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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
Can I talk to someone about my hocd?? Please!!! I'm very anxious
Hey guys. So I was diagnosed with harm OCD. I was able to help myself with the thoughts and I'm doing better in that department. The only issue is now I think I have ROCD. I keep getting very anxious and scared. I keep wondering "what if he doesn't love me" "what if I don't love him" "what if I'm still in love with my ex" all of the thoughts just popped up out of nowhere. Me and my ex had a forced breakup but, we have been separated for almost three years and I have never thought about him or missed him once. It only started a long with my intrusive thoughts. The man I am with now is the love of my life and he has done anything and everything to make me happy. I don't understand why I am going through this, why is it that OCD comes after the things you value the most? My boyfriend now, is a tuapky the first guy I have been with that is a healthy relationship. All of my exes were toxic. I don't understand why I am getting bad thoughts all of a sudden about my relationship. Does anyone else relate?
3 years ago shortly after I had my son I started getting postpartum OCD never had anxiety at all or OCD while I was pregnant with my first and like a year ago I had little to almost no OCD but here and there well now I’m 26 weeks pregnant with my 2nd and it’s coming back sooo badly I feel like I’m going straight crazy My obsession has been me thinking I have schizophrenia!! Like I’m tricking my mind to believe I’m getting the symptoms but I know that they arnt true and I’m really not experiencing them but I’m sooo terrified of getting it that my brain is literally trying to trick me into the symptoms of it but I don’t actually see or hear stuff I’m just that afraid of it actually happening like idk what to do to stop these terrible thoughts but this pregnancy has me all kinda of screwed up 😭 can anyone please relate!? Or am I actually just going crazy?
So when I first got OCD, I used to wake up in the middle of the night with intrusive thoughts and bad anxiety. Have you ever experienced this?
Anyone else primary obsession is a meta obsession . Mine has been for months me checking if my actions are compulsive or not . I just feel alone with this obsession haven’t talked or heard many people talk about it . I have heard a documentary that I really related to called a two tale spike . Which is basically you’re damned if you do damned if your don’t . I just have so much pressure to make the right decisions constantly and everything is framed as possible avoidance and I try so hard not to ruminate whether it is or isn’t It sucks
My mind keeps convincing me that whenever I cry I manipulate ppl, I accidentally made my brother feel bad the other day because I was super emotional and felt like I had to let everyone else control me etc and I had a meltdown but my intrusive thoughts are like “you’re such a good manipulator” “no wonder ppl hate you” anyone else experienced this?
Im online but the meeting hasn’t started yet.
Was the group meeting canceled today? I can't seem to load zoom
I've been in therapy with NOCD since the beginning of this year. Looking back over the course of the year, therapy certainly brought me some comfort, but lately, I realized I wasn't quite going about it the right way. For most of my life, I've done talk-therapy sessions, where the goal is to talk out your problems in a rational way. I got good at this; so good, that during my therapy sessions, I felt like I wanted to talk about everything wrong in my life. I remember feeling so overwhelmed earlier this year to speak to my therapist, because our sessions are generally 30 minutes and I was always wondering how I could possibly discuss all my life problems in that short of a time. It took me until last month to really realize what ERP is; ERP is sitting with uncertainty. Not fighting it, avoiding it, or neutralizing it. Looking back on previous sessions, I think I always wanted to talk about my problems because I was too afraid to just sit with their uncertainty. However, I noticed that whenever I dumped my emotions and stress on the therapy table, I'd feel better for a few days, and it would all return again. Over the past 3 years, I've returned to the same talk therapist on and off again. He has helped me tremendously with repairing some of my relationships, but talk therapy doesn't work for OCD. When I'd walk into his office after a few months, he'd always ask, "so why are you here?" I never knew how to answer that question. Because it always felt so urgent for me to just talk to someone about my OCD. But that therapist didn't specialize in OCD, and his philosophy was that by "focusing on improving other areas of my life, my OCD symptoms would shrink." Which is true to a small extent. But my intrusive thoughts and rumination would keep coming back again and again. I felt hopeless and embarrassed to talk about my OCD. It felt like I was making excuses, and that I just wasn't strong enough to follow my talk therapist's advice. Like everyone else knew a secret ingredient to life that I didn't, and because I didn't, I was damned to repeat the same cycles my whole life. Luckily, that has changed lately. I'm realizing that I have been hunting for certainty for so long that I had forgotten that life is uncertain. Now in my ERP sessions, I focus on doing exposures and sitting with and through my discomfort. I'm not perfect at it, but I'm making progress. I'm comparing myself less to the other people in my life, and focusing more on my own growth. It is still so hard; I'm sitting down right now to make a budget for my finances, and I am terrified to do so. But I know that uncertainty is the key, and accepting it is my road to healing. I wish you all good luck on your ERP journey, and remember that uncertainty makes us human.
