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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
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So I’m going to a new psychiatrist tomorrow and asking her to switch meds. I hear Zoloft is good? Anyone else have a good experience on Zoloft or any other med?
Can I talk to someone about my hocd?? Please!!! I'm very anxious
Every time I get intrusive thoughts these days I just accept them as true without even thinking about it. What does that mean? My ocd is real? I just realized this a while ago but I didn’t even notice this whole week I had been doing that.
I know my wisdom teeth are coming in and I’m going to have to get the removed. But I’m so afraid of anesthesia, what if I say or do something really inappropriate when I’m under anesthesia? It scares me so much. And it makes me not want to go to the dentist.
Why do we feel urges to act on a thought? Where exactly does it come from and how to make it less frequent?
I got a thought of “why if you keep something bad from your wife” and got really anxious. What if I smoked with my friends and said “just don’t tell my girlfriend” or something along those lines. She’s cool with weed but not with cigarettes and I think I smoked cigarettes with my friend like 6 years ago and didn’t tell her and now I’m scared that there’s more stuff and that I’m actually a piece of shit person that goes around doing things behind peoples backs.
Hi Everyone, I get this ruminations to impress everyone from high school, and other folks, It must be because I felt everyone looked at me condescendingly, Also whenever I get these thoughts I perform some mental compulsion, But what does this mean? I know I shouldn't be bothered by these thoughts but it just makes me wonder if I have some false belief which has led me to this condition. Basically how to get over the past is what I want the know.
Anyone else just like SO bored? I've been making bath bombs but I have nothing else to do 😾😾😾
I feel like I will be making a big deal out of my situation by telling my family and going to therapy. Feel like it is not that serious and I could recover on my own, But it hasnt worked so far so I dont know
I've just had enough of my OCD hijacking my life. It interrupts my work, my down time. Especially getting bad at work now. Enough already. I just want to get from one end of the day to the other without intrusive thoughts and obsessive compulsive pit stops.
I'm just tired of dealing with OCD and depression for 10 years.. sometimes it seems like I'll never be free to breathe and feel the fresh air in my lungs, and that I never will feel the sensation of freedom. Sometimes I feel like Im a slave of the OCD and what it carries together.. Im trying to do meditation everyday. This helps me for some minutes or hours..but I just wanna sleep and wake up without any intrusive thought..
I feel scared because I’m not scared anymore…… anyone know that feeling
I can’t even lay in his arms without thinking do I love him
My update! I haven’t really been on here in a while. I’ve recently gotten 2 jobs so I’ve been kinda distracted. I was put on lexapro as well so I haven’t been as panicky. It’s hitting me right now this is why I’m here. I don’t understand why I’m still having problems even though I’m taking medicine. That’s what’s frustrating me. I just wish I could be who I want to be not what my Brain is scared of being.
Didn’t ruminate today. The thought is coming less. The anxiety has decreased. I’m getting there 😌 baby is due one week from tomorrow!
I’ve been thinking all day if It’s a crush or not 💀🥲 I hateee this feeling bro it feels like I can’t even be attracted to ppl I want to be attracted to :(, and this is the friend that’s two years younger than me and it’s annoying tbh feeling this way when I’m with him bc I can’t even look at him most of the time
does anyone else get anxiety meeting new people and worrying about what they think of you at every second?
How much is erp therapy and how often is it required?
In rocd do you have like ever those moments where you picture the worse scenarios with your partner? All the time??
It feels like anything can trigger anxiety for me now smh. My chest tightens from every little thing. Its like i cant enjoy anything anymore. This is hell man
I hate doubting my own beliefs and opinions. I try and remind myself it’s okay to believe in what I want but then I think “but is it really? aren’t you just lying to yourself? you’re just seeing what you want to see” and it makes me start ruminating, researching and stressing because I need to figure out what the right answer is… I just want to trust in myself but it seems impossible.
