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sunshineforest
8d ago

From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Thank you for all the amazing OCD activists and therapists who directed me to this app, thank you to all the wonderful kind souls who took time out of their days to reply to me and help me through what used to be a mess. I feel so free, and while I do have wobbly moments, I have such a better understanding of this now, largely thanks to you guys, and I'm able to finally live again. Thank you so much. If anyone has any questions on how I managed to get to a better place, please let me know. I'm still not perfect but I'm in a place where I can move on with my day again. Thanks everyone :)

Maddiamber
8d ago
I’m so happy for you! That’s so amazing!!!! :) what’s your best piece of advice for embracing uncertainty (idk your theme but I have harm ocd)
CHZ
8d ago
That’s amazing I hope to get to that moment one day! Any advice for uncertainty especially with harm ocd? Also any advice for getting through your hardest days when ocd makes you believe that you are your worst fears?
sunshineforest
8d ago
This video by Ali Greymond / YOUHAVEOCD on YouTube really helped me: Feeling Like You Actually Want The OCD Thoughts - PUREO HOCD ROCD POCD HARM FALSE MEMORY OCD Basically, OCD is very good at making things SEEM real. If you think about it, this is VITAL for OCD's survival, and this was a big thing for me to realise. If the fears didn't seem real, we wouldn't do compulsions. If we didn't do compulsions, we wouldn't have OCD. See how it kind of goes full circle to OCD trying to keep you in a loop? THE VIDEO DEFINITELY INCLUDES SOME REASSURANCE, BUT in my case, it helped me understand OCD better, and helped me recognise my behaviour as OCD and make steps to try and adjust it (do less compulsions): Intrusive thought > this seems real, what if it is? ok i think it is, that's bad > compulsion > TEMPORARY calmness Here, I noticed that the only reason I was doing compulsions was because my thoughts seemed real. Now, I knew that OCD is very good at making things seem real so you engage in OCD behaviour and keep it strong, and this allowed me to take the first step towards resisting compulsions. This was very scary, but I did less and less each day, sitting with anxiety that got much more manageable over time as I re-trained my brain. As I learned to sit with anxiety more, I became much more accepting of uncertainty (I think this is what the anxiety is actually, so of course learning to sit with it is really great!). Sorry if this isn't a great explanation, I have a bad headache! But I hope this is adequate enough. Let me know if you don't understand anything!
CHZ
8d ago
@sunshineforest Thank you yess ocd makes it seem Very real. I have harm OCD and todays it’s convincing me that todays the day your going to snap and hurt people especially my roomates and that’s really scaring me cause it feels soooooo real! I’m scared.
sunshineforest
8d ago
@CHZ - I would definitely reccomend watching that video, as it will really help you understand this more, but yes, it is OCD and you're not going to hurt anyone!