I feel like it’s not mentioned enough that when you first start OCD therapy you feel much much worse. Your OCD goes into full blown panic/tantrum mode trying to get you back to doing your compulsions and will through up the most terrifying, disturbing, agonizing  content to get you there. Don’t give in. Push past what you think you’re limits are. Your OCD decided those limits and it’s the reason your stuck here. You can overcome this

Message To Overcome OCD

true. things will get worse to get better but the effort means a lot and was worth it in the end ! 

I like how you described it as a tantrum, that is really what it feels like