Please Help I can’t take this anymore. I just went to tuck my daughter in and she snubbed my hug, she was like a little wet noodle and clearly didn’t want anything to to with me. I walked out of the room trying to fight back tears and I could hear my younger daughter telling her how rude she was for hurting my feelings. A few minutes ago she came into my room crying and apologized that she didn’t mean to do that, I told her it was fine I wasn’t mad and I understand kids just don’t want to hug there moms sometimes. I asked her if she was ok and If there was anything she needed to talk about, of course she said no and went back to her room, but I couldn’t help but feel like she was holding back. I have false memory OCD and am convinced I did something inappropriate to her 2 yrs ago. This just made it worse. Why can’t I connect with her, why does she push me away. She hates me. I have a 16 yr old as well so I know that girls can get this way but this feels different, like we share this secret that neither one will speak of. I feel like she knows what I think I did or maybe I did do it, I just don’t know anymore. I wish I never had kids, I’m such a monster, I’ve destroyed her.

Your daughter doesn’t hate you . Your daughter loves you . There are times when I didn’t want to be bothered with my parents . I believe that you’re in your head a lot and you’re self condemning yourself . You are guilt tripping yourself and imposing it on your daughter . When you’re in your head a lot and battling something like that , you feel as if you’re daughter knows exactly what’s going on and that’s why she is acting that way . Your daughter may see that you are bothered or going through something , but unless you say exactly what it is , she doesn’t know . She can only assume . With an issue like OCD , you definitely have to open your mouth and express it to her for her to know and sympathize . Most people who recognize OCD either have OCD , are counselors , or know someone with OCD . I don’t believe your daughter thinks anything of you or anything that you thought you’ve done wrong . You’re obviously a great mother who desires to be loved by her children . Don’t focus on the fears and lies in your mind . Focus on truth . You’re a mother of beautiful children that love and need you . Also , at certain ages kids go through the isolation and wanting privacy stage . I know I did . Continue to love organically and enjoy your children . Find ways to bond . You love your kids . You haven’t destroyed her . She loves you too !

I have false memory ocd too. I won’t reassure you but I will say I know how real it feels. You feel like at any moment there is going to be real proof. You keep looking for any evidence for it or against it. Keep resisting compulsions. Keep working towards your values

I've had false memory OCD too. And OCD about things that I actually did that were terrible. And I can tell the difference. The OCD memories are different. Remember that. A little reassurance is necessary, but it is so important that you get therapy. Are you starting with NOCD soon? Are you going to support groups? There are sexual content suppprt groups!!!