Why can’t I get this feeling out of my head that I did something wrong when I went out without my boyfriend. i know I would NEVER do something wrong, but since I had a couple drinks what if I did and I just can’t remember it? Ugh this feeling is strong and it went away but now it’s back.
It’s just wild to me what physical “symptoms” anxiety can make you experience, yet you’ll be totally clear from a doctor or a scan. Naturally a couple days after I said I’ve uncovered my fears, I have a bout with health anxiety and has most likely amplified a headache I’ve been experiencing since yesterday lol 🤦🏻♂️
It’s giving me constant intrusive thoughts and it’s making it feel so real…😞😞😞
today it has felt so real. im watching a tv show and it’s trigerring me quite a lot. however, im not going to stop watching it. i just hate it when i feel like an imposter. does anyone else feel like that? that you’re actually just an awful person and you’re alone, everyone else on here is struggling and you’re just sick. i hate this
Today I’m really struggling with OCD (hopefully it’s OCD) making me feel like I have to act on the thoughts. Almost like it’s my destiny and I have no choice and like I’ll be missing something if I don’t. It’s really scaring me and I’m not sure how to do ERP for it. Help!
Does anyone’s themes bounce around? Yesterday I was suffering heavy from contamination intrusive thoughts, today I am having thoughts that “what if I hit someone on my way home and didn’t realize” when reality is nobody was around on the road and I know I’d know if I hit someone. I have had high stress in life recently which I think is triggering this flare up. I just wanna be okay and I know I need to see a therapist but financially as a student that Isn’t in the cards right now. Anybody have advice for how to handle your mind consult dining new things to fixate on? In the last two years relationship and SO themes have been the ones I’ve struggled with, but these constant intrusive thoughts are all over the place and it’s less easy to cope now. Any advice appreciated! Thank You!
Anyone else struggle with questioning your own thoughts? Like I feel like I’m causing my thoughts but I don’t like them. Like what if I’m just keeping myself stuck with these awful thoughts?! I have a new OCD diagnosis and I felt like I made a lot of progress over the last two days based on where I was a few weeks ago. But today has me questioning whether I even have OCD because the thoughts don’t feel the same way they did even a week ago.
How did that go? I'm going to the one tonight
I go to the doctor frequently but maybe it’s not as bad as someone with hypochondria. But when I feel pain in my body that is unfamiliar I get really scared. It doesn’t happen often but when it does I end up getting a bunch of tests and the doctor just tells me nothing is wrong with me or that it was a normal thing depending on what it is. Is this a type of OCD? I had an anxiety attack yesterday because I’ve been feeling pain in my chest and sternum and I think it’s maybe bc of sleeping weird or posture related but I freaked out thinking there was more. The pain has reduced. I wonder if I’m just so aware of my body. I’m tired of going to doctors it’s uncomfortable.
I’ve been doing ERP by going over the things unsettle me the most — allowing the thoughts to come in and sit with the discomfort. However, I’m afraid I’ll become de-sensitivised by the thoughts. Like, when I think it’s okay to think that, it’s okay to have that thoughts, when I accept them and let them come, I feel like I accept that I may be a bad person, that I may like terrible things, especially when it comes to sexual explicit images. Am I on the right path? Is this just something I should feel?
