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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
Can I talk to someone about my hocd?? Please!!! I'm very anxious
Even though I have a diagnosis why do I keep feeling like I’m just faking it? It’s such a horrible feeling. Does anyone else feel this way?
Does anyone attention seek for validation even in a happy relationship . Plsz look at my last post too cuz I’m freaking out
I've noticed my OCD gets worse right around now. It always ends up spiking.
Does anyone else feel like that don’t really like themselves because of how OCD takes over your life and makes it hard to have relationships? I have lost a-lot of people because of the control it has over me. I honestly don’t know how to feel about the OCD like I don’t want to blame things on it but at the same time i didn’t know what it was and how i couldn’t control the thoughts. Does anyone else get really confused what to do next with relationships and in life in general because of OCD?
I have to share a victory moment that happened the other day. My grandpa passed away and I had to tell my mom. She was crying and I hugged her! I have PTSD and don't like to be touched. I haven't hugged anyone in two years!
Same annoying thoughts for months torturing me I don’t want them in my brain idk what to do anymore I can’t take it
“You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have”- Bob Marley
Are you guys also really irritable and judgemental too, i find it that almost anything can annoy me or anger me, is this an ocd symptom?
goodnight 🍊 i’m so excited to sleep i’m so tired (picture below is the sun grunt dude)
On top of all these intrusive thoughts and feeling shitty I feel so isolated and crazy in my house even being around my family I wanna bond with them I don’t wanna feel sad I get out the house it doesn’t help I feel like nothing matters anymore life feels so weird and strange and sad and I’m sad death is a thing and everyone I love will die and my dog and it make sme sad to think of that everyday and I’m sitting here playing a game with my brother crying and I can’t stop idk what’s wrong with me life is depressing when u realize this all
i ended up having a great day today after around 1. i thought it was going to be another horrible one, but i pulled through and got a grip on the intrusive thoughts. i felt more in control than ever and it felt great. it’s hard though, i feel like the intrusive thoughts are stronger when i get ready for bed and try to sleep. it usually makes it a lot harder to have a good night. here’s hoping i can keep up the same mindset!
Like I wouldn’t wanna kms cuz I wouldn’t wanna hurt my family but I feel crazy everyday I wanna feel normal I can’t stop crying
I just feel like a horrible person and it’s ruining everything for me I just wanna spend time with my family without feeling this way :(
Is it normal to have thoughts of doing something to betray someone I’m close to.. I don’t wanna thought I’m crying non stop about it but I can’t stop thinking of it and doing it , why am I so fucked up like I’m sure others don’t have these thoughts
I still don’t trust myself anymore because of these disgusting thoughts I’m having that I don’t want. I just want this to end
Anyone else have issues where they ruminate so much they wonder if the thought is even a wrong act and how you know its wrong? Just me?
Random adult men on the internet saying things about me really makes me spiral for no reason.
The type of OCD I associate with the most is very confusing. I always feel a strong urge to check off mental checklist all throughout the day about EVERYTHING. What type of OCD is this?
I've been working at inpatient ed treatment for months to work with ocd and im finally seeing some progress :) it's been a good day
Hi, but if a new OCD anyone struggle with like an OCD about friendship, I keep questioning wether my friends care or I care about my friends. Part of my harm OCD was wether or not I’d be sad when something bad happens and I keep imaging if my friends died would i be sad and it feels like I won’t and wouldn’t care. Yeh it’s sorta like I dunno what is right to feel or how much sadness I gave to feel and shiz like that. Is this a sort of OCD or am I heartless and have some other issue. Does anyone have tips on how to deal with this cause I just feel emotionally unconnected from the world and unconnected from everything? Also tips on how to deal with this?
Does false memory ever get better? Even when I don’t react to my mind telling me it happened it still lingers, it’s always weighing me down
Sending good vibes and sleepy puppies to anyone who needs them today
Help. I'm in panic attack because I'm stuck on how I know something is wrong. Why is this a thing for me now
I’ve had this app for just a week and I already am confident it’s going to change my life.
