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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
Can I talk to someone about my hocd?? Please!!! I'm very anxious
my thoughts just wont leave me alone. i get angry “you’re gonna act on your thoughts”, i drink tea “act on it now!!!” or even if i’m just sitting near anyone. i can’t stand this. im so frustrated.
Hello. It's being a while since my last post. I Need your help. Today I visited a psychiatrist, after I got in contact with my therapist, to get a medication because, even though I was getting much better with my obsessions, something happened to me that I can't cope with. I want your opinion about Minitran The therapist prescribed me the "Minitran" which are somehow antidepressant, because I told her that xanax aren't doing anything to relief me from stress. And I read about them and they are both antidepressant and antipsychotic too, which makes me worry about two things First what side effects will have on me Secondly do I have psychoses or schizophrenia? I feel even worse than before meeting the therapist...
Anyone else get super anxious when they see masculine or androgynous women? My hocd tells me I find them attractive but I wonder if it’s false attraction. I get major anxiety and have to look at them over and over hoping that each time I do I won’t find them attractive and I get really sad about the thought of me liking them
my family doesn’t understand how hard it is to wake up every morning not wanting to live because of this stupid ass disorder. they always get frustrated with me when i cry or something. I DIDNT CHOOSE TO SUFFER.
My second nocd therapy meeting was cancelled over the payment issues I’ve been having i’m so annoyed! Both me and my grandmas cards are connected with money in them? I’ve contacted nocd for help asking what’s wrong and why they won’t take the money and i’m getting no response.
Like a River like our thoughts if we learn to instead of trying to fight against the current, but drift and flow with the waters, through recognizing our thoughts the River no longer becomes a torrent but peaceful. Let us accept our thoughts, and flow with them to ultimately live free at peace. Through accepting them we can move beyond them and let them not define us. It is within, our hearts that defines us not our thoughts. Let us believe in love. Learn to dance in the rain and love our selves as, you are worthy, there is forever and always hope and light and you are cared about and loved forever and always. Peace, blessings, light, and love to you all forever and always. Like a River we are all connected, let us unite as we flow, flow coming together, becoming the salt, coming home, to our ocean. ❤️
im doing okay i was able to control my anxiety because whenever i have intrusive thoughts i just honestly agree with them and say thank you maybe you are right brain and move on and sit with the thoughts im not going to argue with my thoughts anymore or go looking for reassurance or avoid going out im done letting ocd control my life i’ve been so miserable because of it and i’m done arguing
Can someone please reply I'm really stressed Help my cat just sprayed infront of me...I was fixing my towel on the drier and he came up and sprayed (pee) on the wall. I stood in shock until I told him off. But I literally JUST showered and changed clothes. I don't know if any got on me . His butt wasn't facing me.. but I'm overthinking it could have sprayed and landed on me..also I wasn't wearing my glasses so I'm not sure how close I was to him cause everything is really blurry when I don't have them on. Do I change and shower again ?? I literally just showered and changed clothes and ita stressing me out cause I just want 1 day where I can relax. Feel clean. And don't have sh*t like this happen.
Hello. Does anyone have tips for how to know if you're actually ready to end a relationship that's in a complicated place or if that would just be an attempt to escape uncertainty? I've been wondering if I should just give up on the idea of a serious relationship with someone because even though I know it's what I want it's been difficult being patient while the other person figures out if they want the same. I can't tell if moving on will be the right thing in the long run or if it's just going to bring me temporary comfort and I should instead work on being comfortable with the uncertainty.
it’s so hard having sexuality / gender related ocd because so many of posts say “don’t worry you are not a bad person” “you aren’t a monster” which is probably more intentional for people with like harm ocd or pocd but reading that stuff with like so ocd or tocd is worse because sexuality / gender isn’t bad or makes you a bad person it’s just human so it makes it even scarier
Question for anyone who’s had covid - did you find it increased your OCD symptoms at all? Not so much contamination OCD but just your symptoms in general?
It feels like my whole body is going to explode from all this anxiety 😣🤯 I’m trying to do the best I can. I’m cutting caffeine, I steppingstones down at my job. I have NO reason to feel anxious or depressed except for my anxiety and OCD itself. If I didn’t have these mental illnesses, I would literally have the best life😭 which makes me feel even worse about how much this is stealing from me.
anyone have tips for getting over guilt? i have guilt over a weird compulsion id do 2 years ago and i regret it and feel bad for it.
i can’t even sleep anymore. the thoughts just won’t stop. im stressed out.
