sighhh. brain is telling me that im becoming transphobic :/
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please help. my ocd theme is now me facing consequences for previous sexual checking compulsions. this is more than ocd. i don’t know what to do.
I’m winning against my intrusive thoughts for the first time in a while and I love it!!! Keep going you guys, we’ll all be winning soon!!!💕💕💕
you ever have an intrusive thought that seems so subtle
*talk of schizophrenia Watched an interview with people with schizophrenia and it seemed so similar to OCD just outloud. They were like "I can't help it that I say these things, they are actually the opposite of what I want to say" and I identified with that a lot except for I don't want to think these things, they are the exact opposite. Just thought it was an interesting observation!
I had a little bit of an “aha moment” or what I call a “brain click” in session today in regards to a thought I have been stuck on for weeks! And related to how I think in general and my trauma history. It was very exciting to feel myself becoming more flexible with my thinking and with myself. I hope you all stay committed to treatment so you can experience these moments too. Recovery is right around the corner.
Its a blessing and a curse, but I think those of us with OCD are some of the most brilliant and creative people on the planet. You have to be with brains that work as uniquely as ours do!
I haven’t been diagnosed with OCD because I haven’t been able to see a therapist, but I’m almost certain I have it. I keep having intrusive thoughts and frequently feel guilty about a specific mistake a made in the past. I think that’s rumination? I’ve also noticed that I always seek reassurance whenever I feel guilty for that mistake. I know that I do it too much and shouldn’t stress out other people by always asking. I had a bad night’s sleep thinking about a mistake I made a few years ago and how I should be punished for it, so I think it may be OCD that’s making me feel excessively guilty. If I don’t seek reassurance, I tend to feel horrible. I know that I shouldn’t look for reassurance, but sitting with the feeling of intense guilt is so hard. I just wanted to share what I’ve been going through because no one close to me has OCD and I don’t think they fully understand what I’m going through. This app makes me feel like I’m not alone in this and I’m really glad this app exists.
If no one else tells you today, I just wanted to say I'm really proud of you for trying
A part of my life that OCD ruined for me is my social skills. The intrusive thoughts affected the way i talked, acted and interacted with others i can’t even look at people for more than 2 seconds i get very anxious if i had to keep eye contact more than that im afraid they’ll know what i think about them or notice the images that pop up. I know it’s impossible for that to happen but i just can’t act normal or have a simple conversation anymore.
I don’t think what im about to say is OCD related but I’ve been identifying my worth by how much people love me like my self worth is attached to how much people love me is this right or wrong i feel like a person has to have people who love them if there’s no one it probably means there’s something wrong with them is it wrong to think that way idk. The last few months have been hard i just started to get very socially awkward and im too depressed to even have the energy to talk to my family, friends etc... Ps, im so sorry if my english isn’t right it’s not my first language🙏🏻.
Morning everyone! Question of the day: What’s your favorite beverage? (Coffee, tea, soda, etc) Mine is Dr. Pepper.
I relapsed on one of my major compulsions last night. I just woke up and oh man do I feel guilt and regret. I feel the need to talk to my parents and confess how everything happened. Is this a compulsion? Or is this me genuinely confessing?
Does anyone have a thought about a real event thing and sometimes be able to justify the situation and be like "whatever" and then sometimes it totally freaks you out and you feel like your life is over?? In my case it was such a small incident but my brain says "nope life is over for you" one minute and "eh it's no big deal" the next 🙁 i really want to ask a family member but I know I would be trying to relieve anxiety but I reallllllly want to relieve the anxiety. It doesn't help that I have things for college to go today and an interview tonight for an internship yet all I can think about is this small little real event
Heard some interesting things to try yesterday. 1. Put your obsessive thought into words. Now sing it to yourself to the tune of happy birthday 😂 2. Pick one word to sum up your obsession. Say the word as many times as you can for 30 seconds. 3. Write your thought down in a notebook. Look at it as if someone else wrote it, as an outside perspective. Then, let another page fall over it and write the next thought. Do this over and over for about 10 minutes.
Is there ocd or anxiety which when you say or think one thing your mind tells you the opposite? Sometimes I feel like I pick on my wife and kids,who are the 3 loves of my life, i know what I really feel, but thoughts try to tell me otherwise? Someone please tell me if this is normal ocd or anxiety?
I feel so alone today. I usually keep my feelings bottled up and cope with my ocd alone and this weekend was bad and I decided to share my feelings with my mom and husband for the first time in 4 months. They both said it was enough, they are tired of dealing with it, and I’m making them unhappy. I don’t want to burden them anymore and it is really make them resent them and making my ocd and anxiety so much worse. I just need words of encouragement, I feel like no one cares and I am so alone and now I have to go to work all week and act like everything is fine.