I'm not feeling like I was earlier but now imagining killing my grandma or stabbing her makes me feel relief but I'm neglecting those thoughts because they make me feel like a creepy person. Is this about ocd? Help
Am I bi if I feel excited for someone to see my insta story and answer my message. I’ve been having obsessive thoughts about the person and I don’t know if it’s HOCD or an actual crush. Sometimes it feels like I have a crush sometimes it feels like I just want to be friends and talk to them.
i feel so bad for my therapist when i have a zoom meeting with her on Thursday 😭💀💀 imma tell her everything that has been happening in my mind for the past 2 weeks....also.....
Hiya, happy Tuesday night :). How was everyone's day? I just made a really good fig butter/brief baguette 😋 Tonight's screenshot is very relatable lol--i quite literally related to everything on here. A lot of us (myself included) find comfort in our negative coping skills because it is what we are used to doing, and what we have been doing to survive for however long. But we must ask ourselves, are we HAPPY doing these things? Are we happy with being on edge, feeling empty and sad, and being disconnected from the world because we are so caught up in our thoughts? Recovery is hard, but possible. I am working on things everyday--and it is scary, overwhelming, and a pattern of trial and error at all times. We must treat OCD as an ongoing illness and keep practicing our ERP to become the best versions of ourselves. Take care of yourselves 💛
I’m practicing my acting skills by reenacting scenes from the movie inception. I would replace the subplot of a character and his dad with myself and a subplot of involving a girl I was attracted to... I’m repeating the lines but changing it to fit my narrative and I’m getting this feeling in my chest... my HOCD (undiagnosed) is trying to convince me that I’m actually in denial and that I’m attracted to the male actors...
I am soo tired of these thoughts, literally tear uo when i think about it. Does everyone else fear their parent d*ing ? what do i do ehen i get these thoughts
currently crying a lot because what if i’m just lying to myself this really hurts i can’t even breath
Bouncing between guilt, anxiety, numbness and sadness. I even feel weird shame and guilt as I’m trying to sleep. I just can’t seem to shake anything. I feel guilty for my feelings like everyone just looks at me now and knows that I must be a horrible person now. I’m terrified of everything now. This is gonna be a doozy to get over man, I can’t wait to run these feelings by my therapist. I am have some quite complex problems.
hey. have any of you guys had ocd relapses? what was that like? ive been on a pretty good roll in terms of ocd, but i feel a new theme starting to creep (P***). ironic because i dislike children
Tw might be triggering to those with contamination ocd I think the only positive thing about pocd is that I’m so obsessed over the fact that I could be a p that I’m not worrying about getting sick anymore (I have emetophobia) like I today I was eating blueberries and i saw a literal tiny worm on one of them and then later I drank water out of a cup and didn’t realize the cup was from like 2 weeks ago so the water was old. The old me would have been so anxious but it’s like now I don’t care because I have more concerning things to worry/obsess about😭😭😭
Just felt so attacked after spending a long time in the bathroom due to my contamination ocd. I took a long time but I'd assumed the rest of the family had all been to the toilet and gone to bed. I was almost done when 3 others came and started ranting about wanting to use the toilet which in turn caused me lots of anxiety and led to further ruminating. I just thought that I'm so considerate about others as I barely eat and drink to avoiding going toilet so others dont have to wait, but when they want to go they lack any sort of compassion for me and the excruciating mental pain I'm in. I really felt like crying but dont feel comfortable doing so in front of my family so I had to suck it up and take it. Any advice on how to recover when you have zero support?
First time really dealing with the passing of my mother, always knew I had mental disorders I never knew they were so bad. It was always hard to go in public but i never knew the human brain could be so screwed up. There’s answers for these things and being sick is real I prayed for a app and doctors that could help me deal with these boarders line problems and I’m now starting a new journey of recovery so thank everyone in the process helping me deal with my things this is by far the best experience I’ve ever felt.
