I acted or did something "cute" for him to compliment me... I can't remember what! Or maybe I'm having false memories again... And I think it's definitely flirting and therefore cheating! I hate myself... I've been crying and feeling miserable.... And I have been avoiding said friend. I regret so badly ever meeting this friend because I told him that he needs to stop with the lewd jokes about me and he hasn't. I feel like I should break with my gf because she deserves so much better... She's an angel and I don't deserve her. I love her so much... (I don't know if it helps but he's a very loving person and sometimes he says he wants to give me kisses and cuddles and I say "sure" because I don't want to hurt him but I'm always uncomfortable with that idea) Please help me... And please don't hate me... I'm so sorry.... I really just need a friend right now. PT. 2: A few months ago (2 maybe) me and a close friend were playing terraria and we had this enjoyable bond moment... Where we were laughing (the same has happened with other games) and I had the thought of "hey. Is this a crush?" (it was something along those lines) it'd be fine if it thought that and I dismissed it but there's more.... I began thinking "I feel happy, he makes me laugh and maybe we are better suited together" but... I can't remember the aftermath. Did I panic with this thought?? I can't remember what thoughts I had after.... I never remember if I said "no. Not possible" or if I accepted them.... And I'm panicking really bad rn and feeling like crap and very guilty... I think.... (I'm not sure) I told myself "well it's not possible... I wouldn't be able to date him. I can't imagine dating him and do romantic stuff, or more". But I'm not sure.... Maybe I brushed it off!! This is the logic explanation because it's obvious that I have relationship ocd!! But.... It's the doubts..... Again... I'm just afraid I didn't panic or dismiss the thoughts... I can't remember what happened next. It's always like this! I fixate and hold the ugly thoughts but I "conveniently" forget the rest of the thought process. This has happened with pocd too. It's the "I can't remember how I dealt with them" that is what is worrying me... I can't remember if I dismissed them or if I agree with them These thoughts, I feel so guilty.... I am crying so much because I don't want to hurt her.......... I love her so much.... I truly do.... I feel guilty because I think "how could I have such thoughts in the first place? She's perfect!" and I begin to think that she deserves better I fear that this is cheating...
Literally just had my other therapist, a non ocd-therapist, tell me about the dangers of doing an exposure my actual ocd therapist and I came up with, which was meant to be totally harmless and safe and with people around me to do it. She also mentioned other cases of OTHER atrocities that she could tie to my current theme and fears and put that into my head, so now I’m even MORE scared and nervous to try my exposure 😭😭😑 on one instance it’s my fault for sharing it with the other therapist but on the hand it’s like, “stop talking you’re ruining my exposure” she even said she didn’t know what ERP was or much about OCD and she might’ve just ruined it for me now.
If I need to cancel a nocd therapy appointment how do I do it?
My ocd changed themes, I was obsessed with sexual thoughts and now I can’t stop thinking about losing my mom, my siblings and my death. I cried all day…
Hi guys! I find myself absolutely stressed and obsessed with my job. Not in a way where I’m having great days and I love it…more like wow I hate it here and all I do is think about how stressed out it makes me. Everyday. Whether or not I’m there, I’m thinking about it. I have nightmares about it half the time. I constantly feel like my job performance is never enough and it’s becoming very discouraging for my career goals. Any advice?
Has anyone completed the Alexian Brothers PHP or IOP?? If so, what was it like?
My biggest ocd compulsion is confessing to my therapist. Every time we have an appointment scheduled, I make a list of my new/past intrusive/disturbing thoughts and make sure to tell her every one. I know this is a confessing compulsion and I fear that it’s interfering with my treatment. I am sometimes able to resist the confessions, but in a month it will catch up to me and if I haven’t I’ll get a panic attack for days. Any advice? Please don’t tell me I’m ok, but rather how can I avoid this interfering with my treatment?
What up? Don't know about you guys, but I wish my OCD homework got me as anxious as when the unwanted thoughts pop in unexpected. It's like a part of my brain tunes out or something.
Does anyone else have a fear of dating? Like not ROCD once a relationship starts, but like, scared of even getting there? Feeling trapped? And also absolutely despising kissing?
The more I research and read on Reddit and stuff the more anxious I get ... is this normal?
hi everyone! i’m a little over a month on my relationship with my best friend (since like dec 2020). he’s liked me for like 5 months more than i’ve liked him back, and i’ve been having this thought lately in which i don’t love/like him as much as he loves/likes me. he sometimes tells me these amazing things he feels for me and i’m in a more less strong way you know, like i know i like him and i feel special with him and i do love him but these measurements i built in my head are messing that up for me. is that kinda common in rocd?
I truly do not understand how doing my compulsions suddenly makes me anxiety (about a thought/obsession) go away. It makes zero sense to me
Sometimes ocd becomes stronger without a valid reason. Hate it.