Hello, I come with a question that has me quite anxious. when I talked to my therapist about what Rumination is (I'm Chilean and sometimes the info changes from Spanish to English or they mention things in one language that they don't in the other) and he said that rumination is something unconscious, many times when I ruminate I don't realize it until hours later, but also many times I know that I am ruminating, turning my thoughts over and over again without being able to get out of that obsessive cycle, knowing that I am doing it would make it a conscious act, so I want to know if ruminating only occurs unconsciously or can also be consciously, one can also know and be aware of it but still be ruminating. I wanna know this so badly bc i generally notice my OCD attacking me when i feel the urge to do a compulsion (as rumination is), but if I’m not ruminating there is no compulsion, and that makes me think i don’t have ocd and that mu obssesions must be true :(
I’m starting with my NOCD therapist for the first time today and I’m definitely really nervous and scared. Especially with my real event theme I’m so afraid to talk about that stuff😭 wish me luck
Have they worked for you? I took them for like 3 or 4 days and wasn’t noticing anything different I’m also taking magnesium rn to see if that helps
Has anyone tried ashwagandha ??
Do you have to tell your ocd therapist your every thought? She knows the themes & some specific thoughts but I get new ones everyday and I just don’t know why I feel like I NEED to tell her. Almost like a confessional
Is deep breathing exercises after ERP count as Compulsion ?
its normal??
Hello guys.. i am strugglin a lot lately, like since two months ago, and today my psychiatrist prescribed me a new med. Risperidona. I don't know but i feel kinda guilty because i can't do it "by myself". I have this voices in my head yelling at me "You should be able to do it alone" "You shouldn't take meds" "youre weak". This is so hard
For the past few days I’ve had the most vivid dreams. Like lucid dreaming almost and I wake up exhausted 😩 giving me anxiety and ocd creeping up 😞 has this happened to anyone 😞😞
Tell me why I had a dream I think where I saw my brother and said “my brother is so fine” 💀 bro like wtf and it actually felt like it! I- I’m exhausted it actually felt like I found him attractive 😭 or something when I’m not attracted to my brother at all but I know that he has an attractive face? Like i think my brother is handsome yk but I’m not like- idk how to explain further without sounding weird but I just hated that I had that dream overall because why 💀
i'm struggling atm with "but did this happens if it did it means *blank* how can i get past this i'm really stuck
I can't stop having this thought, if I sleep to much I'm gonna die.
“Dirty water doesn’t stop plants from growing, so don’t let negative words stop your progress.”
I question my partners every move.. he hurt me a lot in the past and now I assume it’s gonna happen again and I question everything. I ask him the same questions over and over for constant reassurance even tho I get the same answers and I know it’s draining him and the constant thoughts of what if he’s doing this or that are so exhausting.. I always wondered what was wrong with me why my thoughts don’t stop and am I obsessive over him and then I learned that rocd is a thing. Idk how to cope
That was my Christmas wish since I’m a senior and I’ve never dated anyone before :) I often wished for that at Rogers while I learned that I had everything else I neeeded ❤️ Thé universe is on our side!! Happy holidays!!
Does trying to focus on the present moment help with rumination? What else can help with rumination
Sometimes I feel like if I don’t keep myself focused that I may do one bc it’s on my mind, subconsciously I guess that may be another part / theme of ocd on top of my already existing ocd
This false memory is killing me. I’m trying so hard for my daughter and husband and for myself. They don’t deserve me. They would be better off alone just the two of them. I messed up so much. What if I really did do it….should I confess?? It feels like I’m living a lie. What do I do ?
I just saw a post that 3 NOCD Therapist talk , I never get anyone and it’s not like it’s always reassurance sometimes it’s genuine talk about ERP
last week i've been thinking a lot about my old crush ....everytime i saw him again i fell in love, but since my relationship with my current partner, i never thought about him anymore...i saw him sometimes but the feelings were gone. but since my OCD i think about him every day...the moments we had and i remember i said that i would wait for him etc..but deep down i know he isn't good for me. my current partner is the best i have ever had. i love him so much, but i don't feel anything anymore and i keep havin thoughts like : maybe my old friend is the one for me and i keep imagining thing with him, but i don't want this....i want to be with my partner, but the thoughts and numb feelings are killing me. i feel like i really should break up
I’m having constant intrusive thoughts and it’s driving me crazy. I will go through these periods where everything I do I get an intrusive thought and it’s just my brain is so loud. Anyone else?! How do you stop the constant intrusive thoughts when you can’t really do an exposure for every single one?!