In the included photo, my painting HOW DO YOU LOVE #1 features varying tones of blue culminating to depict a patchwork-esque impasto style of painting. Each brushstroke defines the sky and surrounds the celestial bodies featured (the Sun, the Moon, and the Earth). Centered, above the Sun and between the Earth and the Moon, is a phrase comprised of orange and white lettering: HOW DO YOU LOVE? This is the question of my first collection of original art. How do you love? How do you show yourself compassion? As an OCD sufferer, who was only diagnosed this year after 25 years of suffering untreated, I find it important to embrace art not only as my career and a joy of my life, but as a means of healing and eliciting the compassion I would afford to my loved ones. OCD bullies my brain from the moment I wake until the moment my exhausted brain unplugs itself. There's no better way for me to showcase life with OCD, and self-compassion, than with art. This is only HDYL#1!
Anyone else prefer maths over essays? I always have and I’m thinking it coincides with the black and white thinking of my OCD brain 🧐 writing an essay stresses me haha too much grey
Sometimes I feel really good for hours, days, weeks, or even months. Then it all comes crumbling down and I have no idea why. Then the rumination and doubts persist for hours, days, weeks; or even months . Is this pattern something others have experienced ?
i’m laying in bed and i just heard two loud thumps and i have no idea what it was i’m pretty sure my parents are asleep upstairs but what if somethings wrong. it almost sounded like it came from outside but idk and now i’m super anxious
For those who are experiencing ROCD, this song really spoke to me. I know we aren't at places where we want to be in our relationships and we want to love "more" or "better." Maybe this is just part of your journey together. We're all still learning. https://open.spotify.com/track/2YF64ag4FHHiwPcO6rNEMP?si=8Ed8_p6lTa-G-vEY3akI6w&utm_source=copy-link
Have any of you ever really struggled with having the need or feeling to confess the horrible thoughts you’ve had to someone? I know I would get in trouble for this, and it wouldn’t do anyone good, but I have the thought of telling the parents that I babysit for about the intrusive thoughts I’ve had about their kids. I know that would not end up being good, but I don’t know what to do. I wanted to know if anyone experienced the same thing. It’s so hard to deal with. And I know that asking for reassurance can make OCD worse.
Do you ever just accidentally fight with your boyfriend in your head? Like sometimes i imagine a scenario and in this scenario he does something I don’t like and then i end up actually getting mad at real him. Am i the only one?😂
Wondering if anyone can give me some advice. I recently started going to a therapist and she never mentioned ERP but claims to have a lot of experience with OCD. Her advice to me when I have intrusive thoughts is to remind and tell myself that it is just my OCD and just the way my brain is wired that is making me obsess. I just saw a post about ERP therapy and how you’re actually supposed to confront the thoughts. Is what she is telling me to do bad advice?
It's ruminating bad for only OCD or its bad for anxiety in general?
Oh boy. Just need to write this out here before I spiral too much. It usually helps to write it out. My new (very fun 🙄) trigger is thoughts about my partner being sexist/misogynist, after one stupid comment he made. I corrected him and apologized but I couldn’t let it go. I’ve been down the rabbit hole this week and am now hyper vigilant of anything he says in regards to women and gender. Anyway, today we were talking about birthdays since mine is coming up. He was saying he’s the worst at remembering people’s birthdays and only remembers his dad’s, son’s and brothers. Of course, my first thought was “why does he only remember the men’s?” He has an estranged relationship with his mom but has a sister he is close with. So why didn’t she fall into the group of birthdays he remembers? Is this a real concern or an OCD thought? Does it seem sexist to only remember the men’s birthdays- as if they are superior? Am I overthinking this?! 😅
I’m having thoughts like “you don’t love your boyfriend” but I do. These thoughts are scary and I do love him and he’s made me really happy. I don’t want this to ruin anything.
i keep getting intrusive thoughts about cheating on my partner/hurting him in any way and it makes me so scared because i wouldn't do any of that to a person i love.
Alright so I was switching my laundry to the dryer and the wet blanket touched me 😂 the detergent shouldn’t be dangerous after the washer right?
Is anyone else feeling super “blah” about everything in their life? Like they are stuck in a rut of just feeling this way for days & weeks on end?? I’m not sure if it’s the pandemic or what but I just can’t shake it
I’ve moved recently and I feel so isolated and alone even though I did it to myself I’m really struggling and I’m not sure what to do. I have a huge fear of being alone.