Anyone else had really bad contamination ocd but you don’t have a fear of getting sick?
Hey guys can i get some help on my last post? It would be greatly appreciated!
Whether you are a christian or not I encourage you to listen to this. I feel it can provide a great deal of relief for a lot of you. This is the truth of how God sees you and what is thoughts are towards you! Starts at 1:15 https://youtu.be/phtiTNVCsIM
have you ever in your life felt like you lost yourself? Because I completely lost myself when I was 13 years old, going through heavy trauma and self hate. After that I have never known who I am. HOCD is a fear of losing our identity and never knowing what will happen next. That leads to overthinking. Overthinking is caused by our inner child being scared because things happened out of our control. Now I try to take care of my younger self but it’s hard to accept. I think I struggle so much with who I am that my brain tries to make me feel in control but HOCD is the worst thing that could ever happen tbh. Hope I recouver this year, 3 years and still going..
Found myself painting a bathroom today. Had to keep going back for reassurance I did a good job so much, I ended up drinking beer in my bathroom and watching paint dry.
Anyone else finding it that being too much into this community triggers them too much? I’m trying to spend only 5 minutes a day on here lol.
I am 4 and a half months postpartum and started experiencing intrusive thoughts at around 3 months postpartum. They were mostly harming myself and harming my baby (something I did NOT want to do and something that brought me much distress) it also made me terrified of losing my mind. it gets worse around ovulation time. I have gotten really good at not having discomfort from those thoughts and like clockwork around ovulation this month, I had obsessive thoughts about the purpose of life and what if life is just a figment of my imagination. And then I started getting terrified of losing my mind again. My cousin is a therapist who specializes in ocd. And she’s the one who opened my eyes to it. I realized I’ve had it my whole life but it’s just exacerbated by my current hormonal changes. This is not for the faint of heart you guys!! I am seeing 3 therapists 😂 my rituals are avoidance and seeking reassurance as well as repetitive reassuring myself in my head when I have these intrusive thoughts
I picked a bunch of my zits (I suffer from moderate/severe acne) and feel bad but trying to show myself compassion ♥️
I’m scared to tell my boyfriend about my ocd, what if it ruins things or maybe I don’t deserve him I’m so broken I just feel so down about it right now
Welp day 2 on a three week goal cuz i slipped up and asked for reassurance like 4 times last week. Once a day.
Reading constantly about ocd hocd and somatic ocd nearly 3 years on from reading every every few months I focus on my blinking coz I read about it ages a go that this girl had it and hocd every few weeks I say in my head I don’t want to hurt people or kill people I normally get this if Iv had a verry in depth conversation about problems When I say this in my head I fill anxiety and depressed Is this ocd can you pick up ocd theams
What makes me scared is knowing it’s mental.. That it’s in my head but I can’t bring logic to why I’m freaking out It’s like mind is broken and if I don’t have mind I have nothing left I’m just tired
Anybody look at clean porcelain and want to just caress it, but then there's an imperction like a bump, so now you want to smash it. Try you'll go nuts.
Isnt it rocd when you are scared that you may catch romantic feelings to other people while dating? Because I have struggled with it now for a while. And it makes me scared that I act suspicious and having crush -kind of way when talking to my guy friends :/
Y’all ever do okay with saying “maybe, maybe not”, but then eventually just get tired of it? I feel like the longer an episode lasts, the harder it is to stick with not responding. Also the longer it lasts, the more real it feels.
Does anyone else experience your ocd at its lowest when you are physically tired? Sometimes when I get triggered by something I’ll just think “I’m too tired to care rn” and move on well??
I have harm ocd should I write all my bad thoughts down then bin it .feeling so bad with them today can't switch them off 😪
Wish me luck everyone I’m starting my day with a “maybe ,maybe not “attitude towards my “what if?” Thoughts (:
I can't understand if breaking up with my bf is what I really want or is just something "made up" by my thoughts that trick me into thinking that I want it but I don't really want it... is that rocd?
Ocd constantly makes you feel a bad person because of all the thoughts. When you ignore them it feels like you agree with them and that you are a bad person.
In addition to feeling so anxious and distressed I also feel so sad. I’m sad that instead of enjoying my extended holiday weekend with my daughter I’m just plagued by this illness. Usually people would be so excited to be at home with their family but I dread it and have been miserable this whole time. It breaks my heart because I won’t get this time back and it’s not fair to my daughter. She’s only two and I’m doing the best I can but I’m sad I can’t be the mom I want to be and that she deserves. I just want to lay and ruminate instead of being upbeat and hands on 😔 can anyone relate? I feel so guilty.
