Fs. OCD is suppsoed to feel real. I’ve had this for over a year and it’s calmed down a lot… I still have it but I barely go on this app anymore. Only when it flares up
This does sound like the "backdoor spike" in part, where as you get habituated to intrusive thoughts and they cause you less anxiety, you then fear that that means you actually like / identity with those thoughts. And yes, that is OCD being sneaky. Just keep at it! I've had the same issue in my path. Recovery is not a straight line!