Hi everyone. I need advice/help on how not to ruminate. That is so tough. I get caught ruminating, even when I think I am not. Then, I try to distract myself in order not to ruminate but that is considered compulsion. Help. Thank you.
I hate how I can be 100% certain I’m not my theme/thoughts one minute then convinced I am and extremely uncertain the next.
ROCD I noticed that I’m having the same thoughts every day about if I like my guy best friend when I am in a relationship. The person I’m with is someone I don’t want to lose ever but it’s hard because all these thoughts about my guy friend that I relate to. I see myself ruminating, fixating on past memories, and trying to problem/solve these thoughts to make sure I don’t have feelings for my friend. I usually handle it fine but some days are just harder to see the truth. Any suggestions or relate to anyone?
i woke up with my brain trying to convince me that i don’t like my person anymore and now i feel really nauseous
Just had an unexpected run-in with a group of kids and their dog which got loose in my yard, which triggered multiple things at once—unwanted thoughts but mostly contamination anxiety covid
Feeling really low. I exposed myself to a big trigger of mine, worked weeks to get there. Did it… and now i feel like im spiraling. I’ve regressed. Im afraid and have been seeking reassurance for the last two days. I wish I didn’t care so much
How does one get a formal diagnosis? I’ve been told by a licensed therapist that this was what I have, but do I have to go to a psychiatrist to get the actual diagnosis? Even after being told I have OCD by my therapist, I’m constantly afraid that I’m making it up and that I’ve been lying to him or exaggerating or something (which I haven’t). I literally wish I could get a brain scan to settle this once and for all, but I’m fully aware that not only is that insanely excessive and impractical, but also it would be a reassurance-seeking compulsive behavior. Ugh. I’m so scared even typing this that I’m lying, so scared posting on a board of people that “actually” have OCD. My brain won’t let me believe that it’s real. I want a formal diagnosis but I don’t think that would even convince me sometimes :(
Really just don’t wanna lose my boyfriend, I love him so much:(
Hi everybody! I struggle with ROCD and my go to compulsion is confessing every thought or worry to my partner. Is there anyone else on here who is experiencing the same thing? Any tips?
I just saw the new Venom film and omg, why does it feel like I’m Eddie and Venom is the OCD.
I just got done with my therapist and I swear it doesn’t make me feel any better she just sits there and stares and doesn’t say anything. It makes me feel so anxious like I said something wrong
I am so stuck on the thought that if my brain picks up on the thought and I don’t have a problem with it and go like oo that’s not so bad or i might even like that as well makes me go mad or that’s just my brain doing stuff because the difference between hocd and denial means the likes for the thought and if I don’t have a problem with if that means i might be in denial and i am scared just scared my past childhood stuff where I don’t even remember if i had a problem with them or liked them or didn’t. I am so tired.
Hi yall!! So as I’m going through this recovery process I’ve decided to document my OCD journey and I’ve just posted my very first YT video! I’ll leave the link below! Feel free to take a look and subscribe! OCD is tough but we’re tougher 💕✨🧠 https://youtu.be/m3DndTstrio
Can crying become a compulsion? I’ve been having crying fits lately every time I think about my illness and how alone and depressed I feel.
Any other women on their cycles and notice a spike in anxiety and depression. Im struggling bad with the hormones right now 😞
Best advice for whack a mole OCD? It's basically when your obsessions/theme basically changes quickly. I beat my old theme but now I've had like 5 different themes in the past month, all of which I don't care about anymore. I don't know if ERP can help with the whack a mole problem because it does work for the obsessions itself but it takes a few days but doesn't help with the whack a mole issue. Does anyone have any good advice? Thank you!!!
Can ocd makes you doubt about your true self and values in life and whether you really want these awful things to happen?
Why is existential ocd so freaking difficult compared to other themes?
Just had my 2nd ERP and feel worse anxious than I did when I started. Didn't really know I had OCD about the topic we were working on but guess I do. Has this happened to anybody else? My therapist told me I can't use prayer while I am sitting with the anxiety. However, I can use it afterwards.
