- Username
- hopefulsunny
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Holidays for me are tough! I start a new job on Tuesday and my mind is so messed up. It’s telling me I’m not good enough and I’m going to fail. Im going to embarrass myself and be left with no income. WE ARE NOT OUT THOUGHTS!! You are good enough and you are loved!! It’s gets better!!
Thank you🤍 Some days it’s a little harder but I’m grateful for reminders like these.
This is such helpful advice, thank you so much🤍🤍 Happy Thanksgiving!
i am crying w you❤️ you’re not alone in the suffering. my heart breaks for you too. i’ve had existential ocd worsen & improve over 4 years now.. themes switch but the existential content breaks me.
my brain tells me i don’t deserve love, happiness, that i need to end it.
You deserve the whole world. You deserve happiness and love. please please don't end your life. Please don't give up. I promise you better days are absolutely coming. I promise you, things will definitely get better. 💙❤️🌸 I am sending you all my love. I will send you national Suicide prevention hotline and national Suicide prevention textline. National suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255 National Suicide prevention textline: 741741 Please call or text them. They are so helpful. 🌸
I promise you, better days will definitely come. Please don't give up. I am sending you all my love. And dear, you deserve the whole world. ❤️ You deserve to be happy and be surrounded by people you care about. ❤️ I promise you, things will absolutely get better. Also, Better days are coming, I promise. How are you feeling now? ❤️ By the way, I will send you national Suicide prevention hotline and national Suicide prevention textline. National suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255 National Suicide prevention textline: 741741
Also, Hopefulsunny, Please call or text them. They are so helpful. 💜
And remember you are not alone. ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for your support🤍 I’m trying to power through but I just can’t stop crying. Today is just one of those down days I guess.
@hopefulsunny You're so welcome. And you mean you're trying to not let OCD hurt you? I am so so proud of you for trying. Don't give up. 💜💜 And aww my dear, don't cryyy. What about a funny video? Or your favorite movie? I am sending you allll my love. 💜💜💜💜 Aww I'm sorry today is not so good day. Tomorrow is a new day and will hopefully be a better day.💙💙💙💙💙 Don't give up and don't lose hope. ❤️
Guess what!? You must be doing something right! Look at all that scrambling ocd is doing. Yes, you will have ocd for the rest of your life... BUT it will NOT always be at the forefront of your life. Keep doing ERP especially when ocd says you're not doing it right.. heck even do erp with that... maybe I am doing erp right and maybe I'm not but I choose to do it anyway! Have your moment but then pick yourself up and put ocd in the back seat like the tired crying child that it is!
Hello! I know how it feels, but after every hard day next one was way better in my case at least for the most part. I struggle myself today. If you need somebody to talk to I'm open for it. Wish you the best. Remember, you're not alone in it.
Thank you!
Hi there, hopefulsunny! Thank you so much for reaching out on here. I totally understand where you’re coming from. My OCD tends to make me feel very teary. Your OCD is recognizing the progress that you’re making and it’s going into overdrive! I definitely recommend opening up to your therapist about this! Have you thought about joining a support group? My support group makes me feel so…well…supported! I don’t feel alone anymore. It’s not fair that we have OCD. However, these are the brains that we are stuck with. I try to reframe my thinking by “using my powers for good.” If I can help just ONE person with OCD, then my journey is worth it. You’re stronger than you know.
Hi, thanks for replying! I’ve definitely been working on changing my perspective about OCD. I think it will be really helpful for my recovery journey to have a different outlook. I’m glad you have access to a really great support group! I have gone to a few of the NOCD support groups but haven’t really been consistent about it. I probably should as I found it did make a difference to be able to see others face to face even if it was over zoom! OCD can get very lonely sometimes so I really appreciate you taking the time to reply to me! It means a lot.
I really want somewhere to vent so this might take some time to read, sorry. I’ve had an awful morning. It feels like I’ve gone back a step in recovery because I’m feeling the same way I felt a couple months ago when my hocd was at its worst. I had completely convinced myself that I’d be better for Christmas (which I know is wrong to do but I couldn’t help it- I got through some difficult times by telling myself that). I’ve got family coming round tomorrow so we can celebrate Christmas Eve and Christmas Day and I’m scared I’ll wake up tomorrow and feel the same as I do today. This times last year I was perfectly fine and it’s depressing knowing that I’ll never be free of this again (I’m only 15 so having to face the rest of my life with ocd, especially hocd, horrifies me). I feel utterly trapped and hopeless as well as being convinced my intrusive thoughts are true because my ocd doesn’t seem as bad as everyone else’s. Yesterday I was doing so much better and now I’m a mess but for some reason it still doesn’t feel like I have ocd and this is all one big denial. I’m not sure what I expect anyone to say but I just felt the need to tell someone since nobody in my life knows what I’m going through right now. I just want to be ok for Christmas because I haven’t seen my family in a while. This is all so overwhelmingly isolating:(
I don’t know if I’m ever going to get better, if I’m ever going to feel good, if I’m ever going to be able to carry on with this 10 years down the road. It’s torture with no exit, for me recently. Every time I bring up my OCD around family, they get annoyed. I can’t go to friends because it has only been of temporary relief. I am literally tearing up as I write this. I’m afraid I’m so close to convincing myself of the horrible lies my OCD has been telling me. I just can’t, I don’t know if there’s anyone or thing that can make me feel better. It’s been like lifting gigantic boulder up a steep mountain the entire day—and I could be crushed by it if not careful. If there is a god, why must he put me through this? I have already been through some many enough hard times in life, this OCD has only magnified any insecurities, anxieties, feeling of loneliness, self hate, and negative emotions.
I just don’t know how much more of this I can take. I’m so fed up of the way my OCD makes me feel, plagued with thoughts that I hate my son, I don’t love my partner, I want to die, my life is pointless. I’m trying so hard, I’m doin ERP, I’m trying to carry on my life as normal but I just feel SO depressed. I am convinced that I am stuck like this forever now, clearly nothing is working and I’m just ready to give up 😢
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