I’ve been compulsively googling OCD quite a bit—articles, videos, books—in order to seek encouragement/reassurance. But sometimes I just find myself reading and watching about it out of sheer curiosity and fascination. I still wish I didn’t have OCD, but it’s also strangely lead me to gain a knowledge/insight that didn’t have before.
Im really struggling with getting over something bad i did in my past and im scared it means something about me, i know the things that happened arent just silly little worries and im just scared. I really dont want to be a bad person but what if these real events from my childhood are an actual reflection of who i am. Can anyone relate? I feel so alone with this.
All these lesbians having crushes on guys before realizing everything, It scarsa me so much.
This is a really hard week. My bf and I have been together for almost two years and it’s super healthy since I found out I have OCD and started therapy and medication but my brain is trying to convince me that I don’t love him enough because we’re in the comfort stage of love but it’s still so hard to just sit with these thoughts and feelings. It’s like I want to feel obsessed all the time to make sure I love him enough.
I cant shake the ruminating and feel I dont deserve the life I have. I feel sorry for my kids that they have a mother like me.
Sometimes I get caught in a thought pattern, replaying past events. Sometimes it's something embarrassing, but I just realized I do exactly the same thing with other stuff that's not stressful or embarrassing at all (today I was thinking about a conversation from years ago that just confused me). I get stuck in the thought pattern, replaying the situation, and don't even realize I'm doing it. I have both ADHD and OCD. I know it doesn't really matter which is causing these moments, as long as I can break out of them. But I'm curious. First I thought ADHD, it feels similar to losing time hyperfocusing. But it's also similar to an OCD obsession, I just don't think I feel anxious, nor do I feel relief. Anyone else experience this or have thoughts? Notably, it's not very hard to stop, once I notice what is happening
i now have HOCD and its based on being trans and lesbian. I support the lgbtq+ completely but i love being a girl and im attracted to males. Thats why it worries me so much. Is anyone else scared about the same things?
Having a POCD episode at work, anxiety is so high right now, trying my best to stay functional at work, and this Headache I have is not making it any better!!!
I literally ALWAYS second guess my memory. I will clock out at work and on the way home I’ll be like “I didn’t clock out” even when I absolutely did and can sort of remember doing it. Same with locking doors/car. I have gotten to the point where I say out loud that I am doing something so that I can remember saying it out loud and maybe I won’t forget as easily. I also remember social situations so differently, like I’ll think back on a convo and think “I said something atrocious and everyone got offended” even when I know we were just talking about puppies or whatever harmless thing we were discussing. The false memory stuff has been REALLY bothering me…. Any tips? Anyone else? Just looking for community…
Hi, I am very new to the whole OCD thing. I just learned I have it a little over a week ago. The most distressing thing that I’ve been dealing with lately is I don’t believe the things I see, especially when I am driving. Anytime I go through a green light I am not sure it’s actually green, or whenever I am merging I think another car that’s next to me is about to hit me, or if I’m in an intersection and someone is slowly stopping I will think they aren’t going to and brace for a car accident. I don’t know how to make these go away. Does anyone have any tips? I live somewhere that diving is a necessity I don’t have access to public transit.
do you ever talk to friends about your relationship and then start thinking you aren’t being treated right or your partner doesn’t value you ? today I told my friend my bf is a bad texter and always has been and it bothers me but like it’s something about him that isn’t personal and we’ve talked about it before and she said that’s bad idk
so have "what ifs" "but" about a past event how can i over come this the feelings of needing to know in order for me to move on 😣
I was kicking but for about 3-4 days and then just as I was thinking about how good I was doing ….. boom intrusive thoughts, The whole reruns all over again. Self talking, combating, loss of focus etc. etc.does this happen to any of you?
Today when I woke up the first thing that entered my brain was "you're a p*dophile" and it felt so real and true like it was really me and now I can't stop trying to disprove it in my brain. I hate this does this happen to anyone else?
And I am diagnosed with OCD. Somehow I don’t believe it. My thoughts are telling me that I was lying to my therapist and that he know that I’m lying. What if my thoughts are true. I’m so anxious
I didn't know where else to ask, but is there some way to confirm that the group sessions will still go on as normal this week or are they on a holiday schedule?