Anyone else have real events pocd?? It is so hard to overcome this when you feel as if you’ve done something(s) unforgivable ! 😭
i finally booked an assessment but it isn't for another week and it's at 9am :( i haven't been able to sleep until 7 lately
I’m afraid to talk to my therapist about a particular fear that actually involves them. I don’t want to be switched to another therapist because I make them uncomfortable or they think I’m weird or something. I like my therapist and I don’t want to have to “start over” with someone else. I know that I have to talk about my fears to get better, but I’m scared. Any advice about talking with your therapist about strange thoughts that involve them too?
I accept my uncertainty. I answer with maybe, maybe not. I don't care. It is not my responsibility to figure out all the what if. I will never get my answer. I accept if I make a mistake. I move on. I somehow will figure it out if the worst nightmare will take place. Now I suffer, the thoughts, doubt, anxiety comes through, but I will only grow stronger from it and it will no more have an effect on me. The pain that I feel right now, that is the OCD dying in me. Without friction there is no growth. So now I am growing into a new person. Bye bye OCD.
ROCD folks, any tips on how to stop checking attraction when look at partner or how to stop mentally comparing when see another attractive person? Thanks!
I need some advice from those who take SSRI's. I was originally given wellbutrin 300mg a day and i had such a terrible reaction... i really believe i have PTSD from it.... well my doctor switched me to zoloft 50mg and after that I felt so much better.... and then i did a stupid thing and stopped taking it cause I thought I was all better and 2 months later I had another episode, i started the medicine back up again 50mg a day and after a little while I felt good again, of course i still got like "flashbacks" to those days but I felt normal again... well like my college semester started on wednsday and ever since then i've had terrible anxiety, my brain is trying to tell me the medicine isn't working and it's happening again.... I was wondering if i should speak to my doctor about maybe upping my dosage?
Does anybody else struggle with feeling overwhelmed constantly? How do you cope with this?
I feel like when I am trying to recover, a thought hooks onto the recovery process and the OCD becomes strong again. This "hooked" thought feels like it has to be there and makes the OCD new again so the cycle starts again. Then I next obsess about that I shouldn't be thinking about any of this at all and that I was supposed to go through recovery without having to obsess about something. Like just typing this feels like I'm cheating in my recovery of overcoming ocd. What do I do? I keep experiencing what I call "layering" where there is constant layering and cascading of thoughts that keep triggering more ocd.
I have been doing ok for the past few weeks, but the past 3 days have been a bit difficult in the sense that my intrusive thoughts are more difficult to deal with. I just don't want to go back to that dark place I was in before and I just really want to feel better. It makes me sad to think that I might go back to that dark place and what that means. It truly breaks my heart. I feel that because I got a taste of the progress that I have had I do not want that to disappear. I know realistically it happens and sometimes there are setbacks and ups and downs but it still breaks my heart. Has anyone experienced this, I'm sure most of us have.
Hi, I just touched something icky and I was scared of the diseases I can get from it so I sprayed tons of rubbing alcohol on my hand, phone and sheets but when doing it I started to wonder does rubbing alcohol harm you if you use it too much or inhale it? because I have been using it daily TONS of time for a while because it calms me down and kind of spraying it to my pillows since the smell is pleasant and I’m panicking I hate how ocd makes you do things to calm down an intrusive thought amd making another intrusive thought in it’s place, im panicking a bit so i don’t know if I’m being coherent I’m scared of cancer, Idk what to do?
I am big on celebrating small victories right now but I will say this is a big one for me. I haven't slept through the night in a month. Constantly on 3 maybe 4 hours a night, sometimes none. This morning I woke up to my alarm and I was like a kid on christmas.
Seeing other peoples types of ocd’s and compulsions on this app incites fear in me that my ocd will cling onto it and become my problem too… I’ve been having this attitude of my doors being opened and letting anything I see or think inside and responding with uncertainty that it’s true or like “yeah I could have that too” inciting anxiety like always with erp, lowkey not sure if this is a good way to respond to everything I see or even see my mind try to cling onto and repeat in my head.
Having trouble trusting myself in doing things or even trying to relay a positive mindset in fear of it being a compulsion. (My ocd is strictly about words and phrases in my brain) in a way not wanting to go back and rely on these words or phrases is where the fear stems from I think…
Any advice for how you guys get over worrying your partner is going to leave you? I overanalyze every single little thing he says or does and when I’m not with him (such as being at work), I spiral.
