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- 3y
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I feel for you!! I was absolutely terrified since the beginning of the pandemic, and only a couple months ago I started feeling more at ease. I went so long without seeing friends and I’ve been home all the time.. the loneliness has been hard too. My therapist helped me use some ERP for my COVID fears since my OCD got hooked on all these scary thoughts — my family dying, me dying, me getting others sick, etc. It’s the same idea as every obsession.. you need to accept that these fears are possible. That was my exposure — just saying maybe it will happen and sitting with that anxiety that came with it. The compulsions were tricker though because I couldn’t tell how much disinfecting and washing was excessive. That one requires some judgement — follow the guidelines and learn to recognize when my ocd is acting up and pushing for more disinfecting AFTER I followed all the protocols. Anyway, using ERP for that helped me not be preoccupied with that fear like I was before. The vaccine also helped me feel safer. Though these new variants and the potentially waning protection of the vaccine are concerning for me as well. the fears aren’t non existent. Thinking about them is still scary and uncomfortable. But I’m not preoccupied with them and it’s not taking over my life like it used to. I hope it gets better for you and I also hope the COVID situation eases up in your area. Also, friendly reminder that nothing lasts forever, this pandemic and these feelings will all pass. However I’m also wondering when and praying it’s soon 😅
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Thankyou for sharing all of that with me, it’s comforting to know people get it, and how easy it can be for new fears to quickly develop into obsessions and than compulsions. I have so much trouble right now staying positive when I’m stuck at home, especially cause where I live in Canada our covid rates are now the highest they’ve ever been, and the death count is rapidly growing. I had a taste of freedom for a few months and now I’m back to feeling so isolated and left to just think and obsess over everything, not just covid. Anyway, I was happy to see your name responding to my post cause a while ago I saw you post something that I could really resonate with, and than I checked your profile and noticed we seemed to have a lot in common and you seemed so nice and I wanted to get to know you but y’know it’s kinda hard since you can’t message people on here 😅
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@Uphamia That’s so nice of you to say! Thank you so much 💖 I’m really happy to hear that some of the things I say resonate with others 😊 and I totally empathize with what you’re going through too. I would love to talk, I’ve used Instagram for messaging before. I use my alternate ig account @krisblisssss and you can message me there anytime you’d like! Or we can talk on another platform if that works better. You seem awesome too and I love meeting new people in this community :)
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@krisbliss Instagram works for me! I go by a fake name on here for privacy so I followed you but my name will be different ❤️
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@Uphamia Okay great 🥰 I accepted and followed back on a request I got and I think it’s you!!
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I have been so anxious for the entire pandemic and reading this really helped me. I keep justifying the compulsions and safety behaviours, telling myself that they are whats keeping me safe from covid but it’s gotten to a point that i sometimes avoid touching my husband out of fear of catching covid. I’m always worried he’s going to bring it home. I was starting to do better but then this new variant came and I feel like I’m back at the start of the pandemic. I’m just so exhausted. I also live in Canada and everyone just wants life to go back to normal but I want the lockdowns and I want restrictions so the numbers will go down. I don’t know how to accept the uncertainty of catching covid and feel like I don’t have to but then I am depressed and not living at all. It’s been so hard but reading this discussion helped me realize I’m not alone. Thanks for that!
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- 3y
@K.Cloud I’m so glad our convo could bring you some comfort ❤️ I totally understand what you’re going through and I know it must be difficult. It’s definitely hard to find that balance between following protocols and not letting ocd take over. If you ever want to have more convos about this topic im all ears! I hope you’re doing alright and I know you’re strong and can do the work to feel better!
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- 23w
Please if someone can reply! I really just need someone to talk to. I don’t even know how to control my OCD. It honestly feels like it’s controlling me. Everyday my mind focuses on every bodily sensation I have and it’s like a broken record player, I have horrible health anxiety and my OCD just makes it worst just thinking about it everyday. It feels like everyone who I explain it to looks at me like I’m stupid/crazy. I use to be much more tame with my OCD, I use to eat things without worry, now I can’t even touch things I use to eat without worrying that I’ll get an allergic reaction (despite eating them BEFORE,,,but my mind tells me otherwise) and omg worrying about heart attacks, pulmonary issues..and I couldn’t even enjoy my own child’s birth because my mind was on high alert thinking I would hemorrhage any second or develop pre-E (complications of postpartum) I was miserable for the first couple of months of my baby’s life and I didn’t know what to do. And now, I’m pregnant with my second (4wks) and all the OCD thoughts and anxiety is coming back at me and I have no one to talk to, I feel lonely. And even if I considered taking a pill, I’d worry about being allergic to it and refusing to take it. I ruin everything for everyone. I remember I ate out one night and I started to think “you’re gonna pass out! You’re gonna pass out! (Without ever passing out before) and I had to leave! I feel like I ruin the mood for everyone when I don’t even try to, and I hate it.
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- 22w
My mom will sit and listen to me for quite a while, but she interrupts a lot and gets angry/upset. While I appreciate her passion, it's often stressful. Every time I come to her, if I even *mention* OCD, she gets frustrated and says, "Everyone deals with these issues, you know. It doesn't mean it's OCD." And I repeat, "I'm not saying my issues are unique — I'm saying the way I respond to them is a problem." But she just shakes her head and says, "Okay, I need to get back to my day." Full context, I'm an adult, and I live with my boyfriend, but I'm staying at my mom's for the next month. After living away from home for years, I went back to living with her during the pandemic, and I only recently left to live with him. Honestly, I think living with her for so long in my adulthood really messed with me and made me feel like a teenager all over again. I feel like my mental growth is stunted, and that's part of why my OCD is so bad lately. Not blaming, just noticing. She doesn't seem to understand how relieving the OCD diagnosis has been for me, because it explains so so so many things I've struggled with for years, and it's exciting to have more resources that can help me. But I think she sees it as me finding an excuse to *not* work on myself, which is just untrue. I'm not going to let OCD hold me back or use it as an excuse, but I'm also not going to pretend it's not a problem when I know it is — I was even diagnosed through NOCD. The whole point being to fix it, not use it as a crutch. When I have an issue, it's unbearable. Any issue, big or small, feels just the same. I feel a sinking feeling, my mind races, my heart beats out of my chest. I end up running to my support systems, crying, ruminating for days on end. Then, months later, the same exact issue can feel like nothing anymore, because it's no longer an obsession. I'm sure everyone deals with issues in a similar way, but I *know* there is something specific and debilitating going on with me. This is reassurance seeking, but in the face of being told I'm making a big deal out of nothing, can someone diagnosed with OCD tell me if they relate to the specific intensity of these feelings??
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- 6w
I am so incredibly tired of living life in fear. I’m in constant fear that I’m going to have a heart attack or stroke. I’m hyper aware of every sensation in my body and I’m in constant fight or flight. I’m exhausted and I just want to be normal. I received a Covid vaccine Saturday because im afraid of getting Covid but now I’m worried about the vaccine making me sick. I know it won’t I’ve had them before but my mind is just in obsessive mode. I want a good nights rest but now I’m crying and scared because I don’t feel good. I’m just so sick of life being so hard. I want to enjoy it. But then I spiral and I’m crying because I’m worried about being alone in life. Thankfully I have my mom now but I worry about the future. I’ve tried erp twice here and just can’t feel like it’s helping. I’m working with a therapist now and we are doing DBT plus starting erp. I’m nervous it won’t work again. I’m doomed to feel this way the rest of my life. It’s been almost 2 years of this constant fear, worry, and spiral. And when it’s not the health anxiety it’s awful intrusive thoughts that make me feel like a monster.
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