Does anyone else experience an uneasy chest feeling in relation to transgender ocd? I never used to have a problem with my breasts but now I feel like I am hyperaware of them, a feeling which has gotten worse and worse. I worry that I am actually experiencing gender dysphoria and it seems like so long since I have felt normal. The idea of gender dysphoria is terrifying to me, because I have trans roommates who have described how horrible it feels to feel they were essentially born into the wrong body. I am very scared that I have or will develop this. It feels like I don’t know who I am anymore, what is real and what is not. I just want to be comfortable as I am! Can anyone else relate to this?
It’s Monday and the beginning of a new week! Hope everyone has a good day, starts off and stays strong!
Is it possible for a single specific thought related to your theme to bother you for a long time
I'm convinced I'm just in denial and scared of being trans. Convinced. Convinced I'm afraid of discrimination and rejection and also deeply ashamed. These feelings are too real to be fake. I also comb through my past and so many things feel like proof. It feels like I just need to accept it.
Do you ever tell yourself, “What if I convince myself everything is fine and then turns out to be not fine?” It’s like a compulsion about a compulsion. Lol.
i’ve been exhausted all the time after zoloft dose increase. not even enough energy to do compulsions
It’s hard for me to tell the difference between thoughts and actions… omg
Sitting with the anxiety rn I feel terrible and guilty
I thought this would be a good place to ask this question but I'm very anxious to call a therapist on this app I know it s my anxiety I'm just worried about the awkwardness and if I make a fool of myself. I know I have OCD iv been diagnosed over 15 years ago and have had treatments in person but I'm worried a video call to a therapist may make me anxious. Has anyone felt this and should I just go ahead and make an appointment (im asking for reassurance i know sorry) or maybe do a chat first?This sounds so silly because this is what it's literally for but I'm hesitant to actually do it.
i’m so close to doing research because i got freaked out that i thought i found a kid attractive i mean it felt like i did and the kid in question was from a graphic novel named brave. I used to read those books all the time. I feel so weird. I’m trying to distract myself so I don’t do research.
does always having to do everything with my right hand for it to be right is a kind of ocd??? i don't do this now anymore but i did as a kid because God leads my right hand and the devil does my left?? i think i had subclinical ocd as a kid and now it just exacerbated after the death of my uncle because i was sensitive?
so there's one of my ex best friends whom my mind always focuses on because it tells me i used to have a crush on her. but then it feels like i have accepted this and it doesn't make me panic anymore. like i just acknowledge it and move on??? we always say we have to accept the thoughts and move on but it feels like i have accepted it as a truth or a fact and i don't panic about it being "true". like why? i want my panic back honestly at least i knew i didn't want it. like now it feels like i am perfectly fine with the "fact" that i had a crush on her
I got a question for women w SO-OCD . . Do your thoughts and emotions get too intense and real after y’all’s period? I have noticed it on mine, though I still do ruminate and anxious while I’m on my period but when it ends- the OCD is so much heavier.
Guys, my anxiety is peaking tonight, and was last night too, probably from pms since my period is due to start soon, any tips.
Has anyone tried out the support groups on here? I want to sign up for one but I’m also afraid too.
I have a mental illness and intrusive thoughts is what this illness causes. But they are not me they are not who I am its the ocd. And the Lord gives me strength and I move on.
I'm crying rn, lately I've been feeling like I'm gonna "come out" but I don't want that, I know im straight but my thoughts tell me otherwise or that I don't want to be straight or that I want the thoughts and it's making me panic a lot. I just want to be straight. This feels too real now, it feels like im in denial.
my intrusive thoughts feel so real i feel like this is me and not just my thoughts ughh
Wednesday night into Thursday morning, I didn’t sleep but chose to pick at a dog harness for 4 hours before teaching my last day of summer classes. Today I thought it was Saturday because I lost almost all of yesterday to being ill, probably from lack of sleep prior. 1. At least I didn’t pick at my body, doing harm. 2. Even if after being stuck for hours, I stopped myself!!! 3. There’s fight in me still! Just a reminder that two steps forward, once step back still has you dancing in the right direction. It’s so nice to feel like I’m not dancing alone. Love and strength to all of us in this OCD waltz. 💜💪🏼💃🏼🕺🏻
I saw something really triggering on here, could use some support :/
I don’t know what to do. I’m so conflicted!!!
Why is it that so many times something that gives me joy, also ends up becoming an OCD trigger? Does this happen to anyone else?
