- Username
- Nour04
- Date posted
- 985d ago
- Sexual Orientation OCD
- "Pure" OCD
It sounds like you are ruminating. I am someone who without a doubt is attracted to women but I spent years wishing I didn’t, and still struggle with these thoughts at times. I believe this is normal and I would try not to give much power to your thoughts. Deep down, you know who you are either way
@Ope.0 It's normal to feel arousal when you see something sexually real or just in your mind, men or women. This is something I realize when I was trying to do exposure by watching gay porn. Not the best idea by the way. Not to give to much details here, but my body reacted to the gay sex clip. Even though my body reacted, my mind was disconnected from what my body was feeling. It was sexual, I was aroused but it was not who I am so my mind close itself to the situation. It's like my therapist said it's just arousal non-concordance. Basically, it's like a thief who steals a car. If he push the right button the car will start. The car does not make the difference between the thief or the owner. No matter who it is, it will start the engine if the right button is pushed. The region of the brain responsible to start the arousal or not is quite primitive. If the nature of what you see or hear is sexual, the brain will fired up the arousal. It doesn't care about your preference. You have to see this as totally normal, but because we focus on everything our ocd deems suspicious it exacerbate the body reaction and our ocd interpretation of this reaction.
Really triggering. I’d really appreciate if you could explain!
I am confused with some responses but I apologize if anyone found my post triggering. I was only sharing my thoughts. I don’t struggle with sexual orientation as a theme of my OCD so I may not understand the issue at hand. I absolutely agree that my thoughts are denial, because I struggle to accept the truth about my sexuality and the potential social consequences of it (a theme of my social anxiety, judgment regarding who I’m attracted to). As most non straight individuals do, I struggle to accept that I am different from the socially accepted norm. That’s the nature of my denials, not any OCD related symptoms. I don’t identify as a lesbian because I despise the term. I’ve been in love with men and women and wish that sexuality wasn’t the huge deal society makes it to be. Sorry to muddle the conversation
@Rosalie How are your thoughts denial? What’s the nature of them?
@Rosalie well what i struggle with is not wanting to be attracted to women just because i don't want to. i don't care about what's socially "acceptable", i just don't want to like them
I have know I wasn’t straight/I was gay since I was in the single digits. I do not have SOOCD
I'm sorry if people made you feel unwelcomed, a lot of people panic though that your situation is what's happening to them because of the SOOCD