I’m crying so much right now. Thoughts about being stuck with OCD forever. My intrusive thoughts aren’t even causing anxiety, they just make me cry. I can’t seem to recognize if I’m doing compulsions. I feel like I’m doing ERP wrong. My OCD tells me I don’t deserve to be happy or to be surrounded by people I care about. I really want this to be over but I don’t see an end in sight. Please God just make this pain go away. I’m so tired. Sorry for such a depressing post on the holidays but I’m just feeling so alone and I feel so lost.

Holidays for me are tough! I start a new job on Tuesday and my mind is so messed up. It’s telling me I’m not good enough and I’m going to fail. Im going to embarrass myself and be left with no income. WE ARE NOT OUT THOUGHTS!! You are good enough and you are loved!! It’s gets better!!

Thank you🤍 Some days it’s a little harder but I’m grateful for reminders like these.

i am crying w you❤️ you’re not alone in the suffering. my heart breaks for you too. i’ve had existential ocd worsen & improve over 4 years now.. themes switch but the existential content breaks me.

my brain tells me i don’t deserve love, happiness, that i need to end it.

You deserve the whole world. You deserve happiness and love. please please don't end your life. Please don't give up. I promise you better days are absolutely coming. I promise you, things will definitely get better. 💙❤️🌸 I am sending you all my love. I will send you national Suicide prevention hotline and national Suicide prevention textline. National suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255 National Suicide prevention textline: 741741 Please call or text them. They are so helpful. 🌸

I promise you, better days will definitely come. Please don't give up. I am sending you all my love. And dear, you deserve the whole world. ❤️ You deserve to be happy and be surrounded by people you care about. ❤️ I promise you, things will absolutely get better. Also, Better days are coming, I promise. How are you feeling now? ❤️ By the way, I will send you national Suicide prevention hotline and national Suicide prevention textline. National suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255 National Suicide prevention textline: 741741

Also, Hopefulsunny, Please call or text them. They are so helpful. 💜

And remember you are not alone. ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you for your support🤍 I’m trying to power through but I just can’t stop crying. Today is just one of those down days I guess.

@hopefulsunny You're so welcome. And you mean you're trying to not let OCD hurt you? I am so so proud of you for trying. Don't give up. 💜💜 And aww my dear, don't cryyy. What about a funny video? Or your favorite movie? I am sending you allll my love. 💜💜💜💜 Aww I'm sorry today is not so good day. Tomorrow is a new day and will hopefully be a better day.💙💙💙💙💙 Don't give up and don't lose hope. ❤️

Guess what!? You must be doing something right! Look at all that scrambling ocd is doing. Yes, you will have ocd for the rest of your life... BUT it will NOT always be at the forefront of your life. Keep doing ERP especially when ocd says you're not doing it right.. heck even do erp with that... maybe I am doing erp right and maybe I'm not but I choose to do it anyway! Have your moment but then pick yourself up and put ocd in the back seat like the tired crying child that it is!

This is such helpful advice, thank you so much🤍🤍 Happy Thanksgiving!

Hello! I know how it feels, but after every hard day next one was way better in my case at least for the most part. I struggle myself today. If you need somebody to talk to I'm open for it. Wish you the best. Remember, you're not alone in it.

Thank you!

Hi there, hopefulsunny! Thank you so much for reaching out on here. I totally understand where you’re coming from. My OCD tends to make me feel very teary. Your OCD is recognizing the progress that you’re making and it’s going into overdrive! I definitely recommend opening up to your therapist about this! Have you thought about joining a support group? My support group makes me feel so…well…supported! I don’t feel alone anymore. It’s not fair that we have OCD. However, these are the brains that we are stuck with. I try to reframe my thinking by “using my powers for good.” If I can help just ONE person with OCD, then my journey is worth it. You’re stronger than you know.