Does anyone ever have thoughts on “could have been/happen” moments? I always (use to be daily for about 2 years) get this thought that I’m a punk because I turned down a fight (apon reflection: that I may have started) at 17 (I am now 27). Til this day I still try to prove myself to myself. I use to take boxing classes but I have a injury. So as long as I’m not practicing fighting than I feel like a punk. Anyone experience something similar?

I’ve told them, they usually are like “oh ok”. My family doesn’t know how to support me and I don’t know what support I would like.

@Baby J Yeah that’s definitely not encouraging. I’d say continue counseling , if you haven’t already . Find a small group of friends , even on here that’ll be willing to communicate daily and empathize .

Thanks same to you! I have a week before my evaluation. And the very next day is a huge exposure before I get treatment but I can't avoid it. Thank you so much.

@Catperson10 Anytime!

Good to know. I fear embarrassment if friends or family find out about the situation. As if everyone will shun me

I do that all of the time . Currently don’t I enjoy where I am in life right now , so I constantly ask myself about other paths i could have taken in life

@Junior96! Me too! I keep doing this over and over and over for like 15 years now. I've changed ideas on what I want to do like 10x now I'm now realizing maybe I need ERP for that too and that's why the other therapy never helped!

@Catperson10 Yeah , so you know exactly how discouraging and frustrating it is . Moving forward , I’m always nervous about making another financial mistake in regard to career or job related

@Junior96! Me too. 2020 was going to be my career focus year but we all know how that went. I really needed to start this therapy way before the pandemic though.

@Junior96! I spent a lot too. The second time I went to school I'm still paying for it but cannot even use the degree because the hours required would be bad for my mental health.

@Catperson10 Yeah that’s a lot to take in . The simplest advice that I could give is Trust God and take each day one day at a time . Many times , we just need to focus on what we can control . It’s so hard to stay focus , but we really have to make healthier decisions. I’ll be the first to start and take my own advice !

@Junior96! That's very true. I'm trying to trust that it will happen in its own time not everyone elses timeline. Yes let's both take this advice!

I can guarantee you that you are beautiful in your dress . Don’t talk about yourself like that . Don’t believe the lies OCD puts in your mind .

@Junior96! Thank you! What’s upsetting is my ocd was telling me the lies while I was dress shopping so I went with one that I didn’t love that felt “safe” to my ocd but was so wrong for me. And now I have so much regret that i listened to that voice, didn’t listen to my self doubt after buying it, and robbed myself of such a great moment

Yes I have an OCD therapist . She specializes is spiritual ocd which is my issue that I’m dealing with . She’s from Georgia , where im from . Her name is Shawntell Phoenix Martin . I haven’t even been to her but only twice . That was about 2 months ago .

I’ve just learned by experience and take a lot of my wife’s advice . She seems to rationalize a lot better than I do 😂

Yeah that’s what I’m saying . I have a counselor through the app . I just haven’t been in a while because of some minor setbacks , however it hasn’t stopped me from learning and growing . My wife does an amazing job with supporting me and giving me truth to focus on .

I should have explained the counseling thing better . Now that I reread it , it does seem like I was referring to someone that I physically go and see here in Ga . But no , she’s from NOCD and she also lives in Ga .

@Junior96! I’m glad you have a supporting wife.

I haven’t looked on here yet

@Baby J Got you. Hope it goes well for you

@Baby J You should book your free call. I did and I have my first appointment tomorrow!

@Junior96! It has given me real hope

@ECM17 Hey that’s awesome ! Honestly happy for you !

@ECM17 I think I will wait. Lost my job due to the chip shortage so I can’t afford it. I’ve use the free call once I can make a commitment

@Baby J Ok. So sorry to hear that. I wish you good luck with the job and therapist search. It will all work out (funny how it’s easy to say that to someone else when I am having a hard time believing that myself)

@ECM17 IKR 😂 it’s the thought that counts . Majority of what I say to others , I don’t even practice myself . Easy to say it but hard to apply it