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Well from a scientific point of you...yeah we are connected we are made up from the same atoms that existed from the big bang. Just recycled like when an animal dies it becomes bio-organic compost to fertilize the soil etc etc which is nice to think about in a way we never truly physically die we just change into other things become part of other things as far as our "souls" ..hmm idk what happens . We are all more intertwined than we care to acknowledge in my opinion. But i disagree we dont share the same first person pov of the world (unless you meant like we literally only view the world through first person vision. Then yeah i agree.) But our perspectives of the world are different, learning how we all view things Is what makes life kinda interesting in my opinion. And if we die all the peoples lives we interacted with all their little worlds will be affected even in the most miniscule way. That person that works in the store you always go to will think i wonder where that person is. That homeless person you gave your change to will remember that you were one of x amount of people that gave them change that day enough to get a good meal or alcohol. Their little worlds will wonder where you went, will try to remember the face of the person who was kind to them, mean to them etc. We all leave an imprint in peoples lives. We are nobody to determine how our death will effect their worlds. Only they know. Some would be like wow that sucks but some would be like damn he/she was nice/mean but its kinda sad he he/she died . Idk its a deep topic but i understand what you tryna say
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Wow thanks for the long and thoughtful answer, I really appreciate it. What I meant by "sharing the same first pov" is the awareness that each one of us has got of being alive, and also the view of the world through first person vision (and "feeling"?), so I believe that we are in a certain way all the same (but diverse for obvious reasons, like what you said about perspective). But I guess it kinda soothes me the idea that when we die "that part that binds us all together" will keep living in someone else's life. It's a bit complicated to explain with words.
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At one time, I would have agreed with this. But I have a close friend who lost her 16 year old son to suicide in 2017. I have seen firsthand the pain and devastation that results. Your family and friends would not move on. You don't move on from something like suicide. You accept it, but you never really get over it. My friend tells her story and is a mental health advocate.
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thanks for sharing, I was a bit in a numb state of mind when I wrote this
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does anybody feel the same?
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- 22w
So I know I've talked about my fear of being hacked/watched without my knowledge and at the same time that same fear has also made me scared that i've said incriminating things or confessed to a crime I didn't commit out loud without realizing and that this person (who probably doesn't even exist) is going to use it against me in the future and ruin my life. To the point where I've covered all my device cameras. Yeah, I know. Incredibly outlandish. Anyways. The past few months it's just been my brain convincing me that my life is over or that it's going to end and not just end, but like I'm going to lose everyone that I love because of said "incriminating things" though I know I haven't done anything wrong. Of course, there's a part of me that realises that this is really unlikely because I'm not that important of a person for someone to lie in wait for decades and decide to ruin my life just because though I don't doubt that there are people like that out there (i really hope they're few and far between). However, there's another part of me that also really believes that this is all true. And sometimes I wonder if I'm going insane. Coupled with what I believe are false memories, the anxiety has been taxing every day. And I find it hard to sit with uncertainty because this worst case scenario terrifies me. I'm scared of being unloved and abandoned and also deathly afraid of being perceived as a bad person. And of course, also scared of being a bad person and my brain is convinced that I must be. Anyways. Who knows. Maybe. Maybe not. I wanted to share because I know that OCD or I guess any kind of mental illness (whatever it is I'm suffering from if it isn't OCD) likes to convince us that our fears are too niche and that this worry wouldn't be present if it wasn't real. OCD likes to use that as proof. I've learnt though that there are many people like me on this app, and even though it's still scary, it makes me feel less alone. It can be very tiring and honestly sometimes I ask myself how I'm still here even though it's been a few months and some people on here have experienced episodes like this for years or even decades. I keep hoping I'll wake up one day and it will be like this never happened. If you've taken the time to read this incredibly long waffle session of mine that's more like a drawn-pit diary entry, thank you. And if you feel comfortable with sharing, please do :)
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- 22w
At first, it just started as harmless questions, curiously exploring the universe and what life and death mean as a human. Then it became an obsession about death and the afterlife. I’m a Catholic-turned-agnostic who recently took an interest in religion again, trying to redevelop a relationship with God without letting the fear of not being good enough and possibly going to Hell taking over me. Instead, my brain latched onto the possibility that there is no God, that there’s eternal nothingness after the short time we have here on earth and that everything means nothing. My love for my friends and family. My desire to achieve my goals, and to be happy for the people I love achieving theirs. I’m haunted by the feeling that it will all be for nothing, that I will never be reunited with those that I love, that the people I love who have passed on have ceased to exist and one day, so will I and everyone else. I can’t function now. I’ve made myself physically ill over this. I’ve lost my appetite. As someone who once took pride in how much love I have for my job as a daycare teacher, I come into work and feel numb. I go home and feel numb. I’ve obsessively started telling the people in my life how much I love and appreciate them because for the past three days, I’ve been sick thinking about how one day, either I’ll leave them or they’ll leave me. It feels like nothing matters. It feels like everything is in vain. I’ve tried so hard to reframe my mindset, to rewire my brain to not think that way. I’ve tried ERP techniques of allowing myself to sit with the discomfort that the fear brings. To try and desensitize myself to this fear. Nothing seems to work. I’m so lost. I’ve been this way for three days, with yesterday and today being worse than the day it started. It’s like the obsession is morphing into depression in a way. I’m scared I’ll never feel enjoyment in any form again. I don’t know what to do anymore.
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