borispasov
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- 3y
JanajanaJanajana
- Date posted
- 3y
It was the most scary thing that happened to myself. Now I look in the mirror and feel like a man. If this is OCD than this is cruel. I used to feel and love Beeing a women.
JanajanaJanajana
- Date posted
- 3y
Yes but the problem is I almost focus on everything because my gender is what I was so confident about in the past. I absolutely loved giving other girl compliments, doing my nails, even if it was to impress boys I still absolutely loved it. But now everything I used to do feels fake and i can’t take my focus away bebaust Beeing a girl played such a big role for me
Chad2Chad2
- Date posted
- 3y
Definitely. The worst of my thoughts are the ones that make me question what I truly believe in.
kate2010kate2010
- Date posted
- 3y
I also look at myself in the mirror as at another person. as if the body had been left there a few months ago, but inside was another person. I look in the mirror and want to return to myself. but after the hell that gave me ocd, it seems that this is no longer possible. this is the biggest loss in my life. losing yourself. this is scary
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
OCD latches onto things that matter to us. Instead of dwelling on that really helpful articles and info from Dr Greenberg on rumination as well as Dr Reid Wilson on YouTube about how to do the work. I would suggest really r 1st noticing the anxiety, distress, and discomfort and letting those feelings of anxiety, fear, etc. be there.This is a perfect time to as I like to say "practice" ERP. Practice not analyzing any of those points you mentioned and place your attention on this present moment. Feel your feet on the ground, take a deep breathe, go for a walk, read, go hangout with a close companion, or play a sport. Not avoiding the discomfort, but choosing to do things you want to do and not give any attention to dwelling on that.The most important part being the response prevention. Not easy, but part of the work. When this type of situation occurs and we are in environments in which we are organically exposed to distress, use this as an opportunity to practice doing the work! This allows for two things; showing yourself you can handle and tolerate it, and also letting your body know that although you feel uncomfortable you are willing to keep doing whatever it is you are doing and getting on with your day! This is the foundation!
JanajanaJanajana
- Date posted
- 3y
How do I decide what I want or do not want with my OCD in the first place?
Piper MontanaPiper Montana
- Date posted
- 3y
That kinda of the point of what it does
Piper MontanaPiper Montana
- Date posted
- 3y
Same
Piper MontanaPiper Montana
- Date posted
- 3y
When I’m all dress up in a dress and feeling pretty I can’t stop looking in the mirror. Now I look at myself and my face looks boyish and I hate it.
JanajanaJanajana
- Date posted
- 3y
Do you also have a hard time liking girly things and all that stuff, because I do now.
JanajanaJanajana
- Date posted
- 3y
Like I have to pretend Beeing a girl and liking that stuff. I have never in my life been this way ,of course I had days where I liked Beeing more masculine but I was the most feminine women I know and now it‘s like someone changed my brain to a male one.
Piper MontanaPiper Montana
- Date posted
- 3y
Yes I agree. Never in my life have I question my gender. I loved wearing dresses and skirts as a kid but I also loved playing in the dirt. When I was little I always wanted to be the mom when playing house, I ignored video games for a while like super Mario bros being I couldn’t be peach but now I love them
JanajanaJanajana
- Date posted
- 3y
For me it is like I now like boy things more and are more interested in them, wanting to act like a boy and all that stuff, why is this happening to me.
Piper MontanaPiper Montana
- Date posted
- 3y
Because your brain is focusing on it so hard. Your brain won’t listen to logic because the logic doesn’t make sense to the brain. For ex. I hate it when people call me a guy in video games and I have to tell them that I am a girl or when someone calls me they, I’m like “you can call me by my she/her pronouns thank you very much”
Piper MontanaPiper Montana
- Date posted
- 3y
But my brain rewinds that and makes it hard to deal with
Piper MontanaPiper Montana
- Date posted
- 3y
I started taking quizzes that was like”guess my gender” they came back with cis gender woman
Maybe,MaybeNotMaybe,MaybeNot
- Date posted
- 3y
Yep
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 24w
Doubts about self expression
This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??
LizM99
- Date posted
- 21w
Is this something OCD does?
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
user36373738
- Date posted
- 20w
Is this relatable pls help
Do you ever feel like you wonder if your ocd would be less if you were with someone else? Or would it be better if you were with someone else? I’m really upset because I used to be able to enjoy myself even with the anxiety and now it’s like i am just analyzing and I don’t have feelings and I’m irritated because there’s things that frustrate me about him that I don’t like and my brain says if I was with someone else I would be able to deal with those things better and that we just aren’t right for each other. And the thoughts that used to make me anxious about breaking up don’t like it’s really me that feels it. I know no relationship is perfect but it’s like my brain keeps saying with someone else I wouldn’t feel like this or I would but I’d be able to handle it better. It feels like I have to just start fresh with someone new cause the ocd got too into this to the point where I don’t feel or even know what’s real. It feels like fear and anxiety and just being so into this has just made me feel not into this anymore but idk if I’m thinking right. It’s also just warped the way I see him like I only see the negatives and my brain keeps saying you don’t feel this cause it’s wrong. And it’s depressing bc of how happy and safe I used to feel. I’m supposed to see him soon and it’s like I want to but also don’t because I feel like things have changed unless that’s just something I made in my head and cause I don’t feel the feelings I used to. But then I think I will just be this way with someone else but then my brain says otherwise and it’s so confusing. People keep telling me not to make decisions because I’m fogged but it feels like I’m not. Like my brain is manipulating me. And also like all the things I used to like I’ve somehow turned into like distaste which is so upsetting. I would like to think this is just ocd taking control and confusing me and distorting my perspective but I’m scared it’s not and that my feelings are gone. Has anyone experienced this but it was still ocd?
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