Man I’m trying so hard to not let my ocd obsess over covid, but I can feel myself starting to panic more and more about it. My city has now reached more cases than when the pandemic first hit, and this new wave I now actually know people personally who caught covid, including a familiar brother. There’s cases at every school in my city and nothings being done about it. A kid had covid in my brothers class so he just had to get tested. Even though everyone is vaccinated which means symptoms won’t be nearly as severe, it’s still scary catching it, and I feel myself having a lot of overwhelming thoughts of “what if it never ends?” And obsessing over everyone I loves health. I’m starting to panic about what if the older people in my life catch it and die? I obsess over my moms health a lot even though she’s a healthy person and still pretty young (40). I know covid and everything can be a hot topic for debate, and I respect some people have a different opinion on things I said, but I’m just looking for responses from people who can relate to the stress of all this. I’m so overwhelmed and the fear all my loved ones are going to die is getting worse everyday

Thankyou for sharing all of that with me, it’s comforting to know people get it, and how easy it can be for new fears to quickly develop into obsessions and than compulsions. I have so much trouble right now staying positive when I’m stuck at home, especially cause where I live in Canada our covid rates are now the highest they’ve ever been, and the death count is rapidly growing. I had a taste of freedom for a few months and now I’m back to feeling so isolated and left to just think and obsess over everything, not just covid. Anyway, I was happy to see your name responding to my post cause a while ago I saw you post something that I could really resonate with, and than I checked your profile and noticed we seemed to have a lot in common and you seemed so nice and I wanted to get to know you but y’know it’s kinda hard since you can’t message people on here 😅

@Uphamia That’s so nice of you to say! Thank you so much 💖 I’m really happy to hear that some of the things I say resonate with others 😊 and I totally empathize with what you’re going through too. I would love to talk, I’ve used Instagram for messaging before. I use my alternate ig account @krisblisssss and you can message me there anytime you’d like! Or we can talk on another platform if that works better. You seem awesome too and I love meeting new people in this community :)

@krisbliss Instagram works for me! I go by a fake name on here for privacy so I followed you but my name will be different ❤️

@Uphamia Okay great 🥰 I accepted and followed back on a request I got and I think it’s you!!

I have been so anxious for the entire pandemic and reading this really helped me. I keep justifying the compulsions and safety behaviours, telling myself that they are whats keeping me safe from covid but it’s gotten to a point that i sometimes avoid touching my husband out of fear of catching covid. I’m always worried he’s going to bring it home. I was starting to do better but then this new variant came and I feel like I’m back at the start of the pandemic. I’m just so exhausted. I also live in Canada and everyone just wants life to go back to normal but I want the lockdowns and I want restrictions so the numbers will go down. I don’t know how to accept the uncertainty of catching covid and feel like I don’t have to but then I am depressed and not living at all. It’s been so hard but reading this discussion helped me realize I’m not alone. Thanks for that!

@K.Cloud I’m so glad our convo could bring you some comfort ❤️ I totally understand what you’re going through and I know it must be difficult. It’s definitely hard to find that balance between following protocols and not letting ocd take over. If you ever want to have more convos about this topic im all ears! I hope you’re doing alright and I know you’re strong and can do the work to feel better!