lh2000
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- 3y
Bookworm91Bookworm91
- Date posted
- 3y
Yes. Frequently. I looked like the love child of an Autistic person and a schizophrenic. And please believe me I’m not making fun of either I’m just saying that because I know that people in the autism spectrum sometimes getting violent and they hit themselves and people who are schizophrenic depending on what it is sometimes talk to themselves and that’s what I do so that’s why I said that I don’t want people thinking I’m making fun of them because I wouldn’t wish that on anyone
SufferingSuffering
- Date posted
- 3y
Yep only when my ocd gets really bad. I hit so the thoughts go away..
mybrainxmylovemybrainxmylove
- Date posted
- 3y
I quite literally beat myself up. Typically it’s when I’m feeling overwhelmed, but I also have a lot of “excess” energy and it seems like pain is the only thing that’ll match that intensity. I’m working with a therapist to try and stop doing it, but it’s been rocky since I’ve been doing it for so long.
gdelacruzmgdelacruzm
- Date posted
- 3y
This is the compulsion that made me go into the research frenzy that landed me understanding I probably have OCD.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
Have done the same in the past couple of years when very overwhelmed with stress or anxiety. Happened alot during the covid lockdown. Has been months that I’ve been harm free but it has been work to get here. Be strong and do what you can to resist the draw to hit yourself. It becomes a maladaptive coping mechanism and in my case morphed into hitting my arms and legs until they were severely bruised. The wake up call with the head hitting was when i ended up with an ocular migraine a few hours after hitting my head and was terrified that I caused a detached retina. Oddly enough, i had never felt the desire to hit myself until I had been on zoloft for a year or so. Not sure if there is a connection or just coincidence.
lh2000lh2000
- Date posted
- 3y
Yeah I’ve always hit myself. It’s comforting to know I’m not the only one. I usually hit myself in the head or hip bones. I used to self harm in a different way in early middle school (don’t want to trigger anyone so I won’t specify how) but then I eventually stopped. But recently I’ve felt close to relapse. I would rather hit myself than do that again.
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