Am i the only one that gets afraid to go on planes because of having intrusive thoughts ? i get them really really bad on the plane , from being really close to others caused by my harm ocd
Has OCD affected anyone’s spending? Im often an impulsive shopper (I think I’m a bit better now than before). I own a lot of stuff that I don’t use and getting rid of it is hard (not to the point of hoarding disorder, but I feel like my mental health has something to do with my consumption). I want to be more wise with my spending so I can save money, be more organized and help the environment. Can anyone relate??? Do you have any tips???
Im slightly overcoming my guilt of intrusive thoughts and ERP ☺️☺️☺️
How do you open up to your therapist about very taboo OCD themes. I currently struggle with "Race OCD", always worrying if I'm coming across as racist to BIPOC. Racism is something that I find horrendous and awful. I consider myself to be an ally to BIPOC & to work and fight racism. So the fact that I'm worrying over interactions with people is complete opposite to my values. I act awkward around people, and I'm sure my anxiety is coming off as strange to people. I just don't know how to open up to my therapist about this without sounding like a piece of s***.
Ugh last few days were sorta trashy in terms of OCD stuff, but since classes started again, It's been better than it was a week ago. Still kinda down a bit but I will be fine ig.
Has anyone ever gotten really good at ERP and then you are able to remember what it was like to have a clear mind so then you keep going and feel free of ocd? That happened to me and now I’m back in the ocd cycle and can’t get myself to feel that way again. It is so hard. I have been free of ocd before and I can do it again.
Im at a crossroads and theres a couple things I really need to ask and get advice and opinions on from anyone. 1- Should I try do self help and try my best to tackle ocd( If I even have it). But I feel like its too late to do that, My brains a hot mess, even towards things outside of ocd.(self esteem, social anxiety etc). My life has crippled since this started. 2- My family is very conventional and old fashioned, If I did open up to them they would get scared especially my mom. She would probably tell me to do stop being on my phone too much, wake up early, exercise and all the generic things that one is supposed to do to feel healthy and I understand where she is coming from. But I feel like Im not mentally stable. Am I just self victmizing myself by thinking this? I could try to do all this but the anxiety and thoughts are unbearable, I struggle to get out of the bed almost every day and see su*cide as the only option to be free but again I could try and give it a shot see what happens. Ive had ocd(I think) for 1.5 years 3- Even If I decided to do therapy, I think language barrier will be my biggest issue. Im not a native english speaker but I can speak well enough to get by and live in the Us and I just found a ocd center near me too. But when It comes to explaining, describing and articulating thoughts and feelings, I fall short, I run out of words. Im afraid I wont be able to connect to the therapist at all and itd all be just a waste and awkward. I really dont think I can become normal again without any outside help. I really dont know what to do then on top of all this, I dont even know If I actually have ocd or not. I dont think I do but Im not sure. I had most symptoms of It at first (I think)but idk anymore. I would really appreciate any opinions.
I’m really freaking out rn because I went to some doctor and told them that I think I have ocd but I’m really worried that they just think I’m in denial or that I’m just making it up because I said that I google things as a compulsion. I’m scared I didn’t talk about my OCD in detail enough because she asked some questions about hand washing and I don’t have contamination ocd. I also only mentioned my so ocd and not even my incest ocd so now I think she will think I’m in denial. I really thought I was going to get diagnosed or something and my parents wouldn’t make fun of me for saying that I might have ocd and dismissing it as “intrusive thoughts” which is the only thing I told them about. EVEN THOUGH MY MOM LITERALLY SAW ME CRYING IN MY ROOM.