Just a nightly reminder that you are not your OCD. It’s a demon living inside of you, trying to convince you that you’re the opposite of who you really are. It’s a test to see if you can endure some of the darkest themes of the human mind. It wants you to find fear where there is none to be found. And it’s not you.
Does anyone ever have moments where your brain convinces you that you've done something that you haven't? (Example: it makes you think you touched something dirty even though you know for SURE that you didn't. But you have to go wash your hands anyway just in case) But then it also convinces me that I did not do something that I definitely did do. Then I have to recheck what I did a bunch of times.
I'm incredibly anxious right now. I can't tell if im feeling guilty or if my perfectionism and need to constantly "tell on myself" is just making me feel guilty. How can I tell? I'm worried that if I was doing something bad, if I will not be of any value anymore and I'm scared that nobody will trust me. I'm also anxious because I probably over-explained myself and sought reassurance a few times that it might wrongly make me seem guilty... that is unless I'm guilty? I'm so confused and feeling helpless.
I think it's ok not sharing details about your ocd or even having ocd not because you're ashamed of it but not everyone is able to understand what you're going through however they are close to you, talk to people who really understand and can help
My period makes my OCD symptoms so much worse.
There’s so much that I’m scared to do because of my ocd. That’s why I want to recover as soon as possible
Does anyone have bad self worth issues because of OCD? Lose feelings of worth? I can't describe how I feel right now. It's like a regretful numbness. I can't change the past, but compulsions always make the past present.
can OCD make an intrusive thought feel like an urge ? like you know its something you’ve never wanted to act on , but the intrusive thoughts keep insisting , then at the end you’re confused ? regardless , its all so uncomfortable
how do avoid over explaining yourself?
Can someone tell me how ERP would be effective for pocd?
I opened instagram and attraction feels so real. I did find women pretty before this, everybody does, but not all. Nothing like everyone is attractive. Why is this happening now? I was always into men. And HOCD got triggered a month after I entered into a relationship. What is this... this feels so real.
Can it be transOCD if after it started you developed feelings of dysphoria? Growing up I never had any gender identity questions but one day "how do I know I'm a woman" popped into my head and by the end of the day I had dysphoria. I'm terrified it's not actually OCD and I'm just scared. But there have been moments where I've hated my body, hated being seen as a girl, ever since this started. Most people say TOCD involves the dislike of being thought of as the opposite gender, and it's true that I now get anxious whenever I wear anything too masculine. But i also have had those moments. Genuinely. I don't know what to do.
Man, struggling right now. Started ERP about 10 days ago and noticed positive changes right away. Then suddenly I got scared thinking "Okay this has been a great exercise but what if my fears are actually really true??" I guess that's called a backdoor spike? Not really sure. I'm also noticing that doing treatment is really dismantling the one coping mechanism I have had most of my life - compulsions. Even though they are destructive, they were my coping mechanism. And now without them I'm kind of flailing. And it's just a major change in my entire life strategy - I sort of feel like I need to re-learn how to just live in the world. And so I just feel kind of frightened and confused in my day-to-day life. It's a lot like when I got into 12 step and quit drinking. I stopped destroying myself with alcohol but it really required me to look at life from a completely different perspective. Stopping drinking was kind of the easy part. But relearning how to live was really the deep work that created lasting change. Anyone relate to any of this?
How do you see old threads that you posted/commented on? People left some really valuable information on my posts and now I can't access them.
Hi guys. What do you guys do to control ocd? Ps: sorry for my bad english I'm from Brazil
Please someone I need guidance, I don’t think I’m sexually attracted to my boyfriend. I want to be but I don’t think it’s there but I don’t want to leave him someone please? I don’t know what to do this is what started my sexuality obsession and I genuinely believed its rooted in some truth. I’m crying so hard I need help.
sometimes i feel like i've lost touch with my life entirely. it's like everything i've expierenced so far (my childhood, all friendships and just relationships in general) was fake. then i even feel a split as if i were two people: there's one person that lives on a daily basis and another one that's frustrated with the first one. sigh it's very strange and i don't know how to explain it. i was wondering if that feeling of artificiality might be a form of intruisive thoughts? does anyone else here experience it too?
I wanted to recover but I started thinking what if me recovering means I will stop caring and become a careless crazy person...
I feel so gross about anything feminine right now. I just want to be a lesbian but I no longer feel attracted to women and the idea of being a woman or wearing anything girly makes me feel sick. I'm convinced I'm trans and just scared. I hate this. I want to be me again.
I‘ve been really struggling with gender identity/transgender ocd and it’s really messing with me. It really feels like I can’t stop analyzing details from my past. My biggest fear is that this rumination will cause me to feel distress about things I wasn’t distressed about before (I.e. my body). Finding the motivation to do ERP exercises has been hard. Does anyone else struggle with something like this? Any tips/ideas for exposures? I want to get over this so badly!