Who else takes Zoloft? What dosage are you on? & how was your experience with dosage increases?
I haven't used this app in so long,, Im not sure why but i've been super anxious ever since my online college semester started. I'm losing sleep at night and my fear of being alone is coming back... I still take my medicine and I notice I feel better when the sun is out, im just wondering if all this anxiety is because of college. It's my fourth semester and because of last OCD episodes my GPA has dropped so if I fail this semester I get kicked out... I also got my booster yesterday and got anxiety because of that... I feel crazy lol
has anyone else had issues with scrolling through tiktok and being triggered, then developing new compulsions to cope? like when I see something bad happen on there, I get intrusive thoughts, then do one of my compulsions which is to scroll off the titkok and check to see if I liked the video or followed the person who triggered me and make sure I haven’t so I can move on, but I have to check a few times so it gets really exhausting. it got to the point where I couldn’t actually use tiktok anymore.
Hallucinations with OCD? What is the difference between a hallucination and a very vivid image that you know isn’t there but you can see clearly? Are auditory hallucinations possible as well?
I did some pretty weird sexual things when i was, maybe 12-13 I’m not too sure how old i was. I looked it up and it’s considered “moderately concerning behavior” according to psychology. I’m also autistic so some behaviors might be cause by that (these behaviors are normal up to a certain age, so I’m thinking maybe i did them for a few more years because of my autism) i feel incredibly guilty right now, especially because my siblings were involved. I feel like a pedophile because one of my siblings is younger than me. My family wasn’t and isn’t concerned anout this because of my autism but I’m just dealing with a lot of guilt lately. Am I a monster? I would NEVER do those things again now, even though i get intrusive thoughts and urges😓
What to do when you get an onslaught of obsessions and you’re just panicking. No urges for compulsions just pure panic.
Does anyone know others in real life who have ocd? I don’t, other then myself. I’m asking because I think it would be nice to know someone who has ocd like me. But then again some might not say anything about it if they did have it so I wouldn’t know. I’ve only told 2 people ever lol.
I’m tired of struggling with ocd. I want to do the stuff that I wanna do, yet I’m stuck in my room trying to do all my compulsions. 😔 I think ima try out erp with a therapist. I’m scared to face ocd tbh.
When things get more exciting it allow me think more what will happen and then my excitment all goes and i feel like i will not enjoy. Like something special happens i feel like im not able to enjoy. Im really scared.
I am so Sick and tired of OCD and Mental Health in general I’ve been through every theme HOCD, POCD, Rocd, Harm OCD, Health OCD, Contamination OCD but being Stuck on Death OCD and lil but of Thanatophobia is quite hard I get better then get reset all the time
I’m a liar. I lie mostly to strangers because i don’t really have anything exciting to tell them and I won’t ever see them again anyway, who cares. But the thing is i recently started accidentally lying to people i know, like i would say something that’s not true and then think “wait that’s not true, why did i say that” What should i do?
Weird question but for my contamination ocd people who have issues with the floor/feet.. how do you put your pants on lol… I sometimes use hand sanitizer on my feet so they don’t dirty my pants when I pull them on
Do u ever feel like you lose yourself when you go down into a hole of emotional checking and then after doing emotional checking u just lose yourself like you know who u are but u feel so disassociated with yourself anyone relate let me know I wanna know if this is a thing
Okay so I’m sitting here trying to relax and read my book. Sometimes I feel like it’s almost impossible to get through more than five pages without some sort of intrusive thought. I need the courage to practice my erp right now no just keep reading and not rereading the same sentence. Ugh OCD sucks.
Has anyone here taken Ativan? What is your experience with it for your anxiety related to ocd?
I get ssi for my ocd cause it is a chronic illness I’ve had times were my ocd was manageable but I don’t think haveing a full time job would be something I could’ve done even at my best cause I never finished a year of school since I’ve had ocd I’ve always had to leave at points cause it was just to much for me I even moved to the alternative school which was way smaller and it was easier on me but I still had problems but I get ssi and get Medicaid which is suppose to help me pay for the help I need wit my disability my Medicaid can only be used in my state and there’s no ocd facility’s in Tennessee there’s nowere in Tennessee that accepts Medicaid and if anyone comments places like rogers behavioral health they don’t accept Medicaid and there only outpatient and everytime I call anyone to find a place they tell me to call my insurance I’ve already called my insurance they’ve told me there’s no places in Tennessee there’s definitely no places in my area itd be a 2 hours drive to the closest mental hospital if I did that I also tried going back to the place I went to when I was younger they just discharged me in 3 days telling me they didn’t have the resources to help me and a referral to an ocd place in Chicago but when I got home excited to go to Chicago they denied me cause of insurance cause again my insurance can only be used in Tennessee this is insane I’m being paid 533 dollars a month to have ocd it’s not even enough to live on my own I can’t get an apartment wit this money but yet the state can deem me disabled but can’t help me get better so I can atleast work part time and afford to live I can’t even take care of myself Roy snow it’s so rediculous I’m so miserable there’s places and ppl out there that can help me but money is such and issue and it’s not just expensive to get help it’s extremely expensive 40000 dollars for 1 month in a California ocd place who has that money.
