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- 3y
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I understand what you’re going through I am dealing with a similar thing. I didn’t hurt anyone and in the grand scheme of things I am extremely fortunate, but I am fixated on one mistake right now that I cannot fix or change. It’s eating me up
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- 3y
good to know I am not alone. It’s also like I know people have made these mistakes before and I wouldn’t judge them or treat them like I’m treating myself and I know people who have made these mistakes tend not to think twice about them but I can’t let it go. I just wish I could change the past
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We can get through this. We just have to have compassion for ourselves.
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- 3y
@G :) This!!!! I beat myself up for everything I do but I would never think twice if someone else did it
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- 3y
I totally understand but you can’t let your anxiety and ocd win. You deserve better than that
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@G :) It’s so hard. I bought a wedding dress that I hated and was 6 sizes too big and never said anything. I had such anxiety over it but told myself it was just that. The seamstress couldn’t make it fit and I was a wrinkly potato sack on my own wedding day. Now we got our photos back and I am devastated by how apparent it is. So much anxiety now and nothing I can do to fix it
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- 3y
OCD always gets sticky during our most stressful times. Knowing this helps a lot, because you'll eventually learn that you might have more intrusive thoughts during emotionally stressful events. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad to write down some worst-case scenarios when going through your harder moments. Write down what your mistakes will do to your future, but also remember that ruminating and trying to fix our past will not help us move forward into our future. Accept yourself as who you are today, not who you used to be. That person isn't YOU anymore.
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- 20w
So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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- 13w
im seeing everyone getting accepted by their colleges and im having a really hard time not comparing myself. I feel like my pure ocd has taken up my life and I wish my mind let me believe that I could work hard enough for these universities that I wanted to apply to. I feel so much embarrassment and shame in myself for having to stay in my hometown while everyone goes away to college. I can’t blame everything on my ocd, im still having a hard time accepting that I have it, I just wish I was better
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- 12w
Hey all. I need help. I am sitting on my bathroom floor freaking out and convinced that all my work towards getting better has gone out the window. I am so scared of the “bad guy” getting me all the time. I constantly feel like I have to prove to God that I don’t mean these awful feelings and thoughts that I have about the bad guy. I’ve had trouble sleeping tonight, going in and out of consciousness, all while dealing with bad thoughts going in and out of my head. Finally I woke up and am flooded with “you have so many thoughts and feeling that you let slide while you were trying to sleep. You had thoughts that you accepted the bad guy and you didn’t dispute them before you tried to move on. You have so much to answer for.” So now I’m sitting here in my bathroom floor hysterically crying and begging God to believe me when I say I don’t any of these thoughts or feelings… please someone help
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