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- 3y
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- 3y
I feel like you are describing my life. It’s 8:15am where I stay and instead of being up im still in bed. It’s painful to move. I am exhausted from all the overthinking. Worse I have a 17 month baby. All we can hope for is a miracle that soon we will feel better. Like our old selfs. Stay strong and we are hopeful this season will pass.
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- 3y
God bless your baby . We have a 2months old baby . Having OCD makes parenting so hard for me . I’m being selfish because of my moods , depressions and anxieties . It impacts me because I don’t even have a desire to parent or to spend time with my wife and child . I just want to lie down and be isolated . I completely understand your situation and I’ll be praying for you
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- 3y
I’m sorry about that, I’ve read a lot of stories from people with Post Partum OCD, the stress and responsibility of a new born baby is difficult but coupled with OCD, I can’t even imagine. Just know I’m rooting for you and can tell how strong you are, sending my best!
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- 3y
@OCDHaver Hey , that means a lot ! I’m rooting for you as well . I’ve noticed your journal entries are being posted frequently. Look forward to seeing my comment on it daily . I’m here for you ! We all are ! We’re in this together!
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- 3y
Hey , I can relate as well . I’m going through the same thing . Wanting comfort and constant reassurance is what comes with OCD . We just have to learn how to not entertain it . I understand the constant regrets and revisiting of the past because I do the same thing . Analyzing the old positives in my life makes me hate the new current stage of my life . I always use words such as “ I wish , I miss when .. , or even how come I’m not like this anymore..” . Those phrases and words give room for the OCD to bully us even more . We have to take what’s in front of us , trust the process , learn and become stronger than ever before . Find things , if at all possible , that’s going to enhance your mood and motivation . You have to write down and brainstorms things that you enjoy and go enjoy it ! This is a a process but I encourage you to remain strong . It’s worth it . Let’s not let our present impact our future . Lord willing , our future is brighter and bigger . It’s how we choose to approach this trial and tribulation which determines our character , future and victory!
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- 3y
Reading this has lifted my mood. Going to follow your advise and start writing things and carrying them out. And stop dwelling on the past. As much as the present hurts, we can alter it by our thoughts. Easy said then done, but we have to be determined. Change is within us. Thank you for your encouraging words. I would also love to form some support group. Knowing you are not alone makes one not feel isolated and doomed.
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- 3y
@Victorious And this is why I like to encourage people . Although , I’m going through a lot , you honestly made my night because you are encouraged and inspired to do better . This is awesome ! And yes , please make support groups . I believe it’s just an addition to the individual ERP that we all get . It enhances the help . I’d love to have my wife alongside because she’ll really get insight on what I’m going through . She’s such a blessing , howeve at times , she’s not able to understand. Totally not her fault . Support group would be ideal !
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Also , if I could converse with you all every day and make friends so that we get through this together , I would ! I look forward to certain posts because it gives me the opportunity to encourage or even make someone smile ! I’m learning that in spite of what I’m going through , I’m able to help so many people . You wouldn’t believe the stories and people I’ve met . It’s amazing . It’s truly a blessing to encounter people who understand you and want the best for you . Everyone is empathizing together . It’s beautiful. Don’t let this define you !
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- 3y
I’m so glad you’re going to be starting treatment with an ocd specialist soon. I know waiting to start can feel like the worst part. In the mean time, you may want to buy an ocd workbook, like The Mindfulness Workbook for OCD. That way you can be prepared for your sessions and feel like you’re doing something to help yourself as you wait. Things will get better with treatment. This is a tough illness but it’s also very treatable. Especially when addressed early on.
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- 3y
Thank you, I hope everything goes well this next month
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It will !