Hocd Tw Feels like Im having general Identity, sexual orientation and gender crisis all at once, what the actual f*ck? Makes me not even want to speak with a therapist bc It feels like its all denial, i cant handle all this, its too much
Started a Blog today! My instagram is: @clubocd and the link is in my bio!! Follow me in my OCD journey :)
I am new to this app, and I wanted to say how I struggle So I struggle with people touching my food BADLY. I can not stand it when I am in view of people cooking, and people touch the food without washing their hands first. I have to make all the food myself (when I am alone) as that feels better as I wash my hands frequently when cooking. I also struggle with OCD when I'm at school. I have a literal FEAR of germs and contamination to the point where I sanitize everything and change my outfit as soon as I get home. It triggers my OCD if I do not sanitize or wash something and I flip out. I still wear my mask while in public, but switched to the disposable ones. How should I manage both of these so that my OCD decreases in intensity?
I feel extremely sick and it progressively gets worse when I don’t ask for reassurance. I try to handle the thoughts on my own until it gets to a point of breakdown and need the reassurance. How can I get to a point where I can believe what I am saying and not have to only believe the reassurance?
I'm not sure if therapists should be mentioning or even alluding to their political and religious views. As someone with Pure O OCD, it doesn't help and discourages me from wanting to talk to them.
Hey, is anyone else here struggling with loss of attraction? Im not looking for reassurance but it would be great to speak to someone else who is dealing with this too. It feels like proof i dont have ocd and i need to accept that..i dont know what to do anymore at this point
Ocd and break ups… I need help.
How do you ever know if its hocd or not sometimes I feel like my life is over I never believed in a million years this would have happened to me growing up. Its really heartbreaking 😔
Thoughts are just thoughts, they have no meaning. They only stick when you give them meaning either directly or indirectly. Don't be sad if they keep coming and don't celebrate if they don't come for a while. Just leave them as it is. They come and they go as they always should be. Meditate for peace.
Idk what to say I can’t live inside my own mind like this anymore but the work is so hard
Just wondering… do you have to be 18+ to attend the support groups or is it okay if your younger. I have never joined before so I’m curious plz
In your experience, how far into therapy or starting ERP until it “finally clicked” for you? When it comes to relief. I’ve been in a total of 5 sessions and it has helped relief some of my anxiety, however I still feel anxious and extremely unhappy that some of these thoughts are still part of me.
I’m a liar, a cheater, a bad person, a bad wife, I deserve nothing, I’m an imposter, blah blah blah who gives a fuck whatever you say OCD 😉
Has anybody tried the support groups? What are your thoughts? I signed up for my first one tomorrow.
does anyone else have issues where they will randomly tense theyre muscles or hit things or grip objects too hard because theyre anxious? ive been diagnosed by my ocd therapist with panic disorder and these symptoms have gotten much worse recently. just wondering if anyone else deals with this
Can ROCD hit before relationships begin? always struggled with relationship anxiety or what I thought was a fear of commitment, when guys ask me out I feel a sudden fear and doubt of do I like them? Am I better off single? And so I follow the urge to run and then regret it. This has developed into obsessions about my sexual orientation and I don’t want to seek reassurance but most rocd cases are when people are in established relationships.
does anybody else have real event ocd tied to pocd
I’m trying to be positive but I’m struggling. It breaks my heart that I don’t really have anyone... this is hard. Now I have to go to work feeling bad and I honestly hate it. My posts have been a mess on this app. I guess I just don’t want to feel alone anymore.
Hi Everyone, How do you find purpose to life amidst all the OCD symptoms? I understand it should not come in between,but I've been suffering with anxiety and depression for last 4 years, and you know I think of something and all I can think about is whether it's gonna make me happy or not. How do I know what truly gives me happiness? Thanks a lot!
Hey everyone. I’m new to this and I need some help. I have a first date tonight but I feel like he needs to know everything about my OCD. All my themes and every feeling and intrusive thought I have. I won’t tell him of course but I feel guilty now. Like I’m hiding something.
