Well I really thought this was ocd for 10 years but I’m realizing I’ve been in denial this whole time what made me hang on to it so long I think was because at one point I did like girls but with how much avoiding I do now and the suicidal thoughts at hand how much I don’t want to show my face hats off to the actual gay people out there takes some serious guts to come out that will be my next part of my journey not looking for response here just needed somewhere to vent I really hope you all find peace though!

Scared this will be me with my trans OCD (it it‘s OCD)

I really think that it is true what a person said on this page who thought she is trans but turned out to be not. She said, if you are trans you are since childhood and you do not even know as a child that you are actually a girl. You would think the whole time you are a boy and would be confused one day that you are not. If you identified as a girl in childhood (or even later) you would not be trans and it is something else. There is a thing named bi-gender but I guess you would also feel that since childhood.

@Bimmi Thank you .