Please help me guys. I stumbled upon an article of a man who was gay, but found out later in his life.. I’m so terrified! I don’t want to live anymore guys.. I love my girlfriend.. I want to marry her, but I’m terrified. Please help!

Warrior25

Date posted: 4y

I don't know if it helps but say it once: I'm me nothing else. And then don't argue with the what if questions. Let them come and let them pass.

run99

Date posted: 4y

I’m going through this rn too. So I really don t have much to offer except you’re not alone.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I’m scared.. I genuinely don’t want to live anymore.

run99

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous I’ve been feeling that too I really do understand how heavy it can feel. But please don’t hurt yourself. We are here for you

run99

Date posted: 4y

@run99 Have you contacted your therapist

Warrior25

Date posted: 4y

You are looking for reassurance which is something very common with OCD. I do it too sometimes but that's something that it can only be overcome by going through the storm of anxiety. I know it's hard. Try going for a walk or do something physical that helps you burn the adrenaline from the anxiety. You are going to be ok. The thought is just a thought and it's not you. Be blessed

run99

Date posted: 4y

I struggle when people say this because if I’m not thoughts what am I???? Does that make sense?

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Thank you friend.

Warrior25

Date posted: 4y

@run99 You are the observer of your thoughts. Let me put this way. The sky is your mind, the clouds your thoughts and you are the eagle (or whatever bird you like 😄) that can decide where to focus on and flight towards it. So you are you and not the thoughts that pop up uninvited.

run99

Date posted: 4y

@herdel25 But what makes me up ?? Does that make sense idk I’m having trouble putting it I. Words

Warrior25

Date posted: 4y

@run99 Makes sense. But at the same time if you have existential OCD maybe you are looking for reassurance, which is normal for OCD. But what you are, and I'm not a philosopher, is a human being. A unique person capable of thinking, feeling and deciding and conscient of his/her existence which makes you of intrinsic value and worthy of Love and goodness. You are you. Not your thoughts or your feelings.

run99

Date posted: 4y

@herdel25 Thank you for your help

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