I hope this doesn't sound awful but I like NOCD 10x more than reddit. Idk it seems like there is less reassurance on here and more thoughtful responses but that's just me
anyone suffering from the backdoor spike????? pls this is killing me
So I watched a pretty exposing movie and I told myself it would be from the start but the movie had a plot twist and exposed even more themes for me. It was really difficult and was wondering if there is any advice for this.
Is anyone so in theirs head they are constantly thinking that’s wrong with them?
“Sometimes to stay alive you’ve gotta kill your mind” -Migraine by Twenty One Pilots
Does anyone get a lot of pressure in their head? Like there head is getting squeezed?
I'm so tired. I've just woke up and already tired and sad. I can't even cry, only scream.
To anyone in recovery or recovered: what do you with all that past rumination that made you feel a certain way? How do you change your view on it when it still pops in?
I'm having smaller reactions to intrusive thoughts about my relationship lately and that scares me into thinking I accept them. Is that bad? I really want to be with him and don't want to push him away. :(
I'm utterly perplexed. If I don't engage in the intrusive thoughts that I recognize, I feel that I don't actually feel bothered by them and if I don't dispute them, I accept them as genuinely mine but I If and when I do, I spiral into a frenzy of panic and anxiety that makes me overthink, feel guilty, and so much more.
Does anyone else suffer from confession OCD? Mine is especially bad involving my girlfriend and feeling like I need to confess to her everytime I find someone else attractive
Did your OCD suddenly appear after a specific life event/trauma or you've kind of had it since childhood?
It’s always a good time when the symptoms of a panic attack are the exact same as the symptoms of the health problem that my ocd convinced me I have in order to cause the panic attack in the first place 🤦♀️
how do you guys sit with uncertainty when your thoughts are convincing you something happened??!? 😞
right now my brain is trying to argue that ocd isn’t real and that i don’t have it 😭
Everybody at work treats me oddly and my boss acts condescending towards me since covid started I developed contamination fears mostly due to covid.
I can't avoid my triggers right now. They have to do with medical care and I can't just not do them. I'm constantly second guessing my decisions and ruminating about my choices. The doctors give me too much information (they have to tell me everything that could go wrong so I can't sue them if it does). I know they say fear can't kill you, but this level of fear-- where I'm actually sick and shaking and struggling to eat-- can't be good for me. It's also horrible to experience.
feeling extreme guilt over a weird repetitive compulsion i did a year and a half ago. i’m accepting it happened and it was when i was in a bad place and didn’t understand ocd and what it was. the compulsion was when i went through a sexual attraction to animal faze and i would look at the back of my cats butt and check if i was aroused. obviously i never hurt my cat nor would i ever but i feel as if i abused her cause i looked at her butt several times. but i just have to accept maybe i did and move on!
Are flashbacks a part of OCD? Like real event OCD or false memory OCD?
I feel like I’ll never be able to leave the house again. I wanna cry.
Regarding relationship ocd: has it ever caused you to get anxious by just looking or being around your significant other?! Like I immediately get anxious when I’m around my husband. I think it has to do with the thoughts I originally had, but I don’t get thoughts immediately I get anxious immediately now. Any advice?!
I just booked my first appointment with an ocd specialist and i’m scared and worried that they might tell me i don’t have ocd, idk what to do
i’m freaking out i have my first surgery tomorrow and everytime i think abt it i feel sick to my stomach i really don’t think i can do it. i’m so anxious i don’t know what to do
i honestly don’t even wanna live anymore. i feel like my mind keeps making seem like some kind of monster whose gonna act on their thoughts.
what if i did something as a kid and i just don’t remember. i remember always wanting to be the mom figure for everything. growing up and seeing my mom be an amazing mom to 5 kids inspired me as a kid but now i’m starting to think what if i did something & that’s why i feel the way i feel rn???!??😞
Random but has anyone watched Euphoria? I binged watched it earlier this week and it triggered a new theme I’ve never really had before. Anyone else seen the show?