Does anybody else feel exhausted like all the time.. I feel like I get pretty decent amount of sleep.. just hope nothing is seriously wrong with me. It seems like I have no energy ever
Ok so I don’t know how to explain this so I hope it makes sense but whenever I’m wearing something that I love and I know I look beautiful my mind always immediately says “that’s not you” or something like that even though I feel like I look so good and I like the way I look. It makes me scared that I’m not being myself or something. Idk if this is an OCD problem but I keep dealing with it. Like whenever I dress up and look at myself in the mirror I get really sad and scared that I’m not being “myself.” Even tho I’m wearing what I like?? Idk lol. So confusing!!
I need this today and I’m sure someone else does too. Sending strength and love 🤍
Anyone on here or know of anyone that is on disability for severe OCD and anxiety…. I am think about looking into it…
There is no one on Ali Greymond when it comes to ocd. She was born to help people.
I just had a dream about one of my major OCD fears. Why??? Why??? 😠😞
I found out hes the one. And everything felt like it went silent but i had a happy feeling in my gut. I really dont see myself with any other guy. But then my brain was like hes not tall
I made progress today! I was watching the movie “Assassins Creed” with my mom and I only googled “ how to be an assassin” after ONE intrusive though. BUT the compulsion didn’t even last 5 minutes before I dismissed the thought and went back to the movie. I feel like I actually made progress today!
Who the fuck am I?. Do I feel like this because I'm bisexual all this confusion and feelings. Please help
I bought this to remind myself to follow my values regardless of what OCD tells me:)💕
I feel that an acid trip triggered my ocd pretty bad has anyone else experienced this ?
Has anyone found anything helpful for anxiety apart from propranolol and SSRIs
I continue to be at the same place. Where I don’t feel like my stomach drop when a thought comes through anymore. Instead, I just constantly carry around a feeling like "what if im gay or i must be gay or so i actually want to be gay will that make me happier or a feeling like what if im suppressing it. Anyone going through the same thing and have any tip on overcoming this?
My brain keeps going at you only think of him as a friend and puts me in that setting with him. Ugh i hate this...fuk u rocd
it’s so hard to know what’s rocd and what’s actually a problem in the relationship… or if we’re not right for each other or we’re both just mentally ill…it makes me so nervous to even write this here
I often think that there is someone better out there for me even though my boyfriend is respectful and treats me right but sometimes he does something that is not that big and can solved but I keep thinking I am settling and I can find a better person than him. What should I do when I feel this, is this related to rocd?
I had an epiphany last week when some of my family got covid- whatever happens, due to my magical thinking, it will be my fault somehow. Like maybe I wore my hair the wrong way or didn’t count my steps when walking. So I came to the realization that I’d I don’t embrace the uncertainty then I am not living, I’m just surviving! I am now committed to working on my OCD with ERP! I hope this gives hope to someone too!
i’ve finally started feeling a little like myself again and got out if my old obsessions and now i still don’t get peace because one of my worst themes (inc*st) just came back :(
I saw on NOCD’s site that they partnered with a pharmaceutical company for a med that’s in a clinical study trial, called Troriluzole? Has anyone on here tried this?
Hey, how do you feel anxiety? For me, my head hurts, my body sweats and shakes, my stomach cramps, my heart beats fast. What about you? Same or not?
i has an intrusive thought about someone else while having sex with my bf 😞😞 i know it’s just a thought
It’s so stupid that all the time he was here visiting I wanted him to leave because I felt awful and confused and now he’s gone and I miss him. Why is that?
I hate the mornings, I wake up with instant anxiety, heart and mind racing.
I posted my story here a hour ago. It was so hard to me :( I wish we all will get better!
Does your OCD interfere with the things you like and the thoughts are like thats not fun you won't like it. And also is it hard for you to get motivated because of the anxiety ?
It's been three month since we started dating. I really lovee herr a lot. I'm 16, male. I've had 2 relationships when I was 13, each lasted for a month because i lost feelings for them and i didnt love them, it was only for sex. But i want my current relationship to go on forever. I dont get the good feeling now which I used to get earlier😭. When shes offline, I get thoughts like shes cheating on me. When I find other girls attractive, I feel like I'm cheating on her. My mind continously tells me that I should break up with her. I have sexual orientation ocd too but It became better after I got into a relationship. Is this rocd😭😭😭 please help mee I'm crying alot. My eyes pain😭😭😭😭
Sometimes I wish I had a different subtype, and it makes me feel guilty because I know each subtype is really difficult to deal with.
Is daydreaming about a celebrity or a random guy cheating? I have rocd.
How can I improve myself from rocd? I cannot afford therapy and it’s now getting on my nerves. Please help.
My last post shouldn’t have a trigger warning i am just used to always hutting it. But i cant copy it to redo the post.
