Can ocd make you feel like you arent yourself anymore

That kinda of the point of what it does

It was the most scary thing that happened to myself. Now I look in the mirror and feel like a man. If this is OCD than this is cruel. I used to feel and love Beeing a women.

Same

When I’m all dress up in a dress and feeling pretty I can’t stop looking in the mirror. Now I look at myself and my face looks boyish and I hate it.

Do you also have a hard time liking girly things and all that stuff, because I do now.

Like I have to pretend Beeing a girl and liking that stuff. I have never in my life been this way ,of course I had days where I liked Beeing more masculine but I was the most feminine women I know and now it‘s like someone changed my brain to a male one.

Yes I agree. Never in my life have I question my gender. I loved wearing dresses and skirts as a kid but I also loved playing in the dirt. When I was little I always wanted to be the mom when playing house, I ignored video games for a while like super Mario bros being I couldn’t be peach but now I love them

For me it is like I now like boy things more and are more interested in them, wanting to act like a boy and all that stuff, why is this happening to me.

Because your brain is focusing on it so hard. Your brain won’t listen to logic because the logic doesn’t make sense to the brain. For ex. I hate it when people call me a guy in video games and I have to tell them that I am a girl or when someone calls me they, I’m like “you can call me by my she/her pronouns thank you very much”

But my brain rewinds that and makes it hard to deal with

I started taking quizzes that was like”guess my gender” they came back with cis gender woman

Yes but the problem is I almost focus on everything because my gender is what I was so confident about in the past. I absolutely loved giving other girl compliments, doing my nails, even if it was to impress boys I still absolutely loved it. But now everything I used to do feels fake and i can’t take my focus away bebaust Beeing a girl played such a big role for me

I am not myself anymore. I feel like a new me. It does not feel good and I am sad all the time but I cannot go back it seems. It feels like a lie what I was before.

Definitely. The worst of my thoughts are the ones that make me question what I truly believe in.

I also look at myself in the mirror as at another person. as if the body had been left there a few months ago, but inside was another person. I look in the mirror and want to return to myself. but after the hell that gave me ocd, it seems that this is no longer possible. this is the biggest loss in my life. losing yourself. this is scary

Yep

OCD latches onto things that matter to us. Instead of dwelling on that really helpful articles and info from Dr Greenberg on rumination as well as Dr Reid Wilson on YouTube about how to do the work. I would suggest really r 1st noticing the anxiety, distress, and discomfort and letting those feelings of anxiety, fear, etc. be there.This is a perfect time to as I like to say "practice" ERP. Practice not analyzing any of those points you mentioned and place your attention on this present moment. Feel your feet on the ground, take a deep breathe, go for a walk, read, go hangout with a close companion, or play a sport. Not avoiding the discomfort, but choosing to do things you want to do and not give any attention to dwelling on that.The most important part being the response prevention. Not easy, but part of the work. When this type of situation occurs and we are in environments in which we are organically exposed to distress, use this as an opportunity to practice doing the work! This allows for two things; showing yourself you can handle and tolerate it, and also letting your body know that although you feel uncomfortable you are willing to keep doing whatever it is you are doing and getting on with your day! This is the foundation!