Again, doing another form and going by an old one to remember what to put for the answers. Turns out I’d missed information on the old form and have done it that way for a few more afterwards. Why cant I just say to myself okay i made a mistake going forward I’ll remember to do it the new way. I automatically get anxiety. I feel panicky. Palms sweaty. Saying to myself to go over and re check the information on other parts of the document. I hate this feeling. I want it to go. It’s becoming unbearable. I have one ok day and then go straight back to a day like that. It’s becoming really hard.
Uncertain if I should proceed, 😔 nail biting skin picking hair pulling, evenness recheck to recheck, can't be clean enough I trigger myself from one trigger to another example from 11 pm after cleaning my usual was gonna shower, something got me in that dark place dissociation & I lost time big time pulled my hair from midnight to after 7 this morning I showered after I gain physical control & iv cut nails if I pick or bite I shave head if I pull hair, nail biting skin picking iv done gosh younger then 7years old, the hair pulling and dissociation, im stoping here I apologize not finishing but typing this up got me triggered completely blank just not sure..........
I have trustmark- Aetna insurance and because Aetna is third party insurance no therapist seems to take it on here😭
So basically you overcome OCD by pretending you've already overcome OCD?? By pretending the thoughts don't bother you and continuing on with your life and stuff no matter what??
Does anyone else get really nervous when telling someone about OCD/the thoughts you’re struggling with? I’m going to talk to a spiritual mentor today about it and am feeling anxious.
hey guys i just brought home a little kitten! he’s adorable but my anxiety is starting to kick in a bit and i’m worried change is very very difficult for me so tis been triggering my ocd a little i know over time it’s better but i feel like everything’s changed drastically considering i just graduated highschool. if someone can help i’d appreciate, i just wanna stop the anxieties because i feel like i won’t have free time anymore to sleep in etc
Does anyone else just feel like they *can’t* get better? Like they’re just stuck forever? I’ve been feeling this way for a while now.
I get ocd, I totally do. I get that the intrusive thoughts are not to be taken seriously or reflect who I am. I think the only thing I struggle with is the feeling that I need to go about things a certain way to make sure I don’t encounter anxiety. I know this would be avoidance, a compulsion, so I don’t want to give in to that. When does your mindset change a habit that was designed to give you false protection? I am at the point where I know this is ocd trying to hold on. I don’t give in to this mindset, it just bugs me.
I tend to fixate on a lot of bodily sensations so when I exercise, my breathing becomes a focus. I have been working with a therapist to do exposures and one of the big ones involves walking in a certain area. I am told not to reassure myself when I notice the discomfort but I’ve always done that with exercise (like a motivation to get through the difficult exercise) so I’m feeling conflicted on how to not reassure to rid myself of the thoughts, but still get through the physically hard parts of the walk. Not sure if this resonates with anyone or makes sense.
I’ve been a whirlwind since going back to school for certifications. Friday I received a grade WAY LOWER than what I was expecting with comments that left me utterly confused. While I know this is still all spinning in my mind, and I know it made me rather disconnected in classes or while working on assignments since, I’m also really proud of working on what I can do in moving forward. I may not control my thoughts or emotions, but I really am working at making responsible actions for how I’m dealing with this. My dog believes in us! I believe in us! (And I’m wearing my “I Refuse 2 Sink ⚓️” necklace to remind me.). Doggo and I also send so much strength and comfort to us all. Proud of all the work we’re doing! 💪🏼💜🐶⚓️
I feel like overthinking has became a part of my life. When I am in school, I sometimes got intrusive thoughts and I really hate it cause I'm embarrassed to do compulsions because they might think I'm crazy or something. And, I sometimes resist to do it but sometimes I also give in to my compulsions. I tried sharing this to my friend but they told me that they are also experiencing the same thing. So, I never shared again to anyone. I don't think that little things bother them also. When I am getting alcohol, I really need to remember if I left the alcohol is open or not, or it has a dot that I must remember because If I fail to remember this my mind would tell me that I never used alcohol and it's just my mind making it up. And many more scenario like this that is always happening, like using soap, I need to mark the soap with my nails first because if i didn't, my mind would tell me that i never used soap and my hands are dirty and I might going to spread it to other things. Haystttt, having this thoughts are really exhausting. I hope I can afford a therapist and also I'm afraid to tell my mom because she might not believe me. I'll sleep now, I feel comfort while sharing this. Goodnight, have a sweet dreams.