18+ NSFW Me and my boyfriend have been sexting and he wants to do some sexual stuff with me I did get really turned on but im now super worried what if I'm not into it or if im not sexually attracted to him since I've never been intimate with someone before
I feel like I am annoying af I have thousands of questions and most of them just that reassurance seeking and even that's not enough for me as I find myself finding some other ways to seek answers so that I can figure out things and because of all that I lose the track of rationality and even common sense sometimes It gets way more complex for me
I read this thing online about how relationships we have with people are based on our childhood experiences and people are their to teach us things about our inner selves but that sometimes we don’t need that lesson anymore or it’s served and the people outgrow the relationship . I’m worried now that I will outgrow my relationship when I don’t want to I want us to stay together . Like I can see people who are married and they now seem miserable together , my boyfriend and I are talking g about mariage and he is from a different culture , he tells me he worries about me not enjoying his culture as he wants to move back to his home country and I would be expected to move back too , he says in his culture people marry for life and it is different to the UK. For someone who suffers with ROCD anyway , this pressure feels unbearable I’m unable to process everything that’s going on but I do know that I want things to work out between us . Sorry for the long post I just needed to vent and write it out .
Been a very hard day, starting a new job today and feeling totally overwhelmed by the glitches in the system and teething problems. It's a new company that I joined and I am just really struggling to get through it. My mind feels like zoning out every ten seconds.
I think my brain genuinely find it difficult to believe that i might be a good person, so it tortures me with scary intrusive thoughts and what if questions (moral ocd). If i wasn’t so obsessive, the what if questions would be easily dismissed because I know deep down that they don’t represent me and they go against everything I stand for, but my irrational side latches onto them and causes me to spiral. I feel so much guilt because of my thoughts and idk what to do. I know they aren’t me, but I can’t shake the guilt. It is literally gut wrenching.
Another terrible dream. Even in my dreams I have intrusive thoughts 😭
How do you get over the fear of talking about your emotions? Real event OCD has been literally grabbing me by the hair and swinging me around recently… because of events that have happened in the past, I find it really hard to talk to people in general. I restrict myself on what I say. I’m reserved, secretive, and passive. I just agree with people and I can’t say no. Of course, I can’t tell anyone that, otherwise they’ll feel like I’m being rude, or that this whole time I’ve been a ‘disingenuous’ friend. Talking about my feelings is an absolute no-go. Like said, I restrict myself on everything that I say. If I’m happy, no one will know. If I’m sad, no one will know. I’ve turned myself into an emotionless machine that runs on autopilot because I’m so scared of people knowing how I feel thus in most situations I just repress everything. The apathetic temperament I’ve taken up is even making every day just feel like it’s the same. The fear is that I’m scared of the unknown. I’m scared of how people are going to respond, and because of the few events that happened in the past, I feel like I’m going to be made out as some sort of ‘villain’ — that which I’ve painted myself for so many years. I think that’s literally it. I paint myself as a villain. No matter what I say, I will feel like the bad person who always is in the wrong. It’s unresolved trauma I don’t think it would be a good idea to bring up again. I was blamed for a lot of things, so I’m afraid even the simplest of things is going to make people hurt or offended. That is why I don’t show my emotions — so there’s absolutely no way that people can respond to them. I don’t know if that made any sense at all. But I’m just so exhausted of talking to people as somebody that I’m not. Hiding everything, having to agree to things I don’t want to agree to, I’m miserable and tired. But like said, if I tell people I need alone time, they’re going to think I’m being mean or that I don’t want to be around them, which is definitely not what I want I’m saying. Christmas Day was the first day in about 3 years I finally had offline. No phone, no socialising. It was the most relaxed I’d ever been in years. I could cry thinking about how I want Christmas Day to play over and over. Just my mum, my brother & I, sitting on the floor and eating crisps whilst watching her build this new cabinet my dad got me… even my mum noticed that I was more relaxed. I wasn’t disturbed by so many intrusive thoughts. The only thing is that it wasn’t actually me that asked to spend a day offline. If my friend didn’t ask me if I wanted to stay off Christmas Day, I wouldn’t have said anything and would’ve been on my phone all day, which is something I really don’t want to do. I feel like it’s bad that sometimes I want my friends to ignore me just so I don’t have to tell them myself that I want to be alone. I don’t know what they’ll say to me which scares me. This is all making me realise I really need to be vocal. But I can’t do it. I’m going to offend people no matter what. I feel like I’m stuck in an eternal nightmare of fearing that I’ll hurt someone in some way. I just feel like the detriment of myself and the happiness of others is a lot easier than finding the strength to talk about how I feel. It’s just easier this way.
Does anyone else think these thoughts will never go away ?
Is it just me or has anyone else felt that there life has gotten away from them or that they haven’t been there self for years, I feel like I used to go out with the boys and go out to clubs looking for girls but I feel like that I’m not that person which is sad
can someone with soocd please talk to me i feel sick
Ever since I started having OCD episodes I have not been able to get out of my head. I feel as though I talk to myself and answer myself more than ever and it is almost scary.