I need to say this once again, don't do your compulsions. Letting go of my compulsions certainly opened a door to long term relief. I used to grab onto any compulsions I could, let it be google searching, ruminating or seeking reassurance. Recently, I've been doing my best in resisting my urges, and the upsides are extraordinary. Though I would fail to resist once in a while, one fail doesn't indicate complete failure. This is a long journey, I don't have to worry about small mistakes. Recently, my thoughts have been about harming myself to _____, but hey, it doesn't matter. Today, I was triggered by a tiktok I'be stumbled upon, but I was ruminating way less than previous episodes. Nowadays, I never google search or seek reassurance from others. Though it's hard to let go of rumination, progress is progress and I'm doing great 👍 Compulsions are the reason your OCD is alive, by letting go of them, you are opening the door to immense relief, for the long term. It may not be full recovery for me, but I can still carry on day-to-day chores and live my life! ❤️ Easier said than done, but it doesn't have to all happen overnight. Keep trying, resist your compulsions until the urge subsides, then you'll realise that you don't need compulsions, you are fine on your own.