These days I dread literally everything. I hate having to get up in the morning and face my family. I hate it when I have to go out and interact with people. I can't bring myself to do things that I want, I can't bring myself to do anything. I waste time, avoid things, procrastinate. I have goals and ambitions, I want to make something of my life but I physically feel stuck. I just can't move, I can't do it. I hate myself for it. And time just keeps going, it doesn't wait for anyone. I just want to disappear most if the time. I don't know what's wrong with me.
Hey, does anyone experience rumination to the point where you aren’t even experiencing the moment? I need help.
So I was driving under a lot of stress. Long story short I saw the light was green so I pushed forward until another guy clearly had no right to make a right turn while I was early already going straight. Now my OCD is kicking in saying "what if the light was never green?" "what if you were in the wrong." this made me even more furious so I went back to see and it didn't make things better. I'm either going completely mad or I was on the right but my brain is telling me that I wasn't. I could use a little help here...
Can they diagnose you on this app? And what kind of questions do they ask? I’m scared they’ll just say I’m a ped0 instead of diagnosing me with ocd. Also do they just diagnose you with ocd or your specific theme?
Anyone else get their dreams and memories mixed up or have a hard time telling? It always happens with disturbing dreams but I feel like I'm losing my mind because I can't tell what is real or not.
have no idea what’s going on right now but my head is feeling so out of whack. i’m feeling so sick and scared
Does anyone have moments where they don’t feel the need to do compulsions and you just sit in the guilt?
Y’all my parents have figured out that something is wrong with me😭😭😭😭
Hi everyone, Is worrying constantly about whether or not you're in the right career a symptom of OCD? I understand that even people without the disorder can look to change paths but I have been consumed for years at this stage with trying to find an alternative despite being very good at my current job, a job where I feel valued, is highly rewarding and complements my personality. I'm absolutely exhausted with the vicious cycle of trying to find a perfect solution to my negative thoughts. I don't know know whether or not it's the disorder or if my desire to change direction has arisen naturally. Not being able to make that clear distinction makes me feel even more powerless. I'm becoming depressed from this crippling feeling of urgency, repeatedly looking for a possible alternative to my current career and feeling reassured only to have my anxiety resurface with a vengeance and cause me to keep looking. My parents don't understand why I'd want to change from a job that they know I do so well. I've even spent quite a lot of money on part time courses upskilling as a result of my desperate pursuit. Has anyone ever experienced anything like this?
Hi guys! For those of you taking medications, did you find that they helped you do ERP therapy? I have been on different medications for about 3 years now and none of them worked for me except for one that gave me horrible side effects. I just feel so defeated because I cannot resist compulsions at all which cause me severe depression. I'm basically stuck at home most of the day.
I just realized something today when I went out I forgot about my depersonalization/derealization!
Any other Christians or people with conservative parents not teach them a whole lot about s*xual things and do you feel like that contributed to your intrusive thoughts at all?
Does anyone have any tips for getting rid of nausea? I haven’t been able to eat for like 3 days because I just find all food disgusting and I’m pretty sure it’s because of the OCD.
Are NOCD therapists supposed to respond to us once a day? Mine hasn't responded at all.
Can anyone who attended the 6pm-7pm Depression and OCD group please send me the list that the coordinator made?
I'm really excited because I just got a remote/work at home job and it starts tomorrow. I will face way less triggers but am also worried I'll become a recluse and isolated. Any advice from people who work from home or stay home full time?
I just got so triggered and I reeeeeally want to do a compulsion right now. Advice appreciated!
Staying home for long periods of time really makes me vulnerable to triggers. It makes all these thoughts come to my head about how much of a loser other people must think I am or feeling like I’m in no way control of what I do for some reason. It makes me feel depressed and anxious/ocd at the same time. It’s like I’m frozen at home with nothing to do. I remember my options and I don’t even want to do them. Then I feel LAZY. Like why?? You’d think sitting at home wouldn’t be this hard.
I'm struggling so bad right now. I really don't know if I have salvation because when I made my prayer I'm scared I didn't fully trust in Christ as Savior and I'm scared that when I made my prayer I messed up because I might've thought doing a salvation prayer and believing in these certain things mean you're saved but I remember I believed Christ died so all of my sins are forgiven but I'm scared that I didn't fully trust in Him, but I remember believing my sins were forgiven but I feel like I put my faith in my salvation prayer and not God. I hate my life so much, why do I fail in everything. I can't even pray right. Any help for this? No reassurance though. <3