lh2000
- Date posted
- 3y
Bookworm91Bookworm91
- Date posted
- 3y
Yes. Frequently. I looked like the love child of an Autistic person and a schizophrenic. And please believe me I’m not making fun of either I’m just saying that because I know that people in the autism spectrum sometimes getting violent and they hit themselves and people who are schizophrenic depending on what it is sometimes talk to themselves and that’s what I do so that’s why I said that I don’t want people thinking I’m making fun of them because I wouldn’t wish that on anyone
SufferingSuffering
- Date posted
- 3y
Yep only when my ocd gets really bad. I hit so the thoughts go away..
mybrainxmylovemybrainxmylove
- Date posted
- 3y
I quite literally beat myself up. Typically it’s when I’m feeling overwhelmed, but I also have a lot of “excess” energy and it seems like pain is the only thing that’ll match that intensity. I’m working with a therapist to try and stop doing it, but it’s been rocky since I’ve been doing it for so long.
gdelacruzmgdelacruzm
- Date posted
- 3y
This is the compulsion that made me go into the research frenzy that landed me understanding I probably have OCD.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
Have done the same in the past couple of years when very overwhelmed with stress or anxiety. Happened alot during the covid lockdown. Has been months that I’ve been harm free but it has been work to get here. Be strong and do what you can to resist the draw to hit yourself. It becomes a maladaptive coping mechanism and in my case morphed into hitting my arms and legs until they were severely bruised. The wake up call with the head hitting was when i ended up with an ocular migraine a few hours after hitting my head and was terrified that I caused a detached retina. Oddly enough, i had never felt the desire to hit myself until I had been on zoloft for a year or so. Not sure if there is a connection or just coincidence.
lh2000lh2000
- Date posted
- 3y
Yeah I’ve always hit myself. It’s comforting to know I’m not the only one. I usually hit myself in the head or hip bones. I used to self harm in a different way in early middle school (don’t want to trigger anyone so I won’t specify how) but then I eventually stopped. But recently I’ve felt close to relapse. I would rather hit myself than do that again.
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dee012
- Date posted
- 24w
anyone else? If not pls help
TW// nsfw and 18 up pls i can self pleasure without even realizing it. not like full blown, but it just happens when i dissociate and think about past flings or whenever im bored. just like casual touching myself. sometimes it happens when im scrolling on my phone or when im doing school work. what sucks is sometimes kids will pop up on my phone and for example today i was doing studies on a mental health in children. when i came to, basically becoming fully aware, i was like wtf. because of what was on my screen and what i was researching. it freaked me out really bad and i know it wasn’t with any bad intent it just makes me feel bad if that makes sense. like i dissociate basically and i am doing the touching like on pilot mode if that makes sense so whatever content on my phone or schoolwork isn’t even associated with the act. It just makes me feel like i was doing it to whatever was on my screen which ik I wasn’t bc I would’ve been aware and freaked tf out but I still am freaking out. this has happened before and I just move on bc I know what I was doing and like it wasn’t even a compulsion like “oh am I attracted to this?” Like the compulsions that come with sexual ocd. It was just autopilot dissociative self touching and I just was zoning out while doing my work. idk if this makes sense I probably sound like a monster. I keep having what if thoughts like what if I was doing it to that or what if I am a monster and it’s that bad to the point where I am unaware
allyc_
- Date posted
- 22w
i guess i’m just needing reassurance..
but is it OCD if when i get a thought that makes me anxious i have to hit my head a certain number of times to get it out of my head to relive my brain that everything is fine now (doesn’t always help though). or am i just being dramatic?
chillgirl
- Date posted
- 14w
counting
does anyone else just count for no reason? like their steps or how many times they move. just a few minutes ago i was scratching an itch on my leg and and caught myself counting how many times i scratched😂😂 and recently i’ve just been counting to ten randomly just in my head it’s so random or if i catch myself tapping on something i tap ten times. i got rid of it kind of like i used to do things 37 times or 3 times or 7 times 😂 3 and 7 or just the number 37 was the number for about like 10 months it was BAD. and i also have to turn on a light switch the right way but i don’t know what the right way is tho and it never feels right so i have to literally stop myself and walk away but i usually end up coming back cs ill think about like an hour from then and how ill have this weight on me because i didn’t turn the light switch the right way or the right amount of times but then i literally usually always forget about it so like idk am i weird orrrr does anyone else do thissss 😬😬😬😬
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