If so could you let me know how it’s worked for you? I might be prescribed that by my psychiatrist soon and I’m a little anxious about taking it, but if it helps with the intrusive thoughts then I’m all for it.
Hey guys, so i have been doing great. Recovery was great. Then .. the holidays are getting closer.... Being around my family, or just the thought that i have to go over there is making me super anxious and panicking. Sont get me wrong i love my parents. But they can be a bit much. They stress me out, they unload on me, they hate my husband and always find a way to start an argument with him. I was doing fine .. until i realized how close we are getting to Thursday, and rather than feeling thankful im feeling anxious. Im dreading the day. 😔
I’m so selfish and cold sometimes and yes I have guilt, but that’s my ocd giving me guilt and I am actively trying to get rid of that guilt…. I’m to scared to end it all so I’ll keep being in this world making unforgivable mistakes and hurting people and not wanting consequences and I hate myself so bad
So I know that not feeling attracted is normal well recovery but I feel also somewhat attracted I think i don't know it's weird I use to like questions if I was gay or not but now I'm just like it doesn't matter maybe I am maybe not and I notice that I do get attracted to like the gender I prefer but like it's not what it use to be ik I'm still recovering but is that common like feeling attracted but then question if u are 😂and yeah I do get a bit anxious about that but not as much as I use to I just say maybe maybe not but I can still notice my brain wants to like figure it out sometimes 😂
I take Sertraline 200mg and find that even if I drink a small amount, I may black or ‘grey’ out. Anyone experience this?
I feel so numb, I feel like I don’t have intrusive thoughts anymore and everything ocd was telling me I am is correct, I don’t panic cuz I’m so used to it but deep down I feel rlly scared I just can’t let it pass, it’s kind of like not being able to cry if that makes sense? Am I the only one???
Has anyone had a bad experience with this medicine or dose? I’ve had horrible anxiety & like a really weird feeling in my head since I’ve upped it on Friday. It doesn’t help that I struggle with mental illness ocd lol
I posted on a forum and I was scared and asking a question and someone got really annoyed at me. Said I need to stop asking because it’s annoying them. I need to just accept who I am etc. I get where they’re coming from but it still hit me a bit. I’m not trying to be annoying and I’m struggling a lot at the moment. And then saying to ‘accept who you actually are’ triggered me. Maybe I’m just being stupid.
Does anyone have any good ways on stopping ruminating on their thoughts? I feel like I'm able to do it sometimes, but other times i literally get so anxious I feel sick and can't focus on anything else no matter how hard I try :(
I need urgent help with OCD symptoms, however, I dont have any money to afford a therapist. Where could I get help online? I live outside of the US
Does it ever go away?
And I’m scared they gonna say I don’t have ocd. I’m so so scared. Can someone help me? And who has experienced this too?
Have been having chest pain all day and now im scared to go to sleep
Do you guyz get a bad intrusive thought and then worry if you did it at the same moment or will do it which brings even more anxiety I have been trying not to do any type of compulsion and its working but intrusive thoughts always give me this feeling of guilt i cant seem to get rid of u can all do it ! I beleive in everyone dont give ocd the power to control your life
I started citalopram 5 months ago. I was told that it would take five months to adjust but tbh I’ve been climbing the walls almost for this entire time with various mental ups and downs. Then all of a sudden these past couple of days it is like a switch has been flicked and I feel like a normal person enjoying life. I hope this lasts and I hope that it is because I have adjusted properly to my meds now. It just goes to show that sometimes you just have to hang in there and that there is always hope. Enjoy your days folks.
Trying to fall asleep right now and I just tapered off my anxiety sleep meds so I wake up frequently. Having intrusive thoughts right now and scared to do anything bc I’m afraid that im going to trigger compulsions.
I keep finding myself almost automatically checking or trying to disprove my intrusive thoughts before I even get chance to agree or ignore them. Does anyone have an advice on this?