Any podcast recommendations for learning to live with OCD, uncertainty, doubts, etc.?
my false & real event memories have officially started again. 😞
ROCD is acting up like crazy since I moved in with my boyfriend. I thought I wouldn't think he was cheating once I was with him more. Symptoms did dissipate for a bit, but now I am convinced again that he is cheating. I am analyzing his actions and "have proof." I feel like I'm going crazy. Totally sucks. The thing is he really could be cheating. Who knows...
I have constant thoughts that I should leave my boyfriend. This week it’s been a constant loop of my boyfriend doesn’t love me, and he hates me, he’s using me, I’m going to be alone and end up hurting myself. I’m so sick right now
i hate how stereotyped and stigmatized ocd is when i was first showing symptoms and was reaching out for answers of why i was thinking this way i was shocked when i found out it was ocd because i’d always painted this picture of the stereotypes shown in tv/media 😣
I met someone else with ocd today! Well not me ig, we’ve known each other for a while. I’m in ninth grade at a school where I knew almost no one and we met at the beginning of the school year. Today we were chatting and we started talking about mental disorders. (It was a light hearted convo, nothing too deep) I say I have ocd and she said she does too. Then we talk about our themes, I say I have ocd about my career because it’s the least embarrassing/personal and the easiest to understand without knowing exactly why ocd is. (There was another girl there too.) She says, struggling to find words, that she has ocd about her identity and I follow up with saying “sexual”, because I have SO-OCD. She says yes. Then we both laugh about how the summer was torture with it and high five. We talk more about the pain a bad day can be like (still cheery ofc) while the third girl is kind of lost lol. I’m just a little excited, I told some older friends from middle school about that I had ocd and they didn’t really know what to say. We then watched friends and everyone shouted that Monica had ocd too, so idk how well that went down. It’s cool to have someone irl that can understand exactly how it feels. Sorry this was so long!
I suffer with really bad checking compulsions, right now my worst is checking my backpack. I check the zips are all going the right direction, down up down, then check backwards. Then I check the surfaces, the front, underneath, back. Over and over, and if it doesn’t feel right I try to ignore it because I know I just looked 5 seconds ago but I have to look again. And this really irritates me not only because it’s me checking my bag loads, but because of how it looks, it’s quite a lot of weird manoeuvres and I worry I get looks and get so paranoid it’s so frustrating. I
I feel crazy. I can’t even go to sleep normally. I keep needing to check every part of my bed,I can’t just check one part, because that triggers me to check another, and then another and it just goes on and on. Then once I’m ‘done’ I say ‘I’ll check this part one last time’ and then I trigger my self all over again and this lasts 30 mins to even an hour. It’s unbearable and I get dizzy and feel like I’m about to cry.
Have you ever had an obsessions around a specifc person? This is so annoying. This person doesn't even mean anything to me. We did not have a close relationship but they intrusively enter my mind.
I have relationship OCD, and I have suspected for a while that my husband has some form of OCD too. Today he told me he relates to the definition of 'scrupulosity' and when I looked it up, it's religious OCD.
Anyone with Relationship ocd? Can you please share what it’s like for you ?
i know im avoiding going to mexico bc of the fact there’s gonna be kids but i just can’t go. my thoughts are too much. i just can’t.
Is what if I don’t actually believe in god a common intrusive thought for this theme?
I feel very alone right now. I can’t control these thoughts right now. I want to get better but my mind keeps saying you will never recover you are a bad person and you have done bad things in the past. I don’t even know anymore I was fine last week then I got a bad thought and think it is true and it all feels so real .
for some reason my ocd is not as bad and I'm scared it's fake progress and that it'll all come rushing back
Feeling like I’m not girly enough to be straight has been getting to me lately :/
Challenge for myself and everyone: Lets focus on how temporary our thoughts are this weekend. When a negative thought arrives leta get outside, or take some deep breaths, or just change our actvity and see how fast our thoughts change. This will help us realize how our thoughts really don’t mean anything and they change so fast that focusing on one doesn’t really help us. LMK how it works for u
everytime i tell my sister my thoughts my mind tells me “good job. you just told her you’re going to act on your thoughts so expect the worst.” im so fucken scared.