just confessed at the worst Damn time I’m so annoyed with myself literally tonight something quite bad happened in my boyfriends family and I call him to confess something from the past and it just really upset him because of what happened and then I called him just to tell him this and I’m so angry with myself I knew it was a bad idea but I was anxious and being selfish to relieve my own anxiety I’m scared I’m going to ruin everything with this. I just need to vent I know it’s all my fault but it’s so hard to live like this sometimes I am so mad at myself for being insensitive and selfish like this. He knows im like this and have ocd and anxiety but idk if he understands the extent of how this controls my brain and how I think and how it’s leads me to act so if he doesn’t break up w me or something I wanna have him read something about it but god I suck for doing this I feel like he deserves way better.

I have this feeling a lot too, it’s hard because even though he’s going through something, OCD always pushes us to act impulsively, you’re not a bad person, you just need to try and seek professional help for your OCD

Hey , I wouldn’t over react to the situation because it’s going to heighten your anxiety . I’m hoping that you are able to sit down with him and explain to severity of your OCD because that would be helpful . I believe he’ll have some understanding in regards to your situation especially if he really likes/loves you . Now that you know confessing in this manner can be a compulsion , you’re able to make better decisions moving forward . The hardest part about OCD is giving in to our compulsions . It’s so much easier said than done . You telling him something about the past could have been important to discuss because it involved your relationship . Be proud of yourself for discussing the manner and showing honesty regardless of how old the situation is . Try to look at the bright side of this . When you feel anxious and you start spiraling take a deep breath , fix your focus and come back to the situation . Sometimes , it’s good to get some time away from the situations so that you can make better judgment. Don’t give in to every compulsion as it is very unhealthy. As you do counseling , you’ll be able to distinguish the compulsion and channel your focus . I hope that all is well with your relationship. Don’t over react to it . Take a breather and allow yourself some grace .

It’s not intentional . You weren’t trying to dismiss his issue and just bombard him with your own issue . When your anxiety is heighten , we tend to just give immediately into our compulsion . Give your self some slack . Hopefully he understands . Don’t worry