BRO SOMEONE READ THIS! 😭 Today was the worst. I’m already insecure about my breast size and WHAT MY FRIEND DID I SWEAR TO GOD- after reading this you’ll be mad asf too. While I was writing my paper 📝 I felt someone touch my breast edge and I was shocked. And I was like “wtf-“ and my friend who’s also a female said “my rib cage hurts and wanted to see if it yours hurt” She has boobs and wearing a bra and I wasn’t cause mines aren’t that big so I felt even more insecure that she felt I wasn’t wearing anything. So I try to convince her saying “Oh I’m a late boomer so I’m not having problems like y’all having” and she said kinda out loud but not to much. “Your growing your boobs?” It wasn’t too loud but enough for the girls in front of us and maybe few boys behind heard it. It wasn’t the whole class I hope. What if the teacher heard it. I’ve been comparing myself to other girls since school started. What a great start to the school year right? 🤌😌 I just love it 😊 can’t wait for some more trauma
Does anyone else struggle with thinking you’re attracted to someone or actually like like someone because you like them as a person?
What is a good way to distract yourself from an intrusive thought that won’t stop popping up and the doubts that come with it? I’ve tried watching a show but it’s not a good enough of a distraction
any advice on how to resist self reassurance? it’s easier to refrain from seeking reassurance from others but it’s nearly always my immediate reaction to reassure myself x
i feel comfortable with the idea of being with a girl and it doesn't even scare me
How do you guys deal with feeling as though a thought may be true?
ok so i was washing the dishes all calm and then this girl walks by my house and I remember a memory of me looking at her insta tagged posts and one was of her grandpa that died and in my mind I was like “what if I said something mean” like huh???im 100% sure I never said anything mean or disrespectful but my mind loves to make me believe that I’m a bad person....I hate ocd and it’s intrusive thoughts......I swear my mind won’t leave me alone.....
How do I correctly do exposures for my pure O? Since my compulsions are mental, it’s difficult to know how to not engage in them.
Don't have to listen. I'm documenting my second day of school as less shame is off my shoulders. Today has been a good day for clarity in that i have a mental illness. I'm enjoying it while it lasts. Any thoughts or doubts I have I've been chosing not to solve because once I'm recovered I'll know. And "solving" only makes things worse. Hope y'all been doing well. School has really kicked some life back into me. If it weren't for the pandemic I'd probably be much better. You don't realize how much you miss being human until it's taken away from you. Socializing is my happy thing.
i feel… moderately peaceful right now. but i can feel the anxiousness and i still get atrocious intrusive thoughts. with this mindset it’s a little easier to ignore the intrusive thoughts and realize that’s all they are, but i can feel another attack creeping up on me. it just feels inevitable. sometimes i get scared because my mind tells me ‘you’re attracted to little girls.’ even when i’m in this state of half assed calm. does that mean it’s true??? i definitely get uncomfortable but sometimes it doesn’t even phase me. i’m too tired. if only this could end.
Is anyone else’s anxiety just HORRIFIC today? It feels like all of my worries have just come clattering down against my head. I have this awful feeling in my chest. AH.
Does anyone in here get stabbing pains headaches ? I’m here scared I have a brain tumor and can’t stop obsessing over it
I've failed at #TastyTuesday this week because I didn't cook a darn thing, but here's a lovely picture of some sheng jian bao (pan-fried pork buns) that my husband made. He's a great cook and this is one of my favorite things that he makes.
Help I keep seeing images when I close my eyes of people and animals Iv tried to ignore them but they won’t go away they as soon as o close my eyes I can’t sleep
Ok so this is going to be lengthy and probably have many mistakes so I apologize in advance. I used to live somewhere completely different to where I live now. I lived back in my hometown until I was 10. That was a living nightmare for me. I was bullied lots and had lots of very traumatizing things happen to me that are a VERY big part to my ocd today. When I was very young like 7 or 8 I was at a sleepover with another girl and she was pressuring me into doing things that I was very uncomfortable doing. She was pressuring me to take some of my clothes off. At the time I was very young and didn’t know right from wrong and didn’t know what to do so because she was being very peer pressure to me I did so because I was scared. I have never been able to come to peace with myself after this even though I have been told that I did NOTHING wrong and that I was very young and stuff. But then I moved somewhere completely different, and lost contact with everyone because I knew that it was too much for me to handle. Today someone from there reached out me ( a good person) and wanted to talk and catch up. I did talk to her for a little bit (it’s not the same person that pressured me) and I texted her after telling her how I needed to lose contact with here because so many of my intrusive thoughts came from living there, so being in contact with people was mentally not ok with me. She was completely understanding and all’s good. But I’m wondering. What happened with that girl. Should I fee guilt about? Or is this my ocd. I just need some other opinions. Please help me out!
