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- 3y
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- 3y
Your daughter doesn’t hate you . Your daughter loves you . There are times when I didn’t want to be bothered with my parents . I believe that you’re in your head a lot and you’re self condemning yourself . You are guilt tripping yourself and imposing it on your daughter . When you’re in your head a lot and battling something like that , you feel as if you’re daughter knows exactly what’s going on and that’s why she is acting that way . Your daughter may see that you are bothered or going through something , but unless you say exactly what it is , she doesn’t know . She can only assume . With an issue like OCD , you definitely have to open your mouth and express it to her for her to know and sympathize . Most people who recognize OCD either have OCD , are counselors , or know someone with OCD . I don’t believe your daughter thinks anything of you or anything that you thought you’ve done wrong . You’re obviously a great mother who desires to be loved by her children . Don’t focus on the fears and lies in your mind . Focus on truth . You’re a mother of beautiful children that love and need you . Also , at certain ages kids go through the isolation and wanting privacy stage . I know I did . Continue to love organically and enjoy your children . Find ways to bond . You love your kids . You haven’t destroyed her . She loves you too !
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- 3y
I have false memory ocd too. I won’t reassure you but I will say I know how real it feels. You feel like at any moment there is going to be real proof. You keep looking for any evidence for it or against it. Keep resisting compulsions. Keep working towards your values
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- 3y
I've had false memory OCD too. And OCD about things that I actually did that were terrible. And I can tell the difference. The OCD memories are different. Remember that. A little reassurance is necessary, but it is so important that you get therapy. Are you starting with NOCD soon? Are you going to support groups? There are sexual content suppprt groups!!!
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- 24w
Please comment. Just say if follows along the OCD pattern or not. I don't need reassurance per se! My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt/a**aulted her that I might as well do something else to hurt because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it because my mind told me I had hurt her already ("my mind literally made me question what to do and I guess the only thing I could come up with was using my elbow) and causing another feeling but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side/thigh area. Which caused another very unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. And I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me but my therapist says it's all OCD. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD? This has all caused me a great amount of anxiety. I feel like a terrible person and mom. I just need help knowing if this is OCD. Not wanting reassurance. Just wanting to know if this lines up with the POCD I've been diagnosed with by my current therapist.
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- 24w
Just a little side note: I know this post has been made MANY times by me. However, I had a therapist respond to my post today saying that I need to reach out to my therapist on this because the context was not clear. This made me more stressed and ruminate more. It's not the therapist fault; but not I wonder if I'm really the monster. I'm a Christian mom who feels like I've ruined my life. My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt her that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow) but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side area. Which caused another groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me. PLEASE tell me if I am a monster. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD?
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- 20w
TW- POCD people only please. Am I a criminal hiding behind a diagnosis? I woke up in the middle of the night breathing and I was having groinals because she laying across me. My mind told me I had already hurt her so might as well do something else. I then was like well I have nothing to lose and I had to think of what to do. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards her groin area to cause a feeling. Well I did that and my elbow touched her groin and caused an unwanted feeling. I then immediately asked my child to move. After that, I went back to sleep but I believe in a state of shock as to what happened. I woke up panicking completely thinking I have done ruined my life. I was going to prison and would lose my child. Since then, I haven't stopped ruminating. I have had days where I feel okay, but then there are days where I can't stop crying. Thinking I don't deserve my child, and I deserve to be in the ground. I was on a new medication that was causing me to spiral and giving me insomnia during this time. I wasn't getting much sleep at all. Since then, I've slept on the floor, and I eventually got my child to sleep in their own bed to avoid this happening again. I got off the medication and feel so much better with my thoughts and sleeping so much better. My daughter tells me how wonderful I am often, but I don't feel that I even deserve to celebrate Mother's Day this year. I'm not a good mom. I was four months ago before I spiraled. What's wrong with me? (edited)
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