So I’ve always struggled with anxiety, but lately I’ve been struggling with ocd and insomnia. I have this same thought where I’m scared I won’t fall asleep and I’ll be the last one up. I have this scared feeling of being alone during the night. Please let me know if you relate.
in the same way people suffer with SADs during the winter months and experience low moods because of the darker nights, is there a link between winter months and ocd? i feel as though my ocd gets worse during winter but i’m not sure if that’s due to personal issues :)
What does accepting your OCD thoughts and feelings feel like? I can’t work out whether I’ve accepted their true or I’ve just accepted the thoughts?
its raining where i am!!! 🍂🕯💌 wishing everyone a wonderful day❤️❤️❤️
The thoughts just don’t seem to bother me that much today. But it still feels like I want them but it’s like I’ve given up caring. I had a really enjoyable and intimate experience with my partner last night and this morning, but my brain is still convinced that I’m gay. Even tho the evidence just doesn’t add up its like I’ve taught myself to disbelieve my whole life up until now. I’ve always been someone who likes to prove people wrong but now it’s almost as if I’m trying to prove myself wrong even when I’m enjoying myself?
do these obsessions sound like OCD ? i have 2 main ones COVID-19: i’ve had quite a few cases in my school and whenever i hear who had it i have to tretrace my steps in my head to see whether i’ve been anywhere near them. then when i get home i have to do at least 3/4 lateral flow to make sure i’m negative. Guilt/Crininal: i feel extreme guilt. for example. recently i’ve been messaging this old family friend and he’s 20 we practically grew up together and we haven’t spoken in about 10 years. i joked about taking my clothes off after eating food. which i later explained was because of bloating. he’s said i’m a naughty girl and things like that. he’s said a few more weird things like if my bfs pickle has been in my mouth before and i hate lying but i did and i joked around using 👀 that emoji but then i put 😂 emoji and said no i haven’t and he kept saying i did. he also puts 4 exes at the end of messages and i thought maybe it’s normal. he has an ex girlfriend that he’s had a baby with and they are trying to sort things out. today i found he was pending on all socials and we usually chat about how our day at work/school was. i then got a message saying if his girlfriend messages me then to ignore it. i remember when we first started talking i said it’s a bit wierd and i don’t want anything like a relationship wise coz i have a bf. and he guilt tripped me basically. so i carried on messaging him. i’m now scared i’ve done something illegal and i’m going to be arrested i’ve had the fear that i’ll be arrested so many times over little things so i feel i have to apologise for everything i’ve done
So I just started a relationship and now my mind is telling me I don't like the person at all and it feels real and I can't tell. Is this ROCD??
My girlfriend usually leaves the house around 4 AM during the week because she works an early shift. She often wakes me up but then I fall back to sleep. Last night though, I felt so anxious after she left that I couldn’t go back to sleep. I had to go check to make sure the door was locked, and lock my bedroom door. I tried turning on a light in my room. Even then, I still couldn’t sleep, so I ended up watching TV for a little over an hour, then finally went back to sleep at 6AM, an hour before I wake up to get ready for work. Now I’m triggered and afraid to go to bed! I kept worrying someone was in my place even though I live in a building, or even irrational things, like I’d open my eyes and an uncanny face would be staring at me. I kept playing back horror movie screaming in my head. Being so overwhelmed made me give up and just stay awake, but I don’t want this to happen every night now obviously. What can I do?
So lost in my mind right now pray for me pls
Most mistake we make are because we didn’t know..but it doesn’t mean no harm was done so
I’m a bit confused about ERP. Wouldn’t ruminating in some cases be classed as an exposure? And if I stop myself from ruminating, isn’t that classed as avoidance? I’m finding it a little tricky to navigate. Any advice/ help would be appreciated :)
Let’s do something that scares us today. Let’s break bad habits. Let’s value ourselves.
Dealing with ocd is frustrating because in my head I know that my counting behaviors don’t influence anything, but I still spend hours to do them because if I don’t I feel a lot of discomfort
I've started my ERP the last 2 weeks and its really helping, of course there is anxiety involved before and during but it has really calmed down. Just wanted to share that things can get better
Brothers and sisters good morning. Today is today. That's all that we know for sure. We don't know tomorrow. Live in today, not in the tomorrow that ocd brings up. Enjoy the blessings you've been given today. Reading this is one of them because it means you have eyes and you learned to read. Thank God for that! We cannot run from ocd but we can run straight into it with our arms wide open accepting it and at the same time standing up to it fearlessly while feeling fear. Today is a day we didn't know we would have to live yesterday, but hey here we are. Thank God for today. Enjoy Today. God bless you