Hey! Just wanted to remind everyone that it does get better and you WILL see mental clarity again🤍 hang in there
i went out today and it was so difficult, i was trapped in my head and focused on that empty hole in my chest. i also made a post that i probably shouldnt have, i just hated that i started up with bad habits again.
REAL EVENT OCD, help. I would really appreciate it if you guys would take 5 minutes to read this, I do not know where else to turn to. I have been diagnosed with OCD when i was 18 years old, at the time i used to have sexual intrusive thoughts and scrupulosity. I have always disliked taboo sexual thoughts so i feel like that is the easiest theme for my OCD to latch on to. Recently, I started to feel better when it came to my ocd and stopped caring so much. However i feel like my ocd theme has switched to Real Event OCD. I can not get over this specific event that occured when i was 14. I am really afraid to talk about this but this is the last hope for me to find some light because i am starting to become severly depressed. I get very high anxiety about this and feel like I am about to faint whenever i remember this incident. When I was around 14 years old i imagined a sexual thought, it was about me teaching some people a little bit younger than me how to do certain sexual acts with me. I think i might have felt something to it. I have no idea why i even thought of this, many people talk about how it is normal for young people and children to have taboo sexual fantasies and sexual experimentation but am i even considered a juvenile or young at 14 years old? I am holding myself to extreme high standards and I feel like my life is over because of this. I do not even want to get married as i feel like i am betraying the person i am marrying because they do not know about this thought i had back then. I do not even wanna hang out with friends or go out anywhere, i feel like i have no worth and feel strong disgust about myself. I replay the thought over and over again to see how bad it actually was and if i I am capable of being forgiven for it. I am hysterically crying about this several times a day and i have isolated myself.
Me: having a half decent day Hal (my intrusives): you don’t deserve to be happy + Intrusive thought Me:
does anyone else feel like their brain just cant let good things happen? like my brain feels weird when things go right. so it gives me insane obsessions to become worried about, because nothing can ever just be calm/good.
Sorry I know its not ocd related but does anyone here suffer from anger issues or other disorders?
Sometimes my OCD causes my anxiety to manifest in more physical ways (stomach aches and cold shivers), and it almost feels like my OCD is trying to disguise my anxiety so I’ll think it isn’t there and be more concerned about myself. Has that ever happened to anyone?
Something I have to remind myself is that everyone’s ocd experience is different. I always compare my symptoms and compulsions to other people and I always feel like I’m not feeling anxious enough, not doing enough compulsions, etc. to have ocd so yeah but everyone is different and experiences ocd differently
Free support groups!!! If you haven’t seen yet there are a lot of FREE community groups here on NOCD. There are a couple more today and lost tomorrow (as well as everyday!) If you haven’t checked them out you should! They have been great and they are free and on zoom so you can easily access them
So I experience a lot of the things that were listed while setting this up, but I’m still paranoid that maybe I’m just self diagnosing. I have been diagnosed with OCD but I haven’t talked to my current therapist and he hasn’t brought it up. What do I do?
I start my Jr year tomorrow...any tips?? Schoolwuse, health wise (mental and physical), friendwise, relationship-wise, self improvement wise...or all?? Please??? I like being prepareddd
Hey guys. I have this school presentation next week that I am practicing for, and I just finished practicing in front of my parents which was easy because they my parents. But whenever it comes to speaking in front of my classmates I always get very nervous and shaky, and I tend to talk very fast as well. Do you have any tips or advice on what I can do to make my shaking and anxiety settle down? Thank you:)
Thank you to whoever recommended watching Ali Greymond. She also has a podcast devoted to OCD. They are short, but she is extremely knowledgeable. One thing that really hit me is when she said "What if means its OCD," She also discusses things like stages of recovery, ERP and a lot of other things. Its a great way to educate yourself or someone else on OCD. The podcast is called OCD Help. I know its available on Spotify, but probably also on any of the major platforms. Definitely with a listen.
