Anyone here struggling with transgender OCD? My OCD decided that this is my main OCD thought now... I was struggling with it in the past as well as with SOOCD but also with internalised misogyny and homophobia. So it was a little bit complicated to find out what I am. But I am not trans and I am a lesbian. My tocd constantly tries to tell me that I am trans... I don’t have dysphoria, I don’t want to be the other sex, I don’t want to transition, I like being who I am, I don’t feel uncomfortable in my skin. It was not always like that and that’s what my ocd uses. It reminded me that in the past I didn’t felt like that that must mean deep down I am trans. I constantly think if I want to be a woman whenever I walk past a mirror so I avoid them now. I can’t even look at trans people (online) because it got so bad and I question it for hours!!The worst thing is that my tocd tries to tell me I want top surgery but I don’t want it. I am extremely scared that it will make me do this surgery... I have already written letters to people close to me that if I am going to do the surgery they should stop me. I think I am going insane. I don’t want that surgery. I like my body. I like being female. I got rid of that ocd but it came back... It constantly wants to push me to do a surgery I don’t want. Has anyone else this? And has anyone a tip how to get rid of it. At least the surgery part because this gives me huge anxiety.

the surgery thing especially

The thing is that I am not trans. My ocd tried to tell me I am. I first had SOOCD where my ocd tried to tell me I am heterosexual. And this time it is exactly the same. Deep down I know that I am definitely not trans and that I am homosexual. My ocd tries to tell me I am. I just want to know how to get rid of ocd. My therapist already diagnosed transgender ocd. That means it’s just ocd not the fact that you are really trans. It’s just that at the moment I can’t go to therapy that’s why I ask it here.

@Milan.G yeah dude i went through the same thing. i’m not trans but my ocd tried telling me i was and i was in denial. i’m also diagnosed with tocd. i was just suggesting the “maybe, maybe not method” because it worked for me. not rationalizing my ocd thoughts and simply letting them happen and not fighting them is what eventually led to me overcoming my tocd

@nicklepickle i just don’t see lots of people on here with tocd and i know how awful it can be, so i like to try and help as best as i can because i hate to think anyone else has to go through what i went through

@nicklepickle Oh sorry I misunderstood this. Thank you for the suggestion. I will try that. My ocd gets very fast very obsessed and at the end of the obsession it will make we sometimes actually belive the things. For example with SOOCD when it was at its worst my ocd convinced me I am actually into men. I don’t have SOOCD anymore and I have never thought about if I like men or not anymore. I am just scared that if I let my ocd do it’s thing it will convince me I am trans and I get the surgeries. And when the ocd is gone (I usually don’t have an ocd longer than 2 years than it switches to a new theme) I will completely regret this surgery and it’s irreversible. Even now I don’t want the surgery. That proofs me that I am not trans because my trans friends want nothing more than that. But my ocd still tries to tell me I am trans...

@nicklepickle I am sorry you went through this... And thank you so much for your help :)