Don’t let the moments that feel too real control you. I know It’s easier said than done. Have you thought about putting yourself out there? I feel like doing so you’ll be able to get a sense that your anxiety is lying to you! Putting yourself out there in a sense is like a form of ERP. No matter what you just continue to talk, go out on dates, and date people. Doing that more you are exposing yourself to your fear and you’ll become less afraid. This is TMI but the reason this all started for me was a situation with my bf where I thought he SA me. I told myself and my mom told me I shouldn’t be having sex. And I didn’t listen the first 2 times I would be afraid and go into a spiral. So I stopped completely for 2 months Than I realized I need to get over this fear of having sex because I enjoy sex and I’m not going to let that or my POCD stop me. I had lots of thoughts going on in my head. It was really hard at first than I started to feel less and less fear. I just let the thoughts be and I would ruminate a little but I would stop. The point I’m trying to tell you is just expose yourself to it! Love is beautiful and you deserve to experience that!