Does anyone else worry that your intrusive thoughts are hidden desires
How long did your treatment take? I'm not on medications, I'm just trying to stop ruminating and I have, but sometimes during the day I get tense randomly, during times I want to ruminate but I still don't. I heard this was one of the first steps in recovery. How long did your treatment take?
Has anyone ever read something terrifying and you can feel the fear as your read and than you know the next things coming is the what if this, I could do this, and your mind just starts spiraling. Than that’s all you obsess about 😪
if anyone can give any input on my last post id appreciate it 💌
Seek therapy, ocd is not your friend, you can't do it alone. Seek help. Seek God. Don't be afraid, you're not alone. He loves you.
Very happy about going to get my blood checked on Saturday after 5 years of not knowing... I just feel like something is wrong with me and if something pops up in my blood then maybe just maybe I can connect it to my throat feeling 🐿! I'm just tired if this throat feeling It makes me scared that I'll die or If I will die😅 kinda thinking what if the vaccine messed up whatever the feeling in my throat is!
having this constant fear that im not living my life correctly or “authentically” and it’s so exhausting. i feel like my partner focused rOCD has dissipated like the “is he attractive enough” questions aren’t bothering me as much but now it’s replaced with “are we in a trauma bond” “do we really deeply love each other or do we just not want to leave” “is our relationship just toxic” “can we really have a truly intimate relationship after the things we’ve been through together” “should i just start from scratch with someone else and not have this baggage” “am i holding him back from real love” i know, maybe maybe not. but these questions are eating me alive lately and they feel ACTUALLY really real and important. but i guess that’s OCDs MO lmao. giving me constant panic attacks for the last few days. any advice on how to cope with these new thoughts?
I’m getting this heavy feeling that my obsession is true and I’ve just been in denial all along. I’m scared.
How bad can HOCD get because right now it feels so believable
Does anyone else get “gut feelings” or like a heavy feeling in your chest sometimes? Like I’m getting this heavy feeling that my obsession is true and it’s scaring me and I feel like since I’m getting this feeling it means it’s true
I feel very uneasy right now. Idek if I’m anxious or not but I feel so weird and have this heavy feeling in my chest like somethings not right or something bad is going to happen. I’m getting bad visions of the future. I’m worried that my intrusive thoughts that I’ve been having lately are just secret desires or urges that I’m labeling as “intrusive thoughts” as an excuse :( I hate how I’m feeling right now I’m honestly scared and I hope that this gut feeling/heavy feeling in my chest is nothing to worry about and doesn’t mean anything
Does anyone else self berate yourself and pinch yourself when you have to feel like you’ll get an intrusive thought? It’s getting worse now and I don’t know what to do.
Hey everyone - I participated in my very first NOCD Support Group and it was AMAZING!!! If you have been on the fence about trying one out - seriously - go for it! The therapist who lead the group had really helpful prompts to get the conversation started, and she made sure we all had a chance to speak if we wanted to. The group members (about 12 in total) were incredibly kind, insightful, and supportive. I signed up to meet with the group every week, and am already looking forward to our next session. Best of all, it's totally free! If anyone has questions about the groups - I'm happy to answer if I can. Just wanted to share my experience.
i’m currently in the mindset that i KNOW i’m not a pedo, but i know that the anxiousness and the shame and guilt and horrible thoughts will return eventually, which already kind of offsets the free feeling i have right now. it gets so hard but then i have a few moments every now and then of calm and peace and understanding that i really am not this monster my mind is telling me i am. that’s the real me. i don’t know how to remember that every time i go through an episode or sink back into the bad mindset.