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- 24w
Lately, my mood shifts so frequently. A couple of minutes ago, I got triggered and decided that instead of doing a compulsion, I'd write in my journal (since I haven't done that in a while). But after writing not even half a page... I'm okay? Well, sorta! 😭 I'm experiencing a resurgence in old obsessions, which is disappointing. A couple of weeks back, I was doing a lot better, but now it's just one thing after another. Really wish therapy was more affordable. I'm already seeing my psychiatrist, but she wants me to see a specialist as well. When I think about living with this for the rest of my life, I can get a little emotional. I know it'll get easier to manage as time passes, and it might not even affect me in the future, but right now...? It's a lot of work I'll need to do to overcome this. I'm willing to do it, but I get discouraged at times... But that's enough of my little vent! I hope anyone who reads this is doing okay. Hang in there 🤍
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- 18w
i’ve just been feeling so off lately. i’m okay right now, but a couple hours ago i was in this mood where i felt anxiety creeping up. like i will feel like there’s danger when there isn’t. i just get this really uncomfortable feeling that something feels wrong even when it isn’t. and i’ve been feeling derealization/depersonalization. just really disconnected from myself and the world. i’ve also been unmotivated to where there are times when the thought of doing things upsets me. and i’ve been having existential thoughts that do not mesh well with harm ocd. i get the thought “if people aren’t real then it’s okay to hurt them”. it sucks because there are times where i just don’t even care to ruminate and find reassurance that that’s not the case. furthermore, i’ve just been really aware of my existence. i will get moments where i’m so aware of my existence and it freaks me out. like the fact that i’m a living human being is crazy to me. then there are times when i’m not even anxious about anything which then has me questioning and ruminating on that because i ALWAYS have something i’m worrying about. i’ve also been feeling really nostalgic and bittersweet of the good memories from the past. i keep thinking about good times i’ve had and really wishing i could relive it. for example, last summer was a pretty good summer even with my ocd. and i just wish i could relive some of those moments, but i obviously can’t. and it’s been upsetting me because this month has been shitty with my anxiety. as for an update with my room change to those of you curious, i still have anxiety over it and my mom is taking it as me being ungrateful with what i have when it’s my ocd making a huge deal of it. that upsets me especially since i’ve told her what’s been going on and she was really understanding of it. anyways, life has just been a bit much and i’ve been dealing with more to my anxiety that i don’t appreciate. while worrying about constantly throwing up with my contamination ocd is incredibly exhausting, it’s so normal to me that i’m used to it. but when my harm ocd kicks in along with other themes that aren’t usually common for me, i freak out and feel like i’m going insane. i genuinely wonder how people have dealt with taboo topics of ocd without treatment for years on end. i’ve had harm intrusive thoughts since i was little, but it didn’t get to any extreme until 2023. i feel like i’m drowning in it when it decides to hit me and the thought of having to deal with it for the rest of my life?? i’m scared something in me will flip and i’ll become what my thoughts are telling me i am. i apologize for the mixed thoughts that are all over the place but i feel safe posting on here about it and want to hear how y’all are doing
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- 15w
(Long post warning) Hi, I’ve been struggling with severe OCD for six years now. it started in 2019 with my theme being getting sick/emetophobia. it devastated my life. I almost didn’t graduate high school from it. I remember washing my hands for three hours one day until they were nearly bloody while crying and asking why I could not stop doing it. I remember id have to write and rewrite sentences when I did my English homework and that’s why I nearly failed that class. I remember how I would spend up to thirty minutes to an hour pacing the halls of my apartment while my mom was asleep until I neutralized the thoughts about throwing up and I could finally go to bed. I don’t know when it happened, but my theme switched. Sometimes in late 2020 or early 2021, it switched to POCD. It started with a single thought, and I focused on it and it’s been my theme since then for four years. It has been absolutely destroying me. I feel so disgusted and lost and just tired. My compulsions are severe now. I thought they were bad before, but now they’re ten times worse. I can’t eat, drink, change my clothes, walk, or even do things on my phone normally. I’ve developed so many mental compulsions that it’s so intricate and complicated yet at the same time I’ve done them so much that they’ve become normal. An example I have is if im putting on a shirt and I have a “bad” thought, I have to take it off and put it back on two more times (that’ll make it 3 times I put the shirt back on - odd numbers are my safe number). I have to have a good thought on the third time otherwise I have to take it off and put it on two more times to make it five times I put on that shirt. If not that then I just put on a different shirt because the original is now tainted with my bad thought. I can’t open apps on my phone. It’s with the numbers again. If I open TikTok once while having a bad thought - I have to close it and open it two more times and so on. Sometimes I do it up to 30 times. So I just don’t do things usually. I don’t turn on the TV because I know I’ll redo it. I don’t open a book or grab it off my shelf because I’ll have to repeat the action. I can’t even lay in bed without getting up and redoing it even if im exhausted. I just feel so helpless. I don’t know what to do. I feel disgusting and even now my minds screaming at me that I am dirty and what I think is true. I just wish I was free of this, I wish I could just live my life. I’ve wasted hours and days because of my compulsions. I mask it so well around my friends. I don’t do them in front of anyone or I’ve learned to hide it well. But when im back home alone, it